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Moving On
I’ve been here before
Long ago, stagnant waters
Your chaos burnt me
And you sought my destruction
Yet I uncovered my seed.
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everlasting by trappedwitch everlasting :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 1 0 Remembrance by trappedwitch Remembrance :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 0 delicate memory by trappedwitch delicate memory :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 0
Literature
you and me

i thought we were lovers
but turns out-
i'm just in love
a l o n e
(as nothing but a ghost).
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Literature
we love our goodbyes
Loosen your grip
s l o w l y
Let the blood in my veins
f l o w , once more
before you
let me go.
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Reborn by trappedwitch Reborn :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 7 0 Alistair by trappedwitch Alistair :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 0
Literature
for neither never, nor ever
when did the darkness get this close?
'm crashing
& burning around the edges of my soul,
it crept up into my eyes
while i barely slept.
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little diamonds of the sky by trappedwitch little diamonds of the sky :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 12 2
Literature
choke
softly --
c i r c l i n g
,
your fingertips against my throat..  
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little one by trappedwitch little one :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 3
Literature
on how to cope
It starts with telling yourself this isn’t a dream ,
You aren’t dreaming, i know you want to be dreaming but you’re not
It goes like telling yourself you’ll be okay, that things will be okay
Even though you feel with all your heart that it’ll , you’ll never be okay again
After a few days( weeks ) (months) (years) you think you’re feeling okay
The initial shock has worn off , it’s starting to sink in
& maybe it doesn’t hurt as bad as you thought it would
& this sounds counterproductive but remind yourself it’ll hurt
Remind yourself you’re not okay
Remember it’s okay to not be okay
These things take time, so much time, the loss of someone close to you leaves a hole where they were before
& it feels like it’s just empty space, that they’re gone and you’ll never find anything to replace that
It’ll be hard
Depending on how you handle things you might try to bury yourself in things to fill the emp
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ripple by trappedwitch ripple :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 3 0 hidden sorrow by trappedwitch hidden sorrow :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 0 you don't know me by trappedwitch you don't know me :icontrappedwitch:trappedwitch 5 0

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Goutte34 by hubert61 Goutte34 :iconhubert61:hubert61 75 4 Hanging On v4 by hannes-flo Hanging On v4 :iconhannes-flo:hannes-flo 111 2 Early Yuletide by Phenix59 Early Yuletide :iconphenix59:Phenix59 117 16
Literature
blue
sometimes inside,
a vacancy sign lights--
a new moon hangs on my sighs;
imperceptable tracings
by the naked eye, the rim of my smile,
all the rest, missing for an innumerable time.
blooms beauty in infinity when gazed upon infintismally;
my eyes wandered too long in the ink between stars
and I have not looked quite the same since--
or so says my love
in the distance, across plains, deadened by dust and debris --
before long, caught in gusts of my unrelenting rain;
call it a wash,
these efforts against the monsoon;
on the other side of the storm, guileless, green grows;
still, unto the black dome
I unswallow the fullest moon,
and all is bright, all is bright for now.
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Literature
Unsettled
fire stepped out of its place in the hearth -
a shift like turbulence, a silent rattle
in the dead of sleep that lifts eyelids;
yet time turns over and over -
as thoughts in the sleepless do -
never a pause for any one,
never a concern for tired bones.
it wrings the cloth in me;
nausea and a smile are 
unhappily wed, for no one
asked for objections.
when will it end?
the feeling of standing on the edge
wobbly legs, lightheadedness;
the home is cold, bitter and blistered
and still tomorrow stops by for a visit
even in this bleak subsistence 
I must answer the door with repletion
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been feeling incredibly stuck 
mostly in the moments of my trauma, frozen , dissociated for a year and 2 months- honestly still going 
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i've felt like i had to hide here, details 
it's hard to me to trust anyone , to talk to, or see me as who i am 
not sharing my work anymore 
it's been a rough road , and rougher still as i keep on
,
i tried to get help because seven months ago i tried to end it and woke up anyways 
diagnosed with ptsd, bipolar type 2 , depression, anxiety/panic disorder 
on medications that make me feel sicker than ever
i want to be normal again.. 

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i've been here before, as some of you know. 
i had to leave but always find myself back ,
my given name is Cat
Elvira was my chosen public name
sorry i felt the need to hide. 
--
i hope to be around more , maybe 
who knows 
i sure as fuck don't. 
  • Listening to: kali yuga


I’ve been here before
Long ago, stagnant waters
Your chaos burnt me
And you sought my destruction
Yet I uncovered my seed.
Moving On
maybe one day i can tell you who i was 
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been feeling incredibly stuck 
mostly in the moments of my trauma, frozen , dissociated for a year and 2 months- honestly still going 
-
i've felt like i had to hide here, details 
it's hard to me to trust anyone , to talk to, or see me as who i am 
not sharing my work anymore 
it's been a rough road , and rougher still as i keep on
,
i tried to get help because seven months ago i tried to end it and woke up anyways 
diagnosed with ptsd, bipolar type 2 , depression, anxiety/panic disorder 
on medications that make me feel sicker than ever
i want to be normal again.. 

-

i've been here before, as some of you know. 
i had to leave but always find myself back ,
my given name is Cat
Elvira was my chosen public name
sorry i felt the need to hide. 
--
i hope to be around more , maybe 
who knows 
i sure as fuck don't. 
  • Listening to: kali yuga

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hubert61 Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2018
merci pour les favs :) (Smile)
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Banicsidy Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fav!
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trappedwitch Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2018
my pleasure
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Thank you for the :+fav: :FlowerCrown: by stuck-in-suburbia
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trappedwitch Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2018
you're welcome <3
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:heart: 
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trappedwitch Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2018
<3
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner May 10, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
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I hope you have a beautiful day, darling girl. :heart:
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trappedwitch Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2018
thankyousomuch for the lovely message
sosorry its taken me almost a month to reply
hope you've been well<3
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LadyLincoln Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome, honey. I sincerely hope it was a happy day for you. 
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