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More sketch and lineart to come... Honestly my goals are to get 50 fanart watercolor pieces completed and set up in my journal. 50 OC watercolor illustrations. 25...? Maybe 50 (ugh) colored pencil illustrations. I say ugh as, I have only become more anal in my time working, so where previously colored pencils was relaxing... now I like the blending variety too much and what once took a long day... now takes weeks x_X ANYWAY! Then, maybe mixed media on cardstock like my kids book series that people love? Input is AAAAAALWAYS welcome. Heh. 50 GIMP illustrations, then need to print to have the prints available for purchase and browsing in general... Hoping stock variant of cards, inb any capacity... 10 new styles of earrings, (hoping!), magnets... 2 new New Hampshire illustrations, 4 new Cape, and maybe 5... Massachusetts? I have yet to paint my homestate... but it just... doesn't quite take my breath away always. I have definitely seen some glorious times... but not always. So, we will see. Blelelele. More to come? Hoping? Things getting a bit tricky as my parents health has spiraled down. Full admission, they always have fought an uphill battle. But as of recently both of their longterm ailments? Have spiraled out, and aquired friends... as pope luck has it. So I am painting fanatically when I can! But... a bit frazzled. Any requests, comments, and the like are always lovely. Thank you!
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Drinking: Quenchiest of Quenching Stuff
:) So for those new. I am Tzigane. I like painting, drawing, doodling... basically my a.d.d hyperactivity is fine tuned to my hands. I wish I was kidding on that, it results in some interesting quirks of character... ANYWAY! Just trying to see who is still keeping an eye out and looking for feedback! What would you like to see more of? As my facebook page is all crickets... which is where I turned away from drawings OC's... The most responses get the vote! Or... I will use your feedback as a distraction from the projects I am supposed to do... and do them all! ;p Please let me know!

1. Oc lineart
2. oc pinups
3. landscapes
4. still life/ flowers
5. portraits
6. watercolor fanart
7. acrylic funky fan art
8. gimp fanart
9. clay earrings
10.  other, and please tell me what! :D
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Drinking: Quenchiest of Quenching Stuff
Sorry for the hiatus. I go through periods of not drawing or... arting in any shape or form. Sometimes it is to get back into writing, sometimes it's music... othertimes. I just don't make anything.  ANYWAY!

I am hoping to crank out at least 1 art a day.... or so. I just had a big craft fair that ended in steaming hell. So... not quite back to my cranking. BUT! Getting there. Working on organization at the moment.

- Have Birthday and Fathers Day FOP I need to do
- Restock earrings
- Paint a new NH landscape
-Comissioned tree...

I like having different projects running so I am less tweaked out on hyper focusing... SO! If I start to get frustrated with one thing, just switch. :p Any ideas of middleground doodles?
  • Watching: Supernatural
  • Drinking: Quenchiest of Quenching Stuff
>> SO! My main computer has a super shitty internet link... So even though I have a scanner and its all nice... -.- Its hooked up to the desktop... Then you may ask why don't I just pull it out and hook it up to the laptop if I will never use the desktop? It has like 9 tiewraps. Ask John I don't know. Man loves tiewraps. So it involves huddling under my desk and trying tot cut off 9 tiewraps. >< But I don't really want to take pictures of my finished products... because I feel it doesn't do them justice... SO! We shall see.

Anyway... other news other news... >> Honestly wanted to do pin ups of all the bad guys in the BG series... started as drawing Carla and Rose and was like ERMAHGERD! But... how the fuck does one draw male pin ups... See this is why I don't objectify men as much as I do women ^^; I like guys... just don't get all jittery at the thought of a guy posing in a mankini. I will drool for a man in a suit... a button-down and jeans. NOM! >> But thats just... seeing them its not like he is flexing... or any shit. I find that... kind of tacky. SO HOW DO I DRAW THAT! And ps looking up anything on Deviantart for hints is a terrible idea because 90% is porn. -.- Plus... one of the guys is bony. And if you look up scrawny guys. You get all sorts of like scrawny guy fettishists and its like REALLY?! I am working on understanding bodies. Male torsos. Less bulked with muscle... But no. -.- I tried one just freehand but no. DISLIKED. sigh

Also... still working on poor Hemlock2009's character sketch. >> Its more clothes than I've drawn on someone in a while. Which sounds weird but clothes are kind of my nemesis. Some people are good at drawing folds in fabric. I never payed any attention to that. When doodling I draw the naked body. Not even in detail just with no bulk, folds... its just a doodle so I find it intimidating. >> So I hope she knows I actually have been working with it. Just don't want to fuck it up -.- and my hands hate me. >< Glad I haven't gotten hate mail

