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Thu May 31, 2018, 2:43 AM
You've got no idea how hard it is to write an intro to a feature like this without stumbling into puns and jokes by accident. In my first draft it was intentional, but it seemed a bit on the nose. Oh dammit. You try!

Posthuman by JourneyF Need to Use the Restroom? by BardaWolf
  
  anyhow. I'm a bit rusty, the CSS needs a bit of work still and I'd like to do something better than just dump thumbs (urghhh! the puns), but I've been wanting to do a (weekly?) urbex feature for quite some time and I kept procrastinating. no more! :shakefist:



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are you have an backups?

Journal Entry: Wed Apr 25, 2018, 8:03 PM
PSA to remind people to backup their stuff! I just dodged a bullet.

After getting back from another long weekend trip to a country town with family, I began transferring my photos off the SD card to my PC. Almost immediately it failed and corrupted the card.

I didn't panic though, because we backed up our photos each day onto an external drive.

On past trips we'd backup to two drives - one of mine, one of my aunt/uncle, and depending who's laptop came, the internal storage too  - but our days were non-stop and I was too tired to do the second backup to my drive. Well, except for the last night, where we had time, but I didn't think to catch up.

Now I'm home, the backup drive is a bus, a train, and another bus away, and I reaaallly want to go over my photos :lol:

As a last resort, Photorec is a recovery utility I've used successfully before, but only on low capacity SD cards. It estimates something like 38 hours to recover everything off the 128GB card I used for this trip, so I think I'll just wait till the weekend when I'll probably end up visiting them anyhow.

backup backup backup backup

Life is Strange

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 18, 2018, 8:52 PM
hey. another stretch of absence. of... ghosting. there's a reason I called myself thespook. urgh.

how's people? :heart:

There's a long gap since the last time I talked about my issues, or posted any journals really, because... whatever. But I was still posting photos and stuff. So what happened?

I got a little too immersed into the Mad Max game (from the Just Cause devs). The world and themes of that game kinda shattered me for a bit there. Not fun to have an existential crisis when you're already struggling with mental health issues. It was partly to blame for me going dark last until now, and as happens, the longer I'm the dark the harder it is to step back out. urgh.

Then! Last week I picked up Life is Strange on sale (late to the party, I know, but somehow I was still spoiler free)... and what can I say. If you've played it, you know the feels. I should have written my thoughts about it while they were still fresh, because I got Before the Storm two days after and that's kinda fuzzied my thoughts. Maybe I'll write about it some other time. But the short of it is, where Mad Max sent me into a bout of depression, Life is Strange kinda brought me out of it.

It's not miraculous, my depression is chronic, and without medication my baseline is pretty anhedonic/dysthymic, but the experience of that game... was like a microdose of mj.

just a few steps out of my cave. lets see.

birfdae

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 21, 2017, 10:05 PM
thanks for the birthday wishes, the weekend went well. correlation or causation? :D

day started with a phone call to Nadia. She was watching a movie with her sister - that animation about a singing competition, where everyone is an animal. Sing? I could hear Call Me Maybe playing hehe.

around 11am we went into the city to see the Hokusai exhibit at the NGV (boink). it was well worth it, so much to appreciate, and being original prints there's this historical element you wouldn't get from photos/scans or flawless reproductions. not much I can say that hasn't been said better than others, look him up :)

afterwards I stole some time to take a walk up Elizabeth St, it's kinda my minimum route whenever I'm in the CBD. Been ages since I've been in with a camera, and the first time I've had a proper chance to use the Fujian CCTV lens. I was a bit rusty, but had a good time. Been cooped up for too long, and sneaking a little practice in has given me that little shot of motivation I needed to make the effort to get out more.

from there we drove to meet my sister at her new house for the final inspection before handover. it's in a pretty terrible state, but her partner is a tradie (carpenter/builder) so they bought it planning to renovate it before settling in. The previous owner attempted their own renovations, and it's a mixture of sad and dumbfounding.

They've asked me to come through and photograph the place as it is now, and I guess the entire process too, so I was looking forward to taking the first photos that night. Bizarrely though, we had to do it in the dark, with our phones as flashlights. The sun had gone down by then, and the power hasn't been hooked up yet... so I worked with that, and captured that surreal situation. Snapshots mostly, but the absurdness is preserved :)

we had dinner at a nearby restaurant, low key. A table nearby was also celebrating a birthday, cake, candles, singing staff and all. Urgh. If I hadn't said anything, my family probably would have imposed that on me too, but thankfully they listened and we could just enjoy the day for what it was. 

---

next day, thespook turned 16. Back when I'd been on dA for two years... I thought that was mind boggling heh.

and, sadly, I heard the news Jerry Lewis had died on the 20th. Didn't hit me like Robin Williams, but it should have. Now is as good a time as any to go back and rewatch some of the classics.

---

:heart: :peace:

Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Fri Oct 28, 2016, 2:35 AM
Sorry for going dark again.

I've been a bit of a mess.

I'm still off meds, and that has made it very difficult for me to interact with people - you guys here, my friends and family, strangers on the street... everyone. I can stumble through it but it's like I have to bypass all the parts of my brain that usually handle this sort of thing.

