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even if you knew
i wish i didn't miss you, you've made it all too clear i have never been anything to you; but here i am holding onto a thread of hope that maybe you'll return to be my friend i have a feeling that this optimism past the point of foolishness- yet i miss you like the moon crying out for the night, but you will never come again; will you? i miss you more than words can adequately express, but i doubt you'd care; even if you knew.
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white wedding
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haunting thought
muses are such fickle things i pray yours returns these plots we spun into existence i don't want to lose into some distant sea never to be seen again because i cannot endure the haunting thought of losing you forever.
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please stay
what will be will be, but i don't want you to go; maybe that's selfish yet i see your reluctance so i know that you don't want  to leave i hope you can find a way to stay.
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no one should walk alone
are you so lost, you'll never be found? i pray that's not true every day you don't say another word i slip into a silent despair not knowing if you're just busy or if you mean to leave, and i don't want you to go; i have lost so many friends this time i want someone to care enough to stay even if it's hard i will always be here to help you carry your burden because no one should walk alone.
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dark phoenix
he tells me not to seek him out, but he finds me; not the other way around— what is wrong with wanting to be found in a world where you feel lost? he says he'll confine me to hogwarts, but i will protest until the stars fall out of the sky; you cannot trap me in the lonely corridors of darkness within myself and expect me to remain beautiful i will become the nightmare— born of fire immortal of the flame i refuse to let anyone extinguish who i am, and if they try i will cut them on all the thorns of the roses untrue to me; all of my life i have been the hero sometimes i want to play the villain baby be the monster they accuse me o
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song of falling snow
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Walking In A Winter Wonderland
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maybe it's petty, but it's true
i fell in love with a girl once don't worry it wasn't you because she was truer a friend than you'd ever be didn't wheedle me with unnecessary advice and anecdotes or give me advice that i didn't want, and she could properly pronounce gigantic.
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cut you out
you made me feel negative, and guilty for being me; so i took the scissors you stabbed in my back cut you free of my heart i don't regret it to breathe, to live, to dream; and freely be myself is better than living in the shadows pretending to be someone i am not.
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even if you knew
i wish i didn't miss you, you've made it all too clear i have never been anything to you; but here i am holding onto a thread of hope that maybe you'll return to be my friend i have a feeling that this optimism past the point of foolishness- yet i miss you like the moon crying out for the night, but you will never come again; will you? i miss you more than words can adequately express, but i doubt you'd care; even if you knew.
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white wedding
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haunting thought
muses are such fickle things i pray yours returns these plots we spun into existence i don't want to lose into some distant sea never to be seen again because i cannot endure the haunting thought of losing you forever.
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p
please stay
what will be will be, but i don't want you to go; maybe that's selfish yet i see your reluctance so i know that you don't want  to leave i hope you can find a way to stay.
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no one should walk alone
are you so lost, you'll never be found? i pray that's not true every day you don't say another word i slip into a silent despair not knowing if you're just busy or if you mean to leave, and i don't want you to go; i have lost so many friends this time i want someone to care enough to stay even if it's hard i will always be here to help you carry your burden because no one should walk alone.
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dark phoenix
he tells me not to seek him out, but he finds me; not the other way around— what is wrong with wanting to be found in a world where you feel lost? he says he'll confine me to hogwarts, but i will protest until the stars fall out of the sky; you cannot trap me in the lonely corridors of darkness within myself and expect me to remain beautiful i will become the nightmare— born of fire immortal of the flame i refuse to let anyone extinguish who i am, and if they try i will cut them on all the thorns of the roses untrue to me; all of my life i have been the hero sometimes i want to play the villain baby be the monster they accuse me o
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song of falling snow
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Walking In A Winter Wonderland
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m
maybe it's petty, but it's true
i fell in love with a girl once don't worry it wasn't you because she was truer a friend than you'd ever be didn't wheedle me with unnecessary advice and anecdotes or give me advice that i didn't want, and she could properly pronounce gigantic.
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c
cut you out
you made me feel negative, and guilty for being me; so i took the scissors you stabbed in my back cut you free of my heart i don't regret it to breathe, to live, to dream; and freely be myself is better than living in the shadows pretending to be someone i am not.
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Lily, My Bitterness .
Lily, my bitterness seethes within my veins with unbridled will, Though, it's been many years since you died it hangs around me still. Did you think that I wouldn't be upset when you chose that fool? It was all that I could do to keep myself from lashing out, keep myself in control. I guess my love for you was stronger than your friendship for me, I wish that I hadn't been so stupid, I wish you would have listened to my plea. Oh, Lily, my bitterness plunges me into nightmares of a hellish nature, I dream of your milk white face, those emerald eyes, a heart so pure. You betrayed me and then I turned around and betrayed you worse, I ca
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Well, Yuna and I talked a bit today. I reached out so maybe that's just what it's going to take. I forget some people aren't good at reaching out to others. I used to be the person you'd have to say hello to first, so I really cannot complain. I'm just glad we had a chat even if it were brief. Because I know she has a life of her own to live. It just makes me happy that she confirmed my worst thoughts wrong, that she really does care. Because let's be honest I had convinced myself she didn't care, at all. But I was also going through a mental funk, and we all know what those can do to our minds. I'm just glad it's over - all the needless pai
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Hmm
Not sure what to think - just when I thought I'd been forgotten for good, I got tagged by my friend in a video on social media today. Maybe she does care. Maybe I'm just reading into things too much like I'm good at. Maybe I need to stop worrying about things outside of my control, and just remember to breathe. I miss her, but maybe she needs her space. Maybe she'll let me in on what was bothering her later or if she were going through something. For now I'm just going to focus on my writing and try to enjoy the rest of my day off.
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Jorgipie|Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav! Bunny Emoji-72 (Kawaii) [V4] cherry blossom 
March's Gift by Jorgipie
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thysilverdoe|Professional Writer
You're welcome. :)
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Dear Linda, Happy birthday. May your life be filled with health, love and success. Love Vero. :cake::party::love::dalove::dance:
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thysilverdoe|Professional Writer
Thank you so much, Vero! <3 
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fhelalr| Digital Artist
Wonderful collection of artworks, dear Linda!
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thysilverdoe|Professional Writer
Thank you. :) 
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