LASTLY! Talk of doing other tutorials. Its true. Several people. I am pretty sure the people who were not looking at the boob tutorial for tutorialness... asked I do... other bits. -.- And honestly that was what I was going to do. People do faces, eyes, lips... and I mean most people have a face, lips or eyes. So even if theres is a little different... You can get an idea. Butts. Female butts and male butts actually tend to look different. I think bubble butts are an exception... >> Dunno never compared now I think of it. ANYWAY! The problem being. I am busty. >> Absurdly so... but don't have a badonkadonk. Why I am mentioning this is. People understand less when things get bigger. If you understand the human skeleton or even have dolls. You get an idea for smaller sizes. But big boobs or butts. Where do you look? I may try looking up different pictures of other people... to try and give range because honestly big butts have variety. Are the butts big because the gal has wide hips but her butt is flat? Does she just put her weight on the bottom half which would mean she also would posess thicker thighs... Does she have a bubble butt? Is she an athlete?! The ass is actually a huge muscle. Not that all girls have it developed as muscle mass but for those people arguing super heroine bums. Actually considering their athletic level a badonkadonk is likely. Look at a nike go girls add. There are a bunch. ANYWAY! I am playing with it... Any other tutorial suggestions NOT PERVERTED -.- Just genuine curiousity and I may try at that as well. I try explaining in multiple ways because everyone learns in different ways *head explodes*
  • Listening to: Fratellis
  • Drinking: Orange
So. I don't know if this is known about me. I don't like people. When I meet them? Maybe. But typically I find males and females to be less desirable... I get along with men better. Except when they fit the stereotype of being unthinking pigs. HOWEVER! I am far from a feminist. In fact. I find most irritating. YES women need rights. I think jobs dominated by women should get better pay. Social work? Teaching? Brutal jobs. Important jobs. For not enough pay. I LIKE BEING ABLE TO VOTE! I am political. I also like deciding if I want to wear a skirt, pants or dress. And... I could never burn my bra. Or even wear a bra with no underwire. Not for vanity but for public safety... my own health!... and okay a bit of vanity. Anyway. When someone starts picking fights about some things. It irritates me. Most things in life do... but in this case I thinking more. All men are evil pigs. Well alright all women are useless layabouts. Not true? Well then stop and think a second about judging an entire group. Don't claim feminism. Its bias. Its hatred. Discrimination. I hate humans till I meet them... but I am not about to say clever things like. Porn sexually exploits women. Comic books sexually exploit women... Video games sexually exploit women...

Porn. Really sexually exploit? What gave the first hint? Their legs being open? Seriously. Porn and hentai actually... tend to be specific. However. Society makes it so sexual women is frowned upon. The guy may appreciate it but if something goes wrong she is a slut. To other women? She is a slut. If a girl even mentions sexual things. It means that is what she is looking for. On the same note though. If a guy mentions sex. A gal assumes he is trying to get into her pants. However my point... male dominated society. What is going to be accessible on the television more often? Good old fashioned true blue porn for men. Nothing edgy. Things that stereotypical men like. There is however porn that is for women. (Not just like the awesome joke Girls With Slingshots made about a unicorn...) I know... not even because I looked because I know some guys who prefer the idea of a girl not moaning fake and loud and just jumping a guy...

COMIC BOOKS! My favorite... is when someone makes a snippy comment about comic books... AND THEY DON'T EVEN FUCKING READ THEM! My oldest sister is a feminist. A... men suck feminist even. She doesn't make comments about comic books. She reads them.Comic books for me... is where separate but equal comes in. Not the racist separation way... I mean men and women are different. Fact... men's bodies more naturally develop muscle. Fact. women can withstand more pain than a man. Fact losing weight takes longer on a woman. Facts... it takes men... as long as it takes them to finish to make a baby and women... more like 2 years. (counting time a baby is actually a defenseless... useless little thing. Don't argue. Until a baby can talk its brain is filtering thousands of different sounds to figure out speaking. However due to that. human babies don't do anything... its all their mommies) Now. Why I am saying that. Think about this. Male models versus female models. Each... flaunt their assets. Women models, thrust their chests out, their asses... pout their lips. Do what is idealized in women. For men and women both. Girls who have no curves get implants... cup inserts.... wear additional padding. To mask it. Girls with curves... wear corsets, spanx... to try and look thinner...with their curves. Now male models. Do not thrust their asses out and pout their lips. They flex their muscles. Show off their abs. Or their shoulders. Nom. A male is "supposed" to have wide shoulders... big muscles...etc etc... SO! What would happen in a comic book. What would they do? THE SAME FUCKING THING. Lord. If I hear another complaint. About female superheroes being sexually expolited I may beat my head into the desk.

Next point of my argument. Warriors. Rogues. (Yes I am dorking it up) Warriors. What do they wear? TYPICALLY huge armor. Thick, heavy. They use muscle. Broadsword, greatsword, claymore... big swords that take huge swings. Less accurate? Slower? But one hit from that shit and you are humped. A rogue? Wears light armor. Thinner. Maybe less in general. They sneak and slip in to dive a knife in your back. How is this related? Well my delightfully bored readers. Male superheroes... WHEN they wear more. Such as Batman more Frank Miller style... more protection... also generally huge. >> other than that...? Wear freaking spandex! It covers everything... But most male super heroes are requiring strength not speed. Notice the humongous muscles on them? Now females. Typically. Due to the smaller muscle... rely more on speed or powers. But powers... require timing as well. >> But no. Men and women. MUST BE THE SAME! I don't see anyone arguing about guys wearing skirts. If a guy wears a skirt he is a queer. >>... Even kilts!... I'm sorry... actually my gay friends weren't rushing for skirts. They were pretty happy in pants that made their ass look cute, legs look longer... Drag queens? Yes. But just every gay guy. That is judgmental to both the gay... and the straight guy wearing a skirt.

