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Improved Terms for Tulpamancers
Instead of using "Host," use "Creator." "Host" refers to the original identity. (It's also an outdated term for an Apparently Normal Part.) "Creator" refers to the fact that Tulpamancers create the people inside them.
Instead of using "Headmate," use "Tulpa" (the word specifically for this community) or, if you're like me, "Character." Remember they're not truly separate from us.
"Tulpa System" instead of just "System." (It serves for specification.)
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Let Me Clarify (Chaz)
        My mom had a delusion, which she became a different person when she changed clothes. For years, the doctors thought she had D.D.N.O.S. [Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified, now called Other Specified Dissociative Disorder.] So, she was plural because she was referring to herself and the people she thought she turned into. Because she had a certain number of outfits, my mom's delusion looked like an Alter System that switches often.
        I felt the need to clear a few things. I assume you were using this information to attack me, so I thought you should at least get your facts straight.
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Voices Wear Blankets
Weird Voice 1: "I'M AN IDIOT WEARING A BLANKET OVER MY HEAD!"
Kenji: (*giggles*)
Weird Voice 2: "I'M AN IDIOT WEARING A BLACK BLANKET OVER MY HEAD!"
3: "I'M AN IDIOT WEARING A RED BLANKET OVER MY HEAD!"
4: "WE'RE IDIOTS WEARING BLANKETS OVER OUR HEADS!"
5: "AND WE'RE RUNNING IN CIRCLES!"
Kenji: :rofl:
Kenji: I wish all my voices were nice.
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Dissociative Disorder Appointment (Part 3)
The following words are an adapted version of the Dissociative Disorders Interview Schedule, developed by Doctor Colin A. Ross, M.D. He has granted permission to copy and distribute this structured clinical interview.
Technically speaking, I’m copying this document, but I’m adapting it to prevent frustration over the format.
THE FOLLOWING RESPONSES MUST NOT BE USED FOR RESEARCH BECAUSE THEY ARE THE RESPONSES OF A FICTIONAL CHARACTER.
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DEMOGRAPHIC DATA FOR DISSOCIATIVE DISORDERS INTERVIEW SCHEDULE
 
 
Age:    [33]
Sex: (Male= 1, Female= 2)     [1]
Marital Status: (Single= 1, Married= 2, Separated/Divorced= 3, Widowed= 4)       [2]
No. of Children:          [0]
Occupat
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Didn't My Lord Deliver Daniel?
"I ask you, my brothers and sisters: didn't Our Lord deliver Daniel?"
(Muttering) "Yes." "He sure did."
"I can't hear you. Didn't Our Lord deliver... Daniel !?"
(A person) "Yes!"
"Didn't Our Lord deliver Jonah!?"
(More people) "Yes!"
"Didn't He deliver the children!?"
(People) "Yes!"
"And the Israelites!?"
"YES!"
"Then what's stopping Him from delivering us!? Nothing!"
Didn't my Lord deliver Daniel,
Deliver Daniel, deliver Daniel?
Oh yes, my Lord delivered Daniel!
So, why not every man? [×2]
Oh, the moon run down
In a purple steam;
The sun forbear to shine.
And e'ry star did disappear--
King Jesus shall-a-be mine!
Didn't my Lord deliver Daniel,
Deliver Daniel, deliver Daniel?
Oh yes, my Lord delivered Daniel!
So, why not every man? [×2]
He delivered Daniel
From the Lions' den,
Jonah from the
Belly of the whale, and
The Hebrew children
From the fiery furnace!
SO, WHY NOT EVERY MAN!?
Didn't my Lord deliver Daniel,
Deliver Dani
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Dissociative Disorder Appointment (Part 2)
QUESTIONNAIRE - DISSOCIATIVE EXPERIENCES SCALE II
ONE - 100%
“I don’t remember anything during car rides. Kenji says I speak in the third person. I should tell you now that when I speak in the third person, I’m not there; I’m usually watching. So, I guess you can say he’s me in the third person. He’s me, but he’s not me.”
 
TWO - 50%
“Besides staring off into space, I’m usually listening. I’m in control most of the time. However, when another person inside me is in control, I usually don’t listen because the person isn’t talking to me.”
 
THREE - 10%
“That happens to the other people more often than it happens to me.”
FOUR - 30%
“Alley doesn’t like to be in control, but when she is, she often goes back to the townhouse to find a dress she bought and change into that. She hates my style.”
 