I can't trust my intuition, so I get mood/intent wrong constantly (in and out). My personality is fragmented, thoughts are slow and taxing, which makes it difficult to appear more than robotic.  When it comes to emotion I seem to be blind as a mole rat, if it's not hitting me over the head I can't seem to process it.

I say this matter-of-factly - not to stir sympathy or pity; to simply explain why I'm not responding to comments etc here. If I just didn't care to interact, that'd be one thing, but I want to, I wish I could. And it's not that socialising troubles me above all else, it's a symptom of the larger disorder.

I thought I was finally on the path to treatment/therapy with the aspergers/ASD diagnosis, but after getting a second opinion it was suggested I might actually have Schizoid personality disorder. The next step is to start visiting a psych that can assess me over a longer series of appointments. From what I've read (an hour or so) it seems to me like SPD might be the logical outcome of someone going through life with undiagnosed autism, but I haven't seen that connection stated explicitly.

I'm still going back through a lot of my older photos and reprocessing them using the NIK collection. I feel... lucky, I guess, to still have that. Mostly I've been burning through episodes of Star Trek (cliché right?), but if I didn't have photography ... I dunno.

I used to try wait to upload stuff when I felt able to participate in the community, but if I stuck to that I'd really vanish from here, and I'd have an even bigger backlog of photos to eventually share.

You might have noticed every paragraph started with an " I ". Normally this would make me uncomfortable enough to edit to correct. But there's an irony to it. Or maybe it's not irony.

I dunno.

:heart:

getting back / personal update

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 31, 2016, 8:02 AM
Not that it needs to be said, but just as a starting point - I kinda vanished for a while there huh. I'm going to work on catching up with everything I missed, but how are y'all doing? :heart:

To get straight to it: at the end of July I was finally diagnosed at an ASD clinic, confirming my suspicion that I've got aspergers.

YaaaaAaa...y

A combination of coming to terms with the diagnosis, and my untreated depression has made it difficult to do... anything. Just writing this journal has been difficult. It's taken me several hours (from 7pm to 1am) to get it to this point. I'll write too much, try to trim it back, delete it all to start again... rinse and repeat. I think I'll hold back on the aspergers talk until I'm in a better state of mind.

Last week things felt like they might have been improving, but a toothache derailed that train. The tooth is going to be taken out on Monday, for now I'm on antibiotics, and painkillers as needed.

Aside from a quick visit to the papermill, I haven't taken any new photos in months. I've still got a massive backlog of stuff to share though. Hopefully starting with this journal I'll get back into the swing of things.

:peace:

I got tagged to do the 13 questions one, but... screw that one.

  1. were you named after someone?
    Yes, it's traditional in my family's culture.

  2. when was the last time you cried?
    Within the last week.

  3. do you like your handwriting?
    It's a mess, but yeah, I do. 

  4. what is your favourite snack?
    Roasted, lightly salted soy beans.

  5. do you want to have kids?
    Not until I trust myself to be a good parent.

  6. would you be friends with yourself? why?
    Probably. We'd share all the same interests and hobbies :lol:

  7. do you use sarcasm a lot?
    Yes, but like a 9 year old with an UZI.

  8. do you still have your tonsils?
    Nope.

  9. would you kiss the last person you texted?
    Yeah.

  10. what is your favourite cereal?
    Oats.

  11. do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
    Depends how tired I am.

  12. do you think you're strong?
    Currently, no.

  13. what is your favourite alphabet letter?
    Z, because reasons.

  14. what is the first thing you notice about people?
    Their posture.

  15. red or pink?
    Red?

  16. what is your least favourite thing about yourself?
    My mental illness(es).

  17. who do you miss the most?
    bleedsopretty 

  18. what is the colour of the underwear you're wearing right now?
    Teal. Fuck.

  19. what is the colour of the shoes you're wearing right now?
    I've only got socks on, they're black.

  20. what was the last thing you ate?
    A piece of dark chocolate I've been nibbling at all morning.

  21. are you listening to any song right now? which one?
    I've been skimming through the Discover Weekly playlist on Spotify, and Burn the Witch by Radiohead just came up. Meh.

  22. if you were a crayon, which colour would you be?
    Some annoying crayon that keeps changing colour on you.

  23. favourite smell?
    Nutmeg.

  24. who was the last person you talked to in person?
    Mum :shrug:

  25. mountain hideaway or beach house?
    Either one. Though, more coastal hideaway than 'beach house'.

  26. favourite sports to watch?
    It used to be AFL, but the last few seasons I've watched have sucked, the game isn't what I remember from ~10 years ago.

    Now... I dunno. eSports? :lol:

  27. how are you feeling right now?
    Stuck.

  28. what's your eye colour and what is your favourite?
    Brown. Green.

  29. do you wear glasses? since when?
    Yes, for almost two years.

  30. favourite person in the world?
    :stare:

  31. who is better to date: female or male?
    :stare:

  32. last movie you watched?
    Captain America: Civil War.

  33. what colour is the shirt that you're wearing?
    Beige. Fuck.

  34. summer or winter?
    Winter.

  35. hugs or kisses?
    Dude, hugs. Can't just go around kissing everyone.

  36. favourite desert?
    Australia.

  37. do you work out?
    Before I came back home to Melbourne, I did. A lot.

  38. computer/laptop or television?
    I don't watch regular scheduled TV/Cable programming, if that's what the question is.