Now. I think some of the female costumes are insane. But... I actually don't read comic books for the outfits... sorry. I read em for the epic fights... characters... and sometimes the unique play. Marvel. X:Men. Rogue is... one of the most sexually driven ladies. But can't touch anyone. Nightcrawler looks like a demon but is possibly the most human!

Alright. Next piece to comic books. That their bodies are ridiculous. Someone offered an argument from comic book creations even. That their bodies are modeled after Olympic athletes. Someone sent an irritated retort with actual Olympic athletes... A little less boobful. SO! Lemme break it down. Olympic athletes. Typically are for life. To be the best in your country. To get to represent your country is typically... a lifelong pursuit. FACT! A girl's... development is delayed by muscle mass... exercise. My older sister was a swimmer. Not even an Olympic level but she got hulking shoulders, a sixpack on her back... and didn't get higher than a b cup. Till highschool... and that was when she dropped swimming. So. If these supergals started at the start. Sure. You coulod argue that. But some are naturally strong (Supergirl, power girl, she-hulk, Rogue (after some power theft... but still counts) Also. Quite a few are already women. Their powers pop up. Or they decide to fight crime. So if that... happened... then factor in olympic legs... arms and ass. It factors. Also. >> You don't see many scrawny men...? No guys complain! No guys understand. Comic books are a means of escape. Who wants to look at a fatty or flanbby in spandex and have him lose to his arch nemesis because one nacho too many as opposed to the new ultimate death machine. Ideally. MEN HAVE WIDE SHOULDERS WOMEN HAVE AN HOURGLASS FIGURE. Facially?! Society is most attracted to big eyes, big lips a small nose and apple cheeks.... no arguments there. Just heaven forbid a kid's idol has curves.

Now. here is my problem. I have tits. I always felt like nothing had enough. Cartoons? I never saw them. They were there. I just felt like the less boobed outweighed the boobed. Anime? People spewed over Rukia who has the curves of a 12 year old boy.... romantic anime/manga? I cannot read. The story is always. But I am skinny plain... and not so boobful. I have figured it is my own bias though. Now I would like people to just mix it up. Or not mention it. Hearing every five seconds I am skinny plain and not so boobful... makes it hard to relate to a boobful gal... as much as every five seconds a girl going. OH BUT MY MASSIVE HEAVING BOSSOM... Just shut up either way...

Which leads to video games... How? Because in rpgs... which used to be all I played... You can't change boobsize. Sounds dumb? But... I always make my first character look like me. I'm lame like that. But next. If they do allow boobsize... they don't jiggle. >> As a female. I found that distracting personally. But after Highschool of the dead. I guess I can see how boob physics could be distracting from the story... but why can't there be a happy medium? Or a happy medium for shapes? But no once again. Angry women storm the castle if that occurs

So frankly. Maybe things are sexually exploiting? But I feel that's not so. I feel like its aspects of fantasy. In my rpgs... I want it to be 100% me! :3 Just like the girl who is less endowed may... or maybe she wants to amp it up... like I would love to make my ass actually noticeable. >> In porn... Men are supposed to be hung. The typical male is 5" or at least in America... Males in those movies must be 8" or more. ... Porn. Comic Books. Hell movies. How many chubbers do you see in movies aside from the obligatory chubbster. And "big" girls in those. Are usually a healthy b.m.i. >> Just saying.  Feminists... shush about my escapist means. Go pick a fight with something that actually is removing women's rights... check the American republican party these days... just a hint
  • Listening to: Falling in Reverse
  • Watching: Grimm
  • Eating: Icecream
Will people shut the fuck up about pictures. One. I don't do too many requests because frankly they were offensive. I mean I am not really rah rah women's rights... I am in between Men get mistreated... and so do women. People treat eachother like shit and both piss me off. BUT! Seriously... You keep asking me to draw my characters out of their character. Rae as a stripper? Caelynn with tits? What the shit. Look at their bios... Or its just wanting me to draw your disproportionate females. People... I got oversized tits and I am saying ew... tits the size of people? Not sexy. Look at my boobs tutorial. Tits don't defy gravity. Much to my chagrin.

Next... pictures of me. Really shut the fuck up. I was going to. Because :iconandromind: Joked... she joked and said she needed pics to believe I lost weight. That is playful girl banter that makes a gal feel great. The random Hey you know you trying to do something with your hands not involving my penis is great and all but more nude pics. Fuck you. If I want to use this account soley for drawing. I can. I want to post a picture of me... I can. But people clawing up my fucking ass is not going to get me anywhere. And stop trying to friend me on facebook. if I blocked you here. Why would I be friends with you somewhere I have more personal info.... fuckwads.
  • Listening to: Falling in Reverse
  • Eating: Animal Crackers
Shit's been hectic over in the vatican. First off... Ugh. The base of Glenn... who in real life never seperated from the souless succubi Caelynn. Is now being cheated on. For... a few months now. She told him and said she felt bad. They "talked it out" And it was done. Except the family didn't know and told him a week later she was fooling with the guy. Once again tearful sobfest on her part. And a throw down between Rae's base... and her. Terrifying considering Caelynn's base has the intelligence of a micro organism and Rae is as smart as they come. However.... still living with us. Mercy was given. It was Thanksgiving. Now it is Christmas... and we discover... she still is fooling with the guy. My tiwn is going to despise me. -.- Just saying. HOWEVER! School is done. I am very excited. :3 I have a bunch of pictures to draw. I want to draw... a picture representing the story Cherry and Rj and I discussed last year but procrastinated over. I need to do Mirko's bday present... >> A bit late I know. Hehe. Plus... hoping to make people Christmas presents. However it is... count down till Christmas, well Christmas Eve as I will be unavailable between Christmas Eve... and The day after Christmas. Heading back to New York. WOO! Plus... there is going to be some drama unfortunately. >> I discovered the cheating by peaking at the squealing rampallian wench's phone... and I don't think she will appreciate. >< Uh no. >< Oh well... heh. MERRY CHRISTMAS!