FIVE - 100%
“Reflection does the shopping. I don’t
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Dissociative Disorder Appointment (Part 1)
Name: Roxy Schelly
Trauma experienced:
According to R.T.P., Roxy witnessed the hit-and-run of a friend he calls Diamond: “Roxy and Diamond were playing hide-and-seek. It was his turn, and when he found Diamond, she was broken everywhere. It was September. They were playing in an alley in LoDo, and the year was 1993.”
The aftermath wasn’t any better. Diamond’s parents blamed Roxy, thinking he had lured their daughter into the alleyway. When he asked about the death, the answer was always, “the car hit Jordan. It wasn’t your fault.”
Besides the investigation, Diamond’s death (in Roxy’s household) was swept under the rug for fear of disturbing the dead.
No one gave Roxy any way to cope with the trauma because anyone who could have and would have were too busy.
Age of onset: 11 years
According to the information I was given by Roxy, his friends, family, and the Alters:
Four Alters: Roxy in the Third Person (E.P.), Unknown (E.P., suicida
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Yes, we are definitely sure.
Are we sure the lyrics are "fear is how I fall?"
Are we sure the lyrics are "fear is how I fall?"
I just figured out how to set up SPIRAL!

Because the dates help the reader keep track of time, I shall divide it in chronological order by year, month, and day.

However, I need to make a cast of characters because I wrote the scenes out of chronological order, so the first chronological events do not describe the characters.
I will write the new draft for SPIRAL. I will write the new draft for SPIRAL. I will write the new draft for SPIRAL.
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depression comix #425
See it on the site -> www.depressioncomix.com/posts/…

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And I'm glaring at Temporal Lobe Epilepsy and Lewy Body Dementia!
I'd like to thank medical conditions and disorders for making mental illnesses harder to diagnose. (I'm looking at you, thyroid disorders!)
I'd like to thank medical conditions and disorders for making mental illnesses harder to diagnose. (I'm looking at you, thyroid disorders!)

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Reflection, Kenji, R.T.P., Alley, Roxy, Chaz, Brian, and Rebecca are separate from me.

Kenji uses my "thought processor" the most. He likes talking to himself, so he uses it when in the shower or doing the dishes. (He also likes doing my math worksheets.) Kenji and I talk to each other often.

Reflection likes using my thought processor when I listen to didgeridoo music and make tea. He talk to Roxy and teaches him his magick. (Alley and R.T.P. don't use my thought processor as often.)

Recently, I've been talking to Chaz when I do my math homework because he's good at math. (However, he argues with Kenji over how to solve the problems; he's nit-picky when it comes to math.)

Brian feels separate from me, and so does Rebecca. (As a matter of fact, Rebecca and Chaz are a couple, and they talk to each other often.)

I tell you this experience with full awareness that my characters ARE NOT Alters.

I haven't said anything (besides mentioning it on WordPress) until now for fear of being called fake. Because of this worry, I've called their use of my thought processor "moods." I don't like calling them that because my characters aren't "moods;" they're separate people inside me.

Anyway, because of this experience I have begun to look into Tulpamancy, the conscious formation of tulpae, or sentient entities separate from yourself. From a psychological perspective, it is the formation of controlled hallucinations (which is healthy.) The subculture, according to this Psychology Today article (www.psychologytoday.com/us/blo…), originates from the adoption of a Tibetan Buddhist spiritual practice.

So far, my research on Tulpamancy has made me feel more comfortable about Kenji, Reflection, R.T.P., Roxy, Alley, Chaz, Brian, and Rebecca being separate from me because this subculture gives me explanation: These characters are Tulpae. They are entities I have created and treated as separate. (However, because this separation was unintentional, they are accidental Tulpae.)

If I find that Tulpamancy is right for me, it will change how I talk about my characters because I would have entered a subculture which allows me to talk about my characters as they truly are: individual people, separate from my self.

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I'm an Evanescence Freak and a Street Soldier (Linkin Park fan.) I guess you can call me a hybrid.

-I have ADD.



-I don't care what you say about me, but if you say mean things about my friends and family (this includes Linkin Park), I will defend them to no end.

- I'm obsessed with Mike Shinoda.




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Thank you for Watching me; I thought you always were though, lol.

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