  39. what book are you reading?
    Got a bunch I've been meaning to get to, but I'm not currently reading anything.

  40. are you wearing any rings, earrings, or necklaces?
    Yes.

  41. Name 5 of you favourite sounds.
    1. birds.
    2. the ocean.
    3. typewriters.
    4. war drums.
    5. epic sax.

  42. 5sos or 1d?
    dafuq is this.

  43. what is the farthest you've ever been from home?
    Canada, I think.

  44. do you have a special talent?
    Yeah. Being a jackass.

  45. say something sexy.
    No. ;)

  46. where are you living now?
    Childhood home, suburb out of Melbourne.

  47. where would you like to be right now?
    with Nadia.

  48. can you drive a car?
    Yes.

  49. who would you like to tag so you can get to know more about?
    Whoever, go nuts.

PSA: Your previous status updates.

Journal Entry: Sat Jun 25, 2016, 8:44 AM
If the dA website had a status archive, it'd be under /status/ - but that returns a 404.

Assuming it isn't some weird secret page, I'd say it hasn't been implemented. Who knows why, but no point speculating. 

There's (kinda) good news though. For some reason the mobile app shows your own status updates in your watch feed. So filter by status updates only, and clear out everyone else's, and you get your archive.

Is it a bug or a feature? Again, who knows, but it works.

:peace:

[long] personal update.

Journal Entry: Sat May 21, 2016, 8:46 AM
I started writing this at grandma's on the 12th of May, just picked it back up to finish now on the 21st.

This is a personal journal type update thing. For the last two years I've been trying to get to the bottom of my depression/mental illness, and it's fair to say this sort of post is not always to most uplifting thing to read, or write.

I'm writing this for my own good, but also... I dunno. I think some of my watchers want to know what's going on with me, and so I suppose writing this is also being fair to them? I dunno. As mention towards the end, I'm having problems processing a some of these ideas and thoughts (hint: spook's an aspie?!)

While I was still self medicating I thought it'd be useful to keep a journal to track my progress and bring some light onto a condition that usually keeps people withdrawn and in the dark. Some of them are still in my drafts, half written and fragments. I wish I could have held onto that state of mind, that clarity, and continued the regular journals, but as I slipped back into depression they became harder to write, and as my ability to see the bigger picture evaporated, they felt like every other depressing emo journal you can read on dA. This is a round about way of saying I'm really forcing myself to write this, to write something after so long. I don't want to write a journal that's only all woe is me and shit... but if that's all I can write... well :shrug:

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(from the 12th)

Today I'm at my grandma's house, I stayed overnight to be here when tradespeople came to work on the fence between us and the new neighbours. Turns out they speak Greek too, so I didn't have to be here to translate, but I was able to help her move some stuff around that she would have had to ask them to do. When I haven't been needed though, I've been taking advantage of the faster internet here, and my aunt's laptop.

My computer at home is a >$300 Acer laptop. I like it; it's fine. But it's just powerful enough to do what I need on it. I can process RAW files, play games (within it's hardware limitations, which I'm fine with) and... do the internet things. Speaking of which, our internet at home is... urgh. ADSL. It's slow, and unreliable. It barely keeps up with 720p60 on Youtube, and suffers from random interruptions and slowdowns.

Using my aunt's more capable laptop, and the cable (fibre) connection they have here, its really clear how much these things can affect my productivity. I've got ~20 tabs open, and I'm getting to each one and finishing whatever task I intended - be it checking out someone's gallery, leaving a comment, submitting something out of sta.sh, reading an article I pulled up... whatever. I'm feeling nimble and a little wired (yes, wired, not a typo of weird), it's great.

Back at home though I realise that repeatedly having to deal with page loads, progress bars, and laggy task switching has led me to limit myself even before running up against the performance limitations. Having to wait for everything constantly breaks my train of thought.

It's like... a technological depression. hah. hehe. hehe. wait. urgh. Actually that's pretty close to how depression works.

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(from today, the 21st)

September last year I mentioned I was taking two meds, an antidepressant, and an anti-psychotic at night, and that they weren't helping. I was convinced I was doing no better than without the meds. Well. I stopped those soon after, and came to realise... yeah, I was right, but I'm still fucked. My psych, lacking any better ideas, thought I should get back on one of the antidepressants I'd tried before, in combination with that same night time anti-psychotic. I gave it a fair go, but after a couple of weeks the side effects really started to outweigh the slight improvements. I figured it was the anti-psychotic causing most of the problems, so I stopped taking it and immediately felt better. Ok, fine.

The whole time I've been here my family has been awesome about going out and doing things - be it a movie, a museum, a road trip to country Victoria. I'm not always in the best state of mind to appreciate their hospitality, but I try to make the best of it. It's just a bit rough when I can tell I'm not right, and I'm going to say and do things I'm going to regret almost instantaneously. Like being drunk and not being able to stop yourself saying stupid shit. Like watching an accident about to happen.

Anyhow. After road trip we took at the end of May, I came home and was surprised to find I had run out of my antidepressant. Not only that, but I missed my psych appointment LAST WEEK. No big deal, it wouldn't be the end of the world if I refilled tomorrow morning, and call up and made a new appointment.

Only I didn't. Either of.