:bulletgreen: Is the hall monitor at the academy
:bulletred: The academy is now also a college! D:
:bulletgreen: Does not actually have only one eye. She injured it a few years back. Had to wear a patch... and now is addicted to eye patches.

:bulletred: Now... doesn't just control demon dimensions and other world's demons... controls all demons. To quite a few she has been named the demon queen. Don't tell her family ^^;
:bulletgreen: Doesn't do much... in her families eyes except hide in Jessie's, Rae's, Pete's rooms. Glenn doesn't live there but he visits her as often as he is willing to detatch from Zana
:bulletred: Less slutty/bratty after her being dead and is a bit more morbid... but mostly quiet... unless she loses her temper

:bulletgreen: Is obsessing about Christmas... has bought about a million presents for each person... not saying how she got the money...
:bulletred: Also has baked fifteen different types of cookies... so far
:bulletgreen: Has hung sparkly three dimensional snowflakes throughuot the house

:bulletred: Is planning something very... special for Zana for Christmas
:bulletgreen: Something that has taken all his time... o.o GASP!
:bulletred: No one... maybe Rae...? Knows where he is going >:3

:bulletgreen: Is allive again!
:bulletred: No we don't know how
:bulletgreen: Somehow... he and Serafina got caught though by Shiera... who barely remembers why she is mad but due to a certain succubi's prodding... punishes them anyway
  • Listening to: A Day to Remember/ Robert Randolph and the Family.
  • Drinking: Tang
[x]Achluophobia - Fear of darkness.
[]Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[]Aerophobia - Fear of flying.
[]Agliophobia - Fear of pain.
[x]Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds.
[x]Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[x]Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[]Androphobia - Fear of men.
[]Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking.
[]Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers.
[x]Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.
[x]Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched.
[x]Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders.
[]Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers.
[]Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightening.
[x]Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[x]Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection.
[x]Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[x]Autophobia - Fear of being alone.

[]Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[]Barophobia - Fear of gravity.
[x]Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes.
[]Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[x]Belonephobia - Fear of pins and needles.
[]Bibliophobia - Fear of books.
[]Botanophobia - Fear of plants.

[]Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness.
[x]Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed.
[x]Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[]Chionophobia - Fear of snow.
[]Chromophobia - Fear of colors.
[]Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks.
[x]Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.
[x]Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns.
[]Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.
[]Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.

[]Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[x]Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[]Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[x]Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents.

[x]Ecophobia - Fear of the home.
[]Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[x]Entomophobia - Fear of insects.
[]Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[]Equinophobia - Fear of horses. (Don't you dare!)

[]Gamophobia - Fear of marriage.
[]Genuphobia - Fear of knees.
[x]Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.
[]Gynophobia - Fear of women.

[]Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[]Hemophobia - Fear of blood.
[]Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.
[]Hydrophobia - Fear of water.
[]Hypochonria - Fear of illness.

[x]Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors.
[]Insectophobia - Fear of insects.

[]Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.

[]Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[]Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes.
[x]Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.

[]Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[]Megalophobia - Fear of large things.
[]Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[]Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[]Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.

[]Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things.
[x]Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.
[x]Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.
[x]Nyctophobia - Fear of the dark.

[x]Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.
[]Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[]Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[]Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes.
[]Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.

[]Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[]Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[x]Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[x]Philophobia - Fear of love.
[x]Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.
[]Podophobia - Fear of feet.
[]Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple.
[]Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[]Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[x]Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.

[]Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[]Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x]Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[x]Somniphobia - Fear of sleep.

[]Tachophobia - Fear of speed.
[]Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[]Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[x]Trypanophobia - Fear of needles / injections.

[]Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[]Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[]Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[x]Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners.
[]Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

I so beat you Cherry -.- 35 fears. Not including fear of loud sound, people in bunny costumes.

Fuck I'm in a weird mood
  • Listening to: A Day to Remember/ Robert Randolph and the Family.
  • Drinking: Tang
So... my mother has multiple schelorosis. It is a degenerative nerve disease. Kills feeling, ability to walk... fine motor... and even memory. Anything that is involved with nerves. Is fucked. So basically the whole body... However they caught it pretty early on. They can't cure it, but can prevent usually... flare ups of sudden worsening. My mom has been getting meds my whole life so its... been working... however for her birthday... she got a bad one. Maybe her fever cancelled out her meds... we don't know. She has gone from not being able to walk when its hot and being a bit clumsy... to hobbling if walking... needing people to carry her places... So... I've been busy. Still have no room... things are just tricky... I've been uplooading some drawings on my phone... my most recent painting. Etc. Just not been feeling up for drawing. Sorry.
  • Listening to: A Day to Remember/ Robert Randolph and the Family.
  • Drinking: Tang
First off... go read this shit… it is genius. And if you don't think its genius. You may not like me then. Anywho!

