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My Sona Story

Sat Feb 21, 2015, 12:38 PM
Okay, this is sort of out of nowhere, but I got to thinking about the subject and how I've noticed many other people with sonas have a large progression of how their design changed over time, which I don't seem to have. I thought, hey, maybe there's a reason for this, and now that I'm on topic maybe I should write it down. Either to get my thoughts down or just to share with peeps who might be similar, I dunno TTvTT enjoy this silly mess.

WARNING. This is basically a giant silly ramble over something nobody really cares about, so don't feel inclined to read it TTvTT A giant silly thought-bubble, yeah.

To start, like I said, there's graphs out there showing the progressions of sona's designs of other people, which is what got me on topic. Why have I never made a graph like this myself? My art seems to change a lot and improve, and one thing I've gotten a heck of a lot better at since when I first joined this site was designing. It's practically a default that I should have something like this, so why not?

Well, turns out I really haven't changed my sona(s) much at all. I had Spotty, then I improved her design, and now I also have my Umbreonsona when I got bored of being a simple cat. Three changes total. As it turns out, I really just don't use my sonas as much as I'd think, heck I used Spotty a lot for only a few shoddy animations, and that was 3 years ago. As I remember at that point I think what I was trying to do was mimic the style of peeps on youtube I loved a lot, like splashkittyartist or spottedfire. My sona's name was spottedshadow for goodness sake, though it wasn't because I stole, it was the name I generated on the official Warriorcats site back when I was really into it TTvTT

Past that, I never really drew my sona... at all. Maybe once or twice when I had a silly pun or had no idea what to draw whatsoever, but that was it.

Truth is, I just don't like incorporating myself into my art often, and when I do I'd much prefer represent myself as, well, myself, instead of a design I could use for something different. The more things I've made involving myself in art, the more I've just drawn a semi-chibi human version of myself. Often when I do it's only to get a message across or share a funny experience, I tend to share jokes through my OCs now.

And that's where I've made the turn, I think ;v; I do stuff through my OCs nowadays, not myself. I prefer it way <3 heck, I'm not sure why I have a sona any more at all, they're just designs that get wasted when I could use them as potential OCs with their own personalities and stories. For example my recent Umbreonsona was a design a liked a lot, many people drew art for them in fact, but when I looked at them I always saw them as having a different personality to mine. Cool and collected, no-nonsense, not how I'd represent myself at all. I just wanted an Umbreonsona with 6 legs.

So why don't I like involving myself in my own art, or representing myself as a character? I'm pretty sure it stems from the fact that I don't like to involve myself as a character with my own OCs to begin with. Why? Well, this will probably be a major clue - the first and only sona I ever, EVER used actively like my OCs nowadays, the only one I actually daydreamed about or made stories for... was... a Mary Sue. Yep. We all had one, and the reaction was as expected. Once I found out what I Mary Sue was and figured my persona was one, first I tried to salvage the character, but it wasn't long before I abandoned the character or any memory of them whatsoever, shunned the idea in my mind, and ever since when I've thought of myself interacting with my OCs it's been far too uncomfortable and I just plain don't do it since I don't want the same thing to happen. I mean, it's highly unlikely, since that time I've learned a heck of a lot about designing characters, not just in physical design but personality and backstory and traits and such. But I guess the point is, after learning the hard way, it's just not something that I'd like to dabble in in general, and let's leave it at that TTvTT; Heck, I'd like to say that it was a long time ago, and it definitely feels like it was and kind of is, but heck, it was less than 4 years ago. I remember daydreaming about them when I was first getting into Homestuck. So I guess it's been a while but not really??? Ghh, the important thing is thank god I didn't upload anything here about them. Thank. fucking. god.

So what I'm getting at here I guess is, is there really a point to me having a sona really? When I won't use it? I still heavily associate Spotty with myself, but my Umbreonsona could be used for something much better, which I'd be so much more enthusiastic about. Nowadays I daydream about my fanventure OCs the way I used to daydream about my Mary Sue persona, except, well... intelligently, I guess. Daydreaming about them allows me to give them character development and if I'm ever giving one too much attention then I can focus on another, if they don't seem interesting enough to me then I find a way to make them interesting, if they ever start stepping ever so slightly into Sue territory I give them genuine flaws in order to bring them back. Heck, when I think about it, going through the Mary Sue phase taught me a lot, made a good impact on my life in how I make judgements and decisions creating characters. If you never went through a Mary Sue phase, #1 I'm impressed, and #2 maybe actively searching out badly made characters and Mary Sues would give you great example of what not to do when making characters of your own.