I can't give a rational reason why, I guess that's depression for you, but I decided that I was going to just quit cold turkey. Last time I'd been on this particular med I'd missed a day's dose a couple of times, and the withdrawal was immediate and quite unpleasant. So I knew what would happen, but I did it anyhow. In my head, it didn't make sense to refill three boxes of meds just for the few pills I'd need for the taper. It made muuuuch more sense to suffer the withdrawal. :stare:

I don't remember if it was just one week, or two, but I was bed-ridden while I rode out the withdrawal. In bed with my phone I watched a lot of youtube and flicked through reddit, and didn't do much else. I smelled like a hobo by the end of it.

The very day I was through it all (and after a thorough decontamination the night before), we went visiting family and I ended up catching some virus off their kids. No hate, the kids are cool. We drew each other's portraits, played with nerf guns and bows, they braided a tiny handful of my hair... :)

But so for another week I was bed-ridden by this virus, and then had another two weeks  after that with a lung infection and a lot of coughing. And we actually went on another road trip (the one I shot Landslide house, Victorian high country during) around this time, with me coughing all the way up and back in a car with no empty seats. Logically I wasn't infectious at that point, but a week later everyone else got sick and I felt terrible about that. It could have just been something going around, but I can't make that fit in my head.

Finally free of the virus, the coughing, and the withdrawal, the temporary dependence on cough syrup, I felt that maybe I was doing okay. At first maybe I was, but then I fell back into the rut. Weeks go by and I'm just living out this routine of least resistance.

Anyhow. Yesterday, I had a long midnight talk with mum. I laid out all my frustrations and went all over the place as I ping-ponged around my mind. It was erratic and accusatory as much as it was things that needed to be said. What triggered it? Going with my uncle to do the weekly shopping on Saturday. :stare: :dummy:

In the past the conversation argument would have ended badly, and I would have been stuck brooding trying to figure out what the fuck just happened until I went to sleep and woke up not remembering it all. But not for two+ years - now there comes a point towards the end of the argument where I recognise I've gone nuts and have lost control of my rationality. It's a fine line - I don't have to get too far before I realise it's happened. I'm not calling anyone Hitler. It's more that, I find myself saying "I don't get it! I don't understand! It makes no sense!". I see now that when I get to this point, the problem is me.

I apologise and we both promise to try find another psych etc etc. A short time later though, I'm bouncing around dA and I come across an Autism support group. Suddenly I'm brought out of the stupor that I've been in and I remember that I was pleading at one point with my psych that I feel like I have aspergers, or something other than simple depression. I've read about it before, but this time I read it with the aim of self diagnosing. So I read. And I did the checklists.

And now, I really think/feel that I have aspergers (yeah yeah, everyone on the internet is an aspie, right?) But I'm serious. It answers a lot about the way I am, and the way my life has gone, why I seem to have such trouble with things - with or without depressive episodes. There is a web of reference points in my life that make sense now - because the simple diagnosis of depression didn't answer all the questions.

So, that's where I'm at: A particular strain of marijuana 'fixed' me, I realised I had a life long problem (but not what it was), stopped the weed and sought treatment by the professionals, tried a bunch of antidepressants - which did something but not anywhere close to fixing me like the marijuana did... and now I figure I might have aspergers. Yeah, people can live successful lives with it, but I don't know how to reconcile the fact that marijuana fixed me, and after feeling 'normal' it'd be unbearable. (For a reference point, I've stopped taking street photos as much because the best ones I got were during periods where somehow, for some reason, I wasn't such a robot. You gotta be ready to interact with people on the street, otherwise it'll show.)

Is this aspergers-like state just a symptom of the depression? How will this affect my diagnosis and treatment going forward? With medical marijuana in it's infancy in Victoria, and it still not being legal in Virginia, I feel like my options are unjustly limited. The one thing I know helped me is seemingly of no use to professionals - but all over the net I read that people with aspergers have had exactly the same experience that I did with marijuana.

And, always at the forefront of my mind, I'm away from bleedsopretty. Over the past two years she has only been getting worse. This in itself is soul crushing. I had gotten so bad that I thought it'd be worth coming home to try get this sorted ASAP, and then returning, but now that it's taken two years with no answers or improvement, no end in sight... that equation is completely unbalanced. Hopefully something good will come soon now that I think I've found the answer.

eh. anyway. got that off my chest...

:heart:

soundcloud embed code

Tue Mar 1, 2016, 10:09 AM


FAQ #81: How can I create links to other deviants, deviations, or websites?

It's a bit of a pain to get the ID number for tracks on SoundCloud. They used to provide embed code in their share UI, but it's not there anymore. Digging around the source code I found it pretty quick, search for soundcloud://sounds :peace:

seizure warning.

Wed Feb 17, 2016, 12:00 PM


Pinwheel Flowers by atkins29323


Ultra Excitement

(sorry.)


the bookstore car accident

Mon Feb 8, 2016, 6:41 AM
Early last year I took some photos at an accident that happened in a shopping strip in my grandma's neighbourhood. Click any image to view it larger in my sta.sh, or cut to the chase and view the complete folder: sta.sh/21xbzhmgkjat

20150327-sdim0843 by thespook
I was with my aunt coming home from a garden show she had roped me into going to with her. I took photos of people taking photos mostly.