I haven't been on in ages for... many reasons... shit is kind of complicated.. Uhm... started school again. Going to put a damper in the draw-a thon. Then the first week of class I got the lovely news I may have cancer. So... for about a week I was freaking out about that. Then about last week or so... found out I didn't. Tests concluded. So... happy times. Uhm... trying to get a job so not home too often... ><


fuck ya

- Either from learned... or just luck... has the same orientation as his parents
- Seems normal... albeit a mopey kid... untill he is touched. If he initiates it. All is well. If it isn't on his terms. Well... lets say orientation is not the only thing he picked up from the rents
- Does not really have a killing method... is learning... sloppy... testing out all kinds of methods.
-Loves his dad.... hates his mom

- Actually... loves Paul... just doesn't know how to show it... the only affection she has figured out is romantic... and she is still pretty retarded with that shiz
- Sings to Paul while he is sleeping... and watches him. Like a creepy momma should
- Calls him brat... meant to be affectionate... but just makes Paul hate her more
- Has killed about... 2 police forces... trying to cover up Paul's tracks...

-Has taken a liking to Paul...
- Tries following him home...
- Only reason bitch aint dead from this is her magics...
  • Listening to: A Day to Remember
- Now lives homeless...
- got the symbol of the order tatooed above her heart... as a symbol of them taking everything and the entire reason her heart beats is for their purpose...
- After being homeless... gained some of her rough edges back...

Paul (6):
- Looks pretty damn close to being a perfect combo of Tabbz and Aaron... damn close
- Big round green eyes against a stark pale skin... it has a greenish tinge... but he just burns... he can't tan
- Black loopy curls
- Strong jaw... but very slender... looks as if its pointed...
- Fairly sizeable lips... from either parent... no surprise
- Slender shoulders and kinda scrawny looking...
- Eternal deep circles under his eyes
- Likes barbies... flowers and playing dress up
- Despite Tabby stabbing the baby constantly... no serious problems... brand new in a demon womb... healed him pretty good... though his voice is eternally hoarse...

Paul (17)
- Drummer...
- Tall... but a beanpole
- Angular almost skeletal
- Hair in waterfall of curls down his back... about to elbows...
- Uses hair to hide his rose eye
- loves watching torture flicks... but actual blood makes him become ill...

Hey! :iconblufuzzychick: is doing a neato contest...of sorts. Check it.

Note abut me... I rp... how I rp... because I don't believe in preparing I leave it up to convo. Also. I tend to joke less. Like. Oh haha... serial killer. Because my experience is people don't realize the things they do. Calling someone stupid or saying kill yourself... may make somone... raping someone may... not just make em skittish for a week. For myself. I've been dating a great guy for... going on 4 years in a month or so... and I still flinch when voices get raised. I still curl in a ball when he plays a bit too rough. I hate people thinking lifes a joke. I laugh at things that go wrong to make em go easier... but really... maybe ythe person may not be laughing on the inside. Just saying. Thanks
  • Listening to: A Day to Remember

The Dark Order... and lmao

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 7, 2011, 8:15 PM

- Has been picked up by Aniah and force fed the rest of the demons milk...
- If tempestuous and moody... but conflicted from the kindness shown to her by Ernest
- Basically acts like she used to.. except less... hostile... by like half. Come on people give her some love D:
- Is very lonely... speaking only to Ernest since regaining her memory

- Due to what she did in making the order fall the first time... has been being punished since she was reborn.
- Got her memory erased. So she will not try to fightback
- Only is fed enough to be kept alive to be tortured more.
- Escaped and hid in Pia's house...

- >> Is half dog now. Well his mind anyway. Kind of. In one of Micah's fits... she shattered his demon's milk... and instead of waiting for more to be sent. Aniah wished to put him to use sooner.. so... made him even less human.
- Barely can think... still as powerful as he once was... but howls... drools... and sniffs people down. The howling and drooling being silly or gross. Now being able to sniff down those he is hunting.
- ...will always have problems now because of Aniah's impatience

- Was forceully injected with the demons milk... and now is even less fun -.- because she is embarassed about making a fool of herself
- Has been taking her bad mood out on Roxie... who thought she was free momentarilly. :(

- Was the most peaceful of the group... well in terms of receiving medicine... he and Bryant but Aniah never liked him so she felt no rush to use him...
- Has returned to his old self. >> Joy
- No longer is counted among the fairies as he has the scent of dead on him.

- Is back to his soulful self. And trying to win over Shiera
- Though... being dead has made him more pushy and a little more demon and a little less human
- >> Has taken a fettish for young pretty girls. Young... (ASIDE from Shiera...)

- Is still dead. >> Just yeah

- Still a strung out junkie...

