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Ragz and Bitches by Tsukiko-koe
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Gorillaz OC Lilith by Tsukiko-koe Gorillaz OC Lilith :icontsukiko-koe:Tsukiko-koe 7 16 Crystal gem OC: Rock Crystal by Tsukiko-koe Crystal gem OC: Rock Crystal :icontsukiko-koe:Tsukiko-koe 13 18 Lilith revamped by Tsukiko-koe
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ALERT I am going to be changing the numbering of the chapters.  Now instead of them being long chapters divided into parts (ch 1 part 2, etc) those second and third parts are going to just be the next chapters.  So now Chapter 1 part 2 is becoming chapter 2 and so on and so forth.  
Disclaimer: Getting the disclaimer out of the way as usual, any canon and copyrighted characters of Mass Effect that appear in this story are property of Bioware. I make no profit from posting this.
Chapter Fifteen
Entering the Starboard Observation room, Garrus wasn’t surprised to find he wasn’t alone. With the constant coming and going of activity on the crew deck, the observation rooms had been designed specifically with recreational needs in mind and by the looks of it no expenses were spared in making the rooms as comfy and inviting as possible for the average employee looking to unwind. It wasn’t unusual for several crewmembers to be lazing about
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ME:Now That We've Lived to See Tomorrow Chapter14
ALERT I am going to be changing the numbering of the chapters.  Now instead of them being long chapters divided into parts (ch 1 part 2, etc) those second and third parts are going to just be the next chapters.  So now Chapter 1 part 2 is becoming chapter 2 and so on and so forth.  
Disclaimer: Getting the disclaimer out of the way as usual, any canon and copyrighted characters of Mass Effect that appear in this story are property of Bioware. I make no profit from posting this.
Chapter Fourteen
It had been a considerably long time since Garrus had been able to say he was well and truly bored.
He had done the calibrations, he had recalibrated them, he re-recalibrated them—twice—and it was reaching the point that if he did anymore, he’d probably break the blasted thing out of some subconscious desire to provide himself with something more interesting to fiddle with. It was frustrating; the lack of activity to keep him busy, to
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So today my most favorite actor and one of my heroes passed away, the beloved and talented Alan Rickman.  I still remember the first time I ever saw a movie with him in it.

The first adult movie I ever saw, at one of those young ages where mummies and daddies shoo you out of the room late at night, was Die Hard.  Before that movie I followed the very strict instructions of my mother to listen to her when she said some movies just weren't for my eyes.  I remember an Easter dinner where one of the older children in the "children's designated room for the evening" turned on Jurassic park when I was six and I got up and left the room to spend the evening with my mom, sitting by the fireplace bored out of my mind listening to conversations about work and finances.  I remember being the only kid in my Third grade class who didn't raise her hand when my teacher asked who had seen Titanic (and was the only child praised for her upbringing following that question). 

But one evening mom was at choir practice and dad was alone on the couch watching one of his favorite films about a police officer on the verge of a divorce going to see his wife and kids on Christmas eve and being caught up in the heist of the century by a charismatic but dangerous German with a hypnotically deep voice(dear god that sounds like a porno opening when worded like that).  When I popped my little head into the living room with wide curious eyes, my father didn't shoo me away but rather let me sit down with him and watch what became one of my favorite movies. 

I had never read the Harry Potter books when my class was taken to see the first movie on a field trip (my school was not caught up in any of the "It's witchcraft, ban it!" drivel that other schools were caught up in), so I had no clue who Snape was.  The very first scene I laid eyes on in in the theater I was captivated by him.  There was something about the way he moved so sinister, how he talked so eloquently but condescendingly, the way who swooped around the room like he owned the place and everyone in it while his voice rumbled out of him that caught my interest.  It wouldn't be until a year or two later that I read the books and truly fell for the character, but before that, it had only taken me five seconds of the first film to fall for the actor and his rendition of the character. When I got home and told my parents about him, my father blew my mind when he revealed the same actor had played my previous fixation, Hans Gruber.  That sealed it for me; it cemented my love of the actor, my fixation with his voice, and my later near fanatic level of love for Severus Snape.  That man became my hero and one of the subjects that bonded me closer to my father.

We all have our reasons for our dreams or goals, why we want to be successful or why we want a certain career.  When I first started writing and drawing, I had a dream to meet my heroes.  To become so famous or successful in one of those fields that I may someday walk up to my heroes and shake their hand, look them in the eye and thank them for being the inspiration that brought me to that moment.  To have them look back at me and not see an obsessive fan or foolish girl, but see an artist or writer with a dream and a drive and respect me for it, support me for having tried at all.  To be equals on the same level.  I wanted that so badly.  I still want that.

But the trouble with finding your heroes when you are so young is that many of them will not live long enough for you to grow up and pursue those dreams to their fullest.  Many will die of old age or illness and you'll still be one square one, step one of your plan to success and yet another person you so admired and wanted to meet is wiped off the face of the earth, leaving behind a legacy and a heartache from a fan who never met them and struggles with wondering if they even have a right to mourn so strongly a person they never knew personally.  But they way they touched our lives, WAS personal.  And losing them still hurts.

Alan Rickman, you were one of those true talents that made me want to try to be somebody instead of just anybody.  You made me want to shoot for the stars and be great, be inspirational enough to motivate others and touch their lives they way you touched mine.  I know I am silly to some for crying so much over you when you never even knew I existed, but you meant so much to me for such a long time and you will leave a deep hole in my heart that will take time to fill.  Thank you for meaning that much to me; thank you for impacting my life so deeply. 

Rest in peace, Alan
You will be missed

                                                                     ...Always...

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Tsukiko-koe

Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
I withhold the right to be clinically insane!

Current Residence: where ever i damn well please
Favourite genre of music: celtic, japanese, opera, j rock, classical, pretty much whatever has decent lyrics or a decent rhythm
MP3 player of choice: iPod nano
Personal Quote: mind...gutter...must separate..., When God gives you lemons YOU FIND A NEW GOD!!!
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ragzd Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2015
Nice to have you in our group, I hope you like it here. GorillazOcCorp is glad to have you and your oc.

I'm really excited to have you in the group!
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Nicorasu Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Student Digital Artist
why doesnt this thing have a chat thing or whatever
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Tsukiko-koe Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No idea.  It has useless things like tagging complete strangers in order to make them look at our art, but it lacks a more basic and useful form of chatting with each other.
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Nicorasu Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Student Digital Artist
i know right? a chat would be so useful :c
do you have any other way of comunication??? like skype or, idk, anything????
if u dont feel comfortable giving it away its all right!!! (also if u do have one u can send it by notes, of course, if you wish too!!!!)
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Tsukiko-koe Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Skype works for me.
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SIERRAREYNA Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2014  Student General Artist
thanks for the fav! \(^w^)/
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Deemonef Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:squee:Thank you so mch for the fav:huggle:
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Midnight-Blackened Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2013
:) Many thanks for the :+fav:
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Jazeria Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Professional General Artist
Thanks for all the faves!! :)
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Ayame1014 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconilikeitplz: Thank you for joining our group!
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