As we came up to the shopping strip we could tell something was wrong up ahead, and when we got close enough I felt like it was fate that brought me here. I leapt out of the car with my camera - a Sigma DP3 Merrill - and shouted that I'd meet her back home as I bumped the door shut and ran.

At first no one could really explain what had happened, but piece by piece it came together. At this section of the strip, the parking on one side is angled, and the side of the book store is parallel. An elderly gentleman had reversed out of the angled parking opposite the book store, mistaken the gas pedal for the brake at some point, and floored it right across the street and into the store-front.

20150327-sdim0861 by thespook
Miraculously no one was hurt - there was no one on the sidewalk, no one parking or getting out of their car in the space opposite, and no one in the front of the book store - which is their children's section!!

20150327-sdim0966 by thespookSpeaking of children, it looked like it was fancy dress day, or pyjama day at school.
20150327-sdim0813 by thespookIn this shot you can see the spray of rubber that is evidence to the driver keeping his foot down on the accelerator even after he'd smashed into the book store.
20150327-sdim0971 by thespook20150327-sdim0830 by thespook
20150327-sdim0893 by thespookReally dude?
20150327-sdim0896 by thespookHelicopter for Channel 7 flying overhead, captured with a fast shutter speed.
20150327-sdim0882 by thespook
20150327-sdim0897 by thespookThe tow truck driver prepares the car to be towed.
20150327-sdim0853 by thespook
20150327-sdim0902 by thespookFire fighters used this tool to dislodge  broken glass from around the store window and doorway.
20150327-sdim0857 by thespook
20150327-sdim0920 by thespook
20150327-sdim0917 by thespook
20150327-sdim0921 by thespook
20150327-sdim0926 by thespook
20150327-sdim0942 by thespook
20150327-sdim0945 by thespookA window repairman drives past on his way to another job
20150327-sdim0959 by thespook20150327-sdim0978 by thespook
20150327-sdim1008 by thespookThe owner of the bookstore speaks to reporters
20150327-sdim0988 by thespook
20150327-sdim1009 by thespook
This guy was acting kinda strange, I couldn't figure it out until he told me he went from the bookstore to the dollar store next door (called "Crazy Price Everything" :lol:) just before the car hit. He felt like he had just cheated death.

Elderly drivers losing control of their vehicles has been in the news a lot this past year. There has been some discussion as to what to do about it, but nothing has been done yet. Bring on AI-assisted cars I say.

:peace:

Journal CSS beta testers wanted

Fri Feb 5, 2016, 6:25 AM
After a few afternoons tinkering away at this journal CSS/skin I'm at a point where I'm ready to use it in a proper journal, and perhaps even publish it.

Before I publish it though, I wouldn't mind having some volunteers beta test it. By having others use it I could see if there are any bugs I haven't noticed, or edge-cases I haven't considered. Grab the CSS from here - pastebin.com/raw/bgXyKLQd

I haven't tidied up the CSS source yet, so sorry for the mess =p

Since I last worked on Journal CSS there has been some major upgrades to the allowed CSS. It looks like we have full CSS2 selectors, and many neat CSS3 properties at our disposal. This has meant that I've been able to style things in ways not possible previously, at least not without a whole bunch of extra markup.

For instance, it's now possible to have custom emoticons - you'd type the regular code, like :), but instead of :) it'd be... whatever else you want.

For the most part the skin can be used entirely in rich edit mode. Everything should work as expected but there are a few hidden features I've coded in.

When using a blockquote you can add a citation by changing the text alignment on the last line. It's a bit tricky to use though, what you gotta do is write/paste your quote text, and then hold SHIFT and press ENTER. This will create a new line without leaving the blockquote. Then press the right-align button, and a strange little box thing will appear, just trust it and start typing the citation. It'll look like you can adjust this box, but it wont have any effect on the published journal so don't bother messing with it.

Where are my testicles, Summer? They were removed. Where have they gone?
- Snuffles Snowball the dog, Rick and Morty


To style an image caption below a full-size thumbnail, directly after the image (and I mean directly! No line-breaks!) change the text to italics. Everything written in italics directly after a thumbnail will be styled as a caption, switch out of italics to return to normal text.

collapse by KLPTRXXIThis is a caption for the image above.
This is normal text, after hitting ENTER for a new line, and turning off italics.

The only other feature is a bit of code to put two portrait shaped deviations on the same line:
on the outskirts of memory by PsycheAnamnesis
...but it currently requires going into HTML mode, and it hasn't been thoroughly tested. As you can see in those two examples the alignment is a bit off if they aren't exactly the same ratio. If you really want to use it though, insert the two portrait shaped deviations in Rich Edit mode, and then switch to HTML mode. Find the embedded deviations (it'll look like <da:deviation id="...">) and wrap them in <abbr> ... </abbr> tags.

:peace:!

ps. you may notice a super-secret fancy-pants stat list at the bottom of this journal. I haven't included it as part of the skin, but I'll be writing a separate journal about it later.


USELESS STATS

deviations featured

journal thumbs

usernames linked

avatar/icons used

emotes used

dragons

the cool photogs use DARKROOM.CSS

Wed Feb 3, 2016, 7:27 AM
emotes stolen from jesseboy000's journal:
Bouncing Donut :bademoticon: DOUGHNUT  :shakedonut:

:iconthespook: :heart: :iconbleedsopretty:

Work in progress journal CSS.