TABBY (Only non Order)
- Had her baby. Is a boy. Hasn't named him... just glares at it. ><
- Booobs are bigger. She now has taken to trying to rob people to get them reduced. >< Though honestly... if she just waited it out it would happen naturally
- Her baby Has the black shadow rose for an iris.
- Is back to only being bitchy... not... insane and bitchy

o.o people should comment on more than one... so I have something to do :eyes:

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Sharing the Madman

Journal Entry: Tue Jul 5, 2011, 9:27 PM…

Diiiiifferent site. I don't have a user on it. I use... whatever pencils I can find.  HOWEVER. My friend Mike. Who is insanely good...does. SO! You should check it out. Unless you get self conscious easilly. >> I shared one of his things with Rj and her hot ass. NOOOOW NOOOOOOOOOOOOOW she gets it.

Other news.. My wedding dress I was gooooing to get. Just hadn't set the appointment for. Is no longer being made. Rather annoyed... And I haven't found another I like... That previous one was...simply perfect...  

OTHER OTHER NEWS! I would be drawing more... IS MY SISTER IS HERE! WOOOOOOO! Its very exciting. It means I am sharing my space.... and not really much time to draw. I am hoping I will finish my freaking thing for Cherry's contest. Its... weird. I don't even know how to explain it. Especially not without being...sharing.... or sharing in generalz. >> Foo. How tricky.

OTHER OTHER OTHER news... >> My health insurance has been cancelled. My dad forgot how to spell my name... so... just didn't write me in. They didn't notice anything funny... like sudden chunking of a person... AND... he's on a vacation with his new fucking family... for... a while. Isn't that freakin' nice.

- Sleeps in the hollowed carcas of Harstous.... so aside from the obvious sad...and ick factors... also means she never loses the smell of wrotting flesh... plus that smell gets stronger as she never bothers to bathe
- Weights 95 lbs now
- How she continually gets her heroin as she is despised by the Order now... is by sleeping with her dealers. She just takes the form of something else. Otherwise... I don't think they'd do her anymore... >> Poor gal

- Is preggo. Lmao. Preggo her eggo... despises it and has continually tried aborting it without luck
- Generally makes her horny as hell and emotional as hell
- Esme has removed all alcohol from the house to protect "their" baby. Tabby thinks its hogswallop. If anything its her and Aarons baby... and she can treat her body as she wishes. Its an ongoing battle
- Due to continually trying to abort it... is going through a slower pregnancy.

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Journal Entry: Wed Jun 29, 2011, 11:05 AM

Last journal was a falsehood. I am simply... blocking those who harass. *thumbs up*  :iconfeelingfreeplz:

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Journal Entry: Sat Jun 18, 2011, 10:21 PM

I'm just tired. Closing off comments when I feel like it.


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From Cherry!

Journal Entry: Wed Jun 8, 2011, 1:03 PM


1. Something I learned about you from looking at your deviantART page for 13 seconds.

2. What color you remind me of.

3. My first memory of you.

4. Something I've always wondered about you.

5. What I like the most about you.

6. A weird name for you.

7. What is on my shirt right now.

8. A Hellsing character you remind me of.

9. I challenge you to post this in your journal as well!

Comment......if you dare!!

>> Tagged by Cherry for both I guess

10 things about me

1. I'm a mythology nerd
2. I am dysfunctional as hell. :3 I have a.d.h.d, anxiety disorder, short term and long term memory loss, depression... >>
3. My worst fears are... people in bunny costumes... stairs... needles... the dark... crowded areas...
4. I hate people who manipulate others... who think they are better than others... who are abusive to others... who are fucking idiots...
5. I love sci-fi fantasy books... that are well written >> In my view
6. >> I tend to be biased against blondes.. >> I dislike them
7. I have a twin who I am occasionally protective of
8. I prefer truth/ blunt honesty over simpering attempts to be nice. -.- And even when it does hurt... I still tend to prefer the people who are prone to those things
9. I have a short temper and people make me want to punch babies... usually
10. I will often control said temper unless a friend or family member seems to be insulted.

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Journal Entry: Wed Jun 1, 2011, 3:22 PM

Tornados. Not gonna be on. Rofl

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Journal Entry: Wed May 25, 2011, 7:20 PM

Hokay. So. Looking at tutorials for everything in the world. (long story)  AND! Was inspired.  Quick intro before going into the actual madness.
Do not defy gravity, and are made up of fat, and glands.  These glands only start kicking into gear if they are being used. This means, whilst having sex... women do not spray breast milk all over the place. >< Sorry. This also means. The bigger the boobs the more sag they have. After C cups, boobs reach... the ribs, and depending on muscles... can sag more. However muscles can make them not reach the bellybutton by F or G. Not literally. Just... boobs don't float keep that in mind. Secondly. TITS unless you are talking anime/comic book style. Tend to follow body types. This means. That the size zero girl is not going to be rocking M's unless she bought serious implants. However. This is not saying all busty skinny girls are fake. However it is less common. Also in relation to consistency of boobs. This means they do not keep shape. They are squishy. Boobs bigger than b cups, tend to move with movement. You are bending down, they are going to hang, you are jumping they will slowly follow the upward motion. WHEN LYING DOWN. Boobs flatten. Unless there is something holding them together, such as corsets, binding...etc. This also means if the big boobed lady is standing braless, they hang and separate. About at a 45 degree angle actually. The only time they cuddle whilst standing for the more booblicious ladies, is in case of bras, bralettes, corsets etc.