So yeah, this journal was long and pretty useless, but maybe you guys can take something from it. Hey, while we're on topic (and if you managed to hang around long enough to get here thank you btw ;A;) maybe if you guys wanted to share your experiences with me, I'd be very happy to listen ;v; Did you have a Mary Sue phase? How do you use your sonas? Do you have a sona at all or are you like me and you think there wouldn't be much point to have one yourself?

Also, take this cookie. Thank you guys for being so patient with me, haha TTvTT and my silly rants

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Nya-Minty-Nya Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I had a Mary Sue phase once. It's name changed many times but I now remember it as Crookedclaw. *Sigh* This sona is so terrible if I ever met it in real life I would immediately shoot it in the face with my Mary-Sue-Bypassing Author powers. (It's how I keep my old Mary Sues in check in my headcanon) I will stop calling it an it and recognize it as female. Crookedclaw was the worst sona (And OC in general) you will ever lay eyes upon, in my opinion.
So, apparently, Crookedclaw knew everything there was to know about demons and humans and pretty much every other race. She was a mix between demon and wolf and a countless amount of other things.
She was constantly changing features. She apparently had wings at one point.
She had the worst attempt at a dramatic backstory.
She had a huge warclaw for a right hand, which when I look back upon, seemed like a cliche.
Her warclaw could change elements apparently...?
She couldn't be killed unless I used my Author powers, which I didn't know even existed back then.
She could turn anything into dust.
She had /every power to ever exist/.

I don't even want to get into her design because... just... ugh..
ThisAccountIsDead462 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'll admit, that's brave of you to share what you're Mary Sue actually was ;^; I might, I dunno. Whenever I think about it I start mumbling at myself to shut up shut up sHUT UP, oh god the horror
Nya-Minty-Nya Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand that feeling XD I actually reformed that Mary Sue a long time ago with a much better backstory, more flaws, only two powers (Speed enhancement and the ability to turn limbs into a fair variety of weapons), so I'm a little more confident about sharing that old character.
starlightCorvid Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Student General Artist
Mary sue phase more like me right now and always (not quite tho my sona is pretty op...except for the fact chirpy doesn't give a shit about anything and would rather hybernate than do anything at all) 
I've stopped worrying about that ,specially since I don't ahve any proffessional plans for my oc's (it's more for fun, if i ever decided to actually make a proyect with oc's , I'd do new ones and actually take them seriously, but honestly what's the issue with self inserts, mary sues and other things of the like if you are having fun? i think none) 
ThisAccountIsDead462 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Self inserts can be done right ;O; It's just a... very tricky business TT~TT that I personally wouldn't want to get so involved in. Which is stupid now that I'm thinking about it, I'm making a fanventure, it's nigh unavoidable. How am I gonna...
starlightCorvid Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Student General Artist
idk man if you don't want to there's fanadventures that never use the creator (take guidestuck, as main example)
omanomnom Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Student Digital Artist
ahhh i know the feel with not wanting to use a sona-i used to be pretty fixated on finding THE PERFECT SONA but i never quite did 
and now ive realised i dont think i ever will, but thats okay, because im a lot happier with actually drawing myself now |D 
i still have some sonas, but thats mostly so i can draw stuff for friends and draw myself in it without it looking too odd hehehe 

but mary sue phases-i dont see any harm in them! its usually just people starting off in character creation, and we've all gotta start somewhere :3 
i think it helps develop characters too, its definitely reminded me that characters need flaws in order to be realistic! i always keep that in mind when im developing now ;w;
ThisAccountIsDead462 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, that makes a lot of sense though haha TTvTT guess I just don't do a lot of friend collab pictures or that sort of stuff... *holds onto Spotty in case it's ever needed tho*

And yeah, Mary Sue stages can be seen as pretty healthy ;v; as long as you don't stay there forever, or generally don't share too much of it with others. Not saying the sharing doesn't happen, I just think if it ever happened with myself I'd be so annoyed TTvTT;;; but it never went any further than some awkward old traditional sketches that I ripped up once I was done with it all ;O;
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