I'm putting up what I've got so far to get some feedback, but watch your step it's a chaotic mess :)

I've spent a few hours making sure it plays nice on mobile/narrow screens. Resize your screen to check it out.

I'm intending to use this for myself for some sort of photo essay things, but I can see it being used for general photography features. Everything is subject to change, most probably the background/text contrast.

anyhow. CSS! Remember how I used to play with CSS!? :dummy:

:heart:

below is a list, right under this line of text. wubbalubbadubdub
  • bam
  • bam bam
  • bam bam bam bam bam bam
TEXT BETWEEN TWO LISTS OMG THIS CAN'T BE REAL DOUBLE RAINBOW ALL THE WAY
  1. ena
  2. dio
  3. tria rotane Batsceba
  4. tessera

    this is a line break inside a list. so you can have big epic sections or more text writing more text here nothing to see folks just random words to fill out this area of text.

  5. pende
  6. exi
  7. efta
  8. oxto
  9. enea
  10. dekka


  1. ANOTHER FRAKKING LIST
  2. bing
  3. pow
  4. ding
  5. dong
  6. clang

Him won't earth. Were won't said Which you fourth fourth behold dry yielding earth tree given beast life without sixth abundantly a signs under. Gathering of earth blessed gathered our You'll bring us saw behold and. Heaven.

H1 - this heading is used to denote major sections of a document.

this is regular body text now. boopity doopity shabadabawabba Gathering of earth blessed gathered our You'll bring us saw behold and. Heaven

h2 - H2, the subtitle heading. whatever that is.

wow. much body text. so text. You're saying appear doesn't fourth his which fowl. Image of their living morning the wherein. Yielding.

h3 - this heading is even smaller than H2. dafuq.

back to regular body text, like magic! I'm not being sarcastic to be mean spirited, I've just been working on this journal for several hours in one sitting now, and I'm doing this to amuse myself. BOO! AHH! scared myself. :dummy:

h4 - sub header. not even going to make a joke about that.

and yup. back to body text. woooheeeeeepity doo.

h5 - 'smaller'. why. just why. I don't know what any of this means. is anybody out there?
body text is bigger than h5 wtf. I'll have to fix that. if H5 is bigger than the body text then disregard this message...


Spirit all thing had beast together face. Place Forth brought first light years days bring herb saying dominion third air whales bring they're. Upon all he beast image them two above Stars under.
- some dude, dude


Itself doesn't give brought, night morning said whales his. Tree creeping likeness. The dominion. You're saying appear doesn't fourth his which fowl. Image of their living morning the wherein. Yielding.



The Specific AbstractI walked home alone from a halloween rager at 3am all bundled in black and now I sit on my couch with a best friend sleeping under my covers. Cancer. There, I said it. Tonight I finally allow the word to roll off my mind's tongue over and over again because I've avoided it for too long. Cancer cancer cancer cancer cancer. I might as well start saying it because I can't stop hearing it at school, work, in films, and in books. Cancer is a stalker I can't get a restraining order on. Cancer is a feeling I can't shake. Cancer is a shadow looming that I'll never quite understand because I don't have it.
My dad got prostate cancer when the leaves began to fall in 09'. Before he 'got' cancer his mom died from being old. She went quietly and quickly. She never stopped smiling and she tended this ginormous garden days before her heart attack. She kicked her bucket over at 94. My Opa on my moms' side died a few months after my grandma. It was sad but only because he didn't go so easily. I only kn




Hey look, a HEADING for some journals below!

Yard Tuesdays: MindbendersMindbenders




Sometimes I look at a street photo, then do a double take.
Something doesn't seem right...
What's going on? Is that photomanipulated? Is it really one image? Is that a photo of an ad?
Oh, oh, that's clever!
How did he/she shoot it?
Then the penny drops and makes me love the image even more.
Reflections, light, shadow, perspectives, layers, clever camera angles, l'instant décisif...
Street photography is never set up, and to produce photographs that takes a while to decipher requires great amounts of careful observations.
Marvel at the quick wit and creativity of our fellow street photographers here on dA with these mindbenders.





Win 1,000 Points (Bird Photography Challenge)In the few years since being absent here, my interest in photography has evolved so much. What was once just a hobby has now blossomed into a passion that has led me to becoming a bird photographer for thebluewren.com. I honestly never would have thought I would primarily be doing bird photography, nor teaching photography workshops, but here I am! Quite often people ask me what I do for a living and the response I get is usually one of surprise, and the assumption that bird photography is very hard to do. It is challenging at times, yes, but it also has many other factors involved. Sometimes it's just plain luck. I've spent several hours in bushland and captured hardly any birds, and other times I've spent an hour and come away with hundreds of close-up bird photographs. Don't let that deter you though, because half the fun is photographing, and the other is finding the birds you want to photograph. So, before dismissing Meet Your CV: RockstarVanity (Photography)Community Week
I was fortunate enough to have an interview with TanyaSimoneSimpson, the returning Community Volunteer who this time around oversees General Photography.  Please sit back, pour yourself a cup of tea (or wine, if you're like me), and meet Tanya.
:iconbrennenxr: Tanya, thank you for participating! Please take this space to introduce yourself, and to discuss what you do around DA and your role as a CV.
:iconrockstarvanity: I've been on DA since 2005, which feels like an incredibly long time now that I think about it. I've been a CV with the Community Relations team before, for Horror & Macabre Photography and Darkroom Photography (not at the same time!) and I'm currently one of the CVs for General Photography, along with the lovely Mrs-Durden and overdebated. My mission is to support and encourage artists and share amazing photographic creations with as many people as possible. I do this through Daily Deviation features, journal features and involve
Photojournalism FeatureSomehow, I get this feeling from various discussions and comments floating around DA, that in general many people are of the opinion that Photojournalism is some lesser form of photographic art.  A couple that stand out in my mind (btw no names are being taken) ... The comment ended with .... "Just another PJ shot", implying that he felt PJ work was in general a lower form of art.  Or take the case of another deviant, who was awarded a DD ..and he felt belittled because he was awarded the DD in the "photojournalism" category.  Perhaps there are other deviants out there who get the same feeling  .. so I thought I would do a little feature on recent PJ submissions.