Also... if the girl has implants. After a while hang comes into play too. If its just a D... its still pretty perky but adding too much more. Boobs are contained in lovely skin. Which is stretchy. So... they will have some hang.

NOW onto my fun little thing. Someone pointed out to me. Semi recently that all of my characters are ridiculous boob sized. Which at the time annoyed the hell out of me. But then after reading  tutorials. Decided to look. AAAAAND here is what I have people.

Aeval- A cup
Alendrie- C cup
Alene- A cup
Amanda- DD cup
Aniah- A cup
Ashakiran- D cup
Bode- A cup if anything
Caelynn- A cup if anything
Carla- A/ B cup (large a, or small b)
Chickadee- B cup
Crystal- F cup
Dorof- B cup
Dracky: F cup
Dragansteel- AA cup
Drystalaxene- DD cup
Ember- B/C cup
Evelyn- C cup
Esme- I cup
Feli- A cup if anything
Gauri- B cup
Glarince- F cup
Hannah- A/B cup
Hypnosia- A cup
Iceburg- A cup
Irena- C cup
Juliet- A cup
Kakes- AA cup
Katerina- D cup
Lianne: G cup
Love- C/D cup
Lyra- F cup
Maria- B cup
Mary (Lady Death)- A cup if anything
Mary (O'Malley)- A cup
Maddy- C cup
Micah- B/C cup
Microni- A cup
Miller- A Cup
Min- A cup if anything
Mishka- H cup >< poor baby
Nicki(lamias)- DD cup
Nicki(Neko)- C cup
Nina- C cup
Persona- C cup
Rae- DD cup
Rirndigonez- B cup
Rose- B cup
Rosehip- D cup
Roxie- AA cup
Saisha- A cup
Sandrah- A cup
Serafina- C cup
Shema- A Cup
Shiera- C cup
Sparx- A cup
Tabby- I cup
Victoria- F cup
Vinaya- C cup
Vivianne- F cup
Volcana- B cup
Zing- A cup

So I've got some ridiculous in there. But considering. In my life... >> 13 out of 20 women I know. Are more than a D cup... >> I think thats really not that bad.... Just my favorite fucking characters for a while... were the busty ones. Tabby... and Rae. I mean. Who doesn't love hot tempered bitches :meow:  And... Caelynn...Roxie...Aniah... be bitches... ZING, cannot detatch from her brother really. >> Kakes is obnoxious... I dunno... apparently boobs

NOW! More boob info....

A cups... slight curve to the body. Not really a need for a bra other than nipple covers, but quite common in slender women. They are extremely perky. BUT usually girls this size are obsessed about lacking boobs and complain about girls who have boobs... >>  to draw these... slight curve out do not have the boobs touching even if the character is wearing a bra...

B cups... more of a curve, still really no need for a bra, but tits look more shaped in a bra. They tits curve out more, even could be described as a more circular shape. But not...ridiculous sticking out. Still self conscious about having enough, still common in slender women...Tits almost meet in bra circumstances. Unless large b then they can with much help

C cups... Commonly described as perfect tits. In a study done by Newsweek, 98% of men in a club will be attracted to a woman with these. These most commonly are most appealing to the eye. C cups, have the same perkiness as A and B cups, plus more fleshed out, such as D cup... Tits do have some hang though. To draw... More curve out.. Basically. How I do it. Draw slightly upcurved line, then attached to it an outcurved line. But not dramatically. C cups... are comparable to oranges. Perky oranges. Tits meet with the bra. Just enough to make nice cleavage. For this size. Woman's shape can vary. She can be skinny. This is when a skinny girl with natural tits looks like she has giant tits... But this can also be a pudgy girls B cup.

D cups... Noticably larger. About... grapefruit sized... a size like this, the boobs whilst wearing a bra do not make a nice cute circle. They make.... an off circle... Not quite oval... Same drawing method as the c cup. Unless without bra. Without bra. A d cup will lose some of the curve to weight. Not much though.... less common in extremely slender girls. More common in... normal bmi... to chubby.

DD cups... about cantaloupe size. Here... boobs make a bit more of an oval shape in bras. However out, even more shape is lost to these. Also the bigger one gets, one must always remember the 45 degree angle... so the boobs are less center based and with bigger tits, means more of that flesh out to the sides. Even less common in skinny women... again more common in chubby girls. :3

DDD cups/ F cups ( Named this so when a girl finds out she is this size she can comfort herself about not having ridiculous tits by saying. Well I'm still a D... I say this from experience). About medium... watermelon sized. These boobs, can still have some perk... not saggy. BUT will have lost a good amount of that sexy cute shapeliness without bra help. At this size. Only fettishists compliment you really. Most guys... despite thinking in their head lotta boob is sexy. When seeing it on a person. Is weirded out. ALSO. This size. Without plastic help, tends to be on chubby girls. Not saying it isn't on skinny. However it is much less common

G cups >> Large watermelon size. OR human head size.  Do not ask girls if you can stick your head there. You will deserve to get slapped. These poor gals, have to special order bras, or shop at bra stores. Cute/sexy places such as Victorias secret and fredericks do not find these sizes common enough to create bras for. These tits have lost all the sexy shapeliness and just commonly have... ovals without bras and with. However. MUCH cleavage. This tit size. Is again. Usually only chubby girls. ( I know a girl who is a size two with natural G's... however... IT IS UNCOMMON!)