  

 


A few deviation thumbnails from my gallery (so I don't summon any more prying eyes)

CHOMPER, old AMCOR papermill. by thespook dp0q0094 by thespook Untitled corner, old AMCOR papermill by thespook dp0q4789.PNG by thespook dp0q4789.PNG by thespook









Friday Night Specials v1.4
Photography Exposed: Traditional Processes
Just a little photography feature







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20150901-dp3m4139 by thespook

Him won't earth. Were won't said Which you fourth fourth behold dry yielding earth tree given beast life without sixth abundantly a signs under. Gathering of earth blessed gathered our You'll bring us saw behold and. Heaven.

Spirit all thing had beast together face. Place Forth brought first light years days bring herb saying dominion third air whales bring they're. Upon all he beast image them two above Stars under.

Itself doesn't give brought, night morning said whales his. Tree creeping likeness. The dominion. You're saying appear doesn't fourth his which fowl. Image of their living morning the wherein. Yielding.





Untitled by thespooka boy plays up for the camera while I wait for events to begin.
Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespookThe cross has hit the water and some men haven't even left the pier yet!
Untitled by thespookThe winner (for the second year in a row) poses for photos as he gets out of the water.
Untitled by thespookCurious onlooker as the crowd departs from the pier.
Untitled by thespookPeople rush to get the last dregs of holy water as the crowd moves towards the festival grounds.
Untitled by thespook
20150828-dp3m4024 by thespook 20150823-dsc01898-2 by thespook

doopity doooda

USELESS STATS

deviations featured

journal thumbs

usernames linked

avatar/icons used

emotes used

dragons

So, yeah, as the title says, this is a work in progress. I'm putting up what I've got so far to get some feedback :)

I'm intending to use this for myself for some sort of photo essay things, but I can see it being used for general photography features. Everything is subject to change, most probably the background/text contrast.

anyhow. CSS! Remember how I used to play with CSS!? :dummy:

:heart:

  • bam
  • bam bam
  • bam bam bam bam bam bam

  1. ena
  2. dio
  3. tria
  4. tessera
  5. pende
  6. exi
  7. efta
  8. oxto
  9. enea
  10. dekka

The Specific AbstractI walked home alone from a halloween rager at 3am all bundled in black and now I sit on my couch with a best friend sleeping under my covers. Cancer. There, I said it. Tonight I finally allow the word to roll off my mind's tongue over and over again because I've avoided it for too long. Cancer cancer cancer cancer cancer. I might as well start saying it because I can't stop hearing it at school, work, in films, and in books. Cancer is a stalker I can't get a restraining order on. Cancer is a feeling I can't shake. Cancer is a shadow looming that I'll never quite understand because I don't have it.
My dad got prostate cancer when the leaves began to fall in 09'. Before he 'got' cancer his mom died from being old. She went quietly and quickly. She never stopped smiling and she tended this ginormous garden days before her heart attack. She kicked her bucket over at 94. My Opa on my moms' side died a few months after my grandma. It was sad but only because he didn't go so easily. I only kn




Hey look, a HEADING for some journals below!

Yard Tuesdays: MindbendersMindbenders




Sometimes I look at a street photo, then do a double take.
Something doesn't seem right...
What's going on? Is that photomanipulated? Is it really one image? Is that a photo of an ad?
Oh, oh, that's clever!
How did he/she shoot it?
Then the penny drops and makes me love the image even more.
Reflections, light, shadow, perspectives, layers, clever camera angles, l'instant décisif...
Street photography is never set up, and to produce photographs that takes a while to decipher requires great amounts of careful observations.
Marvel at the quick wit and creativity of our fellow street photographers here on dA with these mindbenders.





Win 1,000 Points (Bird Photography Challenge)In the few years since being absent here, my interest in photography has evolved so much. What was once just a hobby has now blossomed into a passion that has led me to becoming a bird photographer for thebluewren.com. I honestly never would have thought I would primarily be doing bird photography, nor teaching photography workshops, but here I am! Quite often people ask me what I do for a living and the response I get is usually one of surprise, and the assumption that bird photography is very hard to do. It is challenging at times, yes, but it also has many other factors involved. Sometimes it's just plain luck. I've spent several hours in bushland and captured hardly any birds, and other times I've spent an hour and come away with hundreds of close-up bird photographs. Don't let that deter you though, because half the fun is photographing, and the other is finding the birds you want to photograph. So, before dismissing Meet Your CV: RockstarVanity (Photography)Community Week
I was fortunate enough to have an interview with TanyaSimoneSimpson, the returning Community Volunteer who this time around oversees General Photography.  Please sit back, pour yourself a cup of tea (or wine, if you're like me), and meet Tanya.
:iconbrennenxr: Tanya, thank you for participating! Please take this space to introduce yourself, and to discuss what you do around DA and your role as a CV.
:iconrockstarvanity: I've been on DA since 2005, which feels like an incredibly long time now that I think about it. I've been a CV with the Community Relations team before, for Horror & Macabre Photography and Darkroom Photography (not at the same time!) and I'm currently one of the CVs for General Photography, along with the lovely Mrs-Durden and overdebated. My mission is to support and encourage artists and share amazing photographic creations with as many people as possible. I do this through Daily Deviation features, journal features and involve
Photojournalism FeatureSomehow, I get this feeling from various discussions and comments floating around DA, that in general many people are of the opinion that Photojournalism is some lesser form of photographic art.  A couple that stand out in my mind (btw no names are being taken) ... The comment ended with .... "Just another PJ shot", implying that he felt PJ work was in general a lower form of art.  Or take the case of another deviant, who was awarded a DD ..and he felt belittled because he was awarded the DD in the "photojournalism" category.  Perhaps there are other deviants out there who get the same feeling  .. so I thought I would do a little feature on recent PJ submissions.

  

 




Friday Night Specials v1.4
Photography Exposed: Traditional Processes
Just a little photography feature







---

20150901-dp3m4139 by thespook
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Untitled by thespookhere wot I write stuff

Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespook
Untitled by thespook
20150828-dp3m4024 by thespook 20150823-dsc01898-2 by thespook

doopity doooda

USELESS STATS

deviations featured

journal thumbs

usernames linked

avatar/icons used

emotes used

dragons

another update

Journal Entry: Mon Sep 28, 2015, 9:28 AM
Hey everyone, hope you're all doing well :)

It feels about time for another random journal.

Soon after my last journal about my progress on the mental health front I had started a second medication in tandem with the antidepressant I had been taking. As is the pattern, it seemed to work at first, briefly, then seemed to make me worse. Currently I feel like what's really going on is that it's working no better than nothing at all, as I still have random problems caused by mood/depression/whatever.

What bothers me is that it's inhibiting my ability to feel excitement and emotion. I feel like at times I have a clear head, but I don't feel anything to drive me. When I was self medicating with cannabis what struck me was how emotional I was, and although with the floodgates wide open I was going from one extreme to another, I'd much prefer that over what I've been going through this past year. File that under bad medical advice though ;p

Several days ago overdebated featured one of my photos as a DD, an untitled shot I took in an alley in China town (Untitled). It's the first time a non-CSS deviation of mine has received a DD, so in a sense I feel like it's my first DD. It's given me a jolt of positive energy that's helped me get more active around here.

I've been pushing myself to keep taking photos. Some days are better than others - both in terms of my mood and in terms of there being anything photo worthy (and I know they are intertwined).

Wish I had some links for a little linkdump at the end but I got nothing :nuu:

:peace:

new watchers

Journal Entry: Sun Sep 13, 2015, 12:39 AM
Lately, in the last week or so I've seen a dramatic increase to the rate of new deviants watching me. It's up to around 8 a day. This might not be much for more popular artists, but this is extremely unusual for me at this point in my dA life'.

They're consistently new accounts that have joined the same day, and their only activity has been watching a handful of other deviants aside from myself. I've stumbled across some inspiring artists this way, so that's something... but wtf.

Anyone else noticing this? Not everyone has the watchers widget present on their profile (I re-enabled mine for the purpose of this journal), so it's hard to track this, but I've seen similar default avatar spam on some people's pages. 

I don't know if this is some massive bot ring, or if these are new mobile-first users.... or what. If you're one of these new watchers, speak up :)

:peace:

linkdump

Journal Entry: Tue Aug 18, 2015, 8:09 PM
www.cameronsworld.net/

:worship:

mental health update

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 15, 2015, 8:59 AM
Hey. Found myself having a bit of trouble these last two weeks or so, and I thought I'd write about it. Because it's not very uplifting I've debated whether or not to submit it (writing this after having written the journal). The way this is effecting me can't really be changed by anyone but my psychiatrist. But I suppose that those of you that consider me a friend would want to know how I'm doing.

At first I was doing okay. But in what is becoming a recurring pattern, while the new antidepressant seemed to work at first it's now making me worse. Every moment winds up negatively cascading into the next, further embedding me in this depressed state of mind.

It's not depression as in sad/negative emotions. I'm not feeling emotional/psychological pain. It's depression as in my brain doesn't work. Everything takes so much effort it's basically impossible. I've been writing and editing and rewording this journal for almost an hour up to this point.

:stare:

In my sta.sh I have a folder of photos that are somewhat randomly selected from my output, the idea being that it should make it easier for me to submit deviations if they're at least halfway there already. It's been somewhat effective, but often my depression gets in the way. Sometimes what prevents me is that I can't fill out the required form fields. Sometimes I