H cups... hello me. Uhm... forget fruit people. This size. Is not commonly given love. -.- Too small for crazy fettishists. And too big for normal people apparently. These tits... are ginormous. Again special ordering bras. Boobs this size... unless wearing a real corset... will break any wimpy mass manufactured shit you put in front of them. In all thruth about 1 1/2 heads... no sexy upcurve...too much tit weight. About 8 lbs each of tit weight.

ALSO! DD cups and up... have the issue of slouching. They are so heavy that it brings attention to what the girl has on her chest, so many girls with this size have back problems... OR! Slouch. Slouching is an attempt to avoid back pain AAAAAND often because tits these size do not need to be thrust out... it just can look skanky and girls ooooften want to avoid that attention.

Not saying sizes bigger than that do not excist like some assholes. However. I+... tits have lost all chance of perkiness... they have reached below the ribs. If there are implants... maybe not... But getting close.

AAAAND finally. Nipple size... does not depend on boob size. You can have AA cups (smaller than an A) and...  have nipples about as big as your tits. You can have giant tits with nipples the size of quarters. HOWEVER... nipples do not tend to be dime sized. TEND TEND. Those with that small of nipples. I'm sorry. I don't really fucking know. Statistically speaking. Men tend to be the ones with tiny nipples.  HOKAY!... Boob facts. >>

This took forever. But worth it. Fuckers try to say I
a. Know nothing about tits
b. have only boob heavy characters
c. Have no variety to my characters
d. Am prejudiced against tiny tits. -.-

This is generally a long... FUN fuck you. That I may take time to draw actually... when I am done with flowers and painting heroin addicts. ><...

edit: Definately going to draw and write this out as something more than a journal.
ALSO! In terms of research. >> Only research done for this/ That constitutes research was an amusing article in newsweek where scientists tested what men are most attracted to. Other than that. This is. I grew up with a best friend who many not be as... insanely topped off... AND I grew up from C --> H. >> SO! Generally had some hang out time with each of the sizes. Thankyou though

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Joyous NEWS

Journal Entry: Sun May 22, 2011, 3:53 PM

First off anyone in relation to shadows... is going to be losing their mind....

- Tabby's symptoms are... two alternating things... hearing everyone in the world screaming/shrieking in pain in unison... and silence. Save for. >> The random Tabby2. Tabby2 is there to prey upon all her fears or impulses...
- Now after killing... via her compulsion. or rather... Tabby2's insistent torture... she rips of the flesh which has blood on it...
- >> No longer sleeps in bed. Only in her closet, using her blood as ink. >> Yeeeeah. Thank Tabby2 and Amber for that... (:iconvampirecherry: owns Amber)

- Her eggs... are the order yet to be born
-She can barely move... duuuue to sacrificing all her meals lately as tokens for trade for the order
- Doesn't know that Vivianne turned in the end
- Isn't saving Harstous... as Harstous... is half allive... ><...

- Is trapped.... Well... mental Dien is. Zero is in complete control
- Has blotted out the sun :la: WOO!
- Made the rivers turn to blood... any of this sounding familiar?
- Has taken to keeping female pets, not even sexual...just keeps them in hourglasses for his torture

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Yes another journal...apocalypse...

Journal Entry: Sun May 15, 2011, 6:02 PM

So. Little known fact. The demon from another dimension, Zero? Who... is...ungodly strong...and was only defeated by all gods turning against him...and Fate even as well. (The three fates that is. Please don't try tampering with the story line.) Welp... Fate was actually what accidentally caused his release... by having sex with the pure host he was in. Long story. In any light. The descendants of said...insane power... are Dien and Ebon. Ebon... unfortunately in his eyes. Just has the will to use the power and the organic metal skin. However thats it. The rest is just...blah mutant power. Dien, who entirely lacks the will to use it. Has basically Zero, trapped inside himself. When he gets cracks along his skin... its Zero breaking free. Any... excess of emotion... and Zero breaks free. If Dien is depressed, angry, or even horny... he loses it. He just discovered that his sister who he loves more than anything, the reason she has stopped eating, sleeping, and been generally a shell of a creature, isn't because she was raped but was because she is losing her soul.

(NOTE!) In firewitch culture. Their soul is the ultimate thing. Even if they were evil bitches (Shiera)... if they acted with conviction... they get to go to their special little place. If they put their entire being into their goal... Same. However. If they use their soul as a bargaining chip.. or sell it... or let a demon eat it. They are banished to eternal torment.

SO! She is scared but can't tell her brother because it will destroy the world. He reigned himself in barely after finding out. However. >> Now he has left a message of love for his sister.... Is bringing about the end of the world.

Little known fact being. Zero is actually apocalypse. Love, and Agony's little brother. Usually taking form of a little boy. OR just someone of pure heart. >< Poor Dien.

ANYWAY. All you crazy rpers... >> Prepare for the end of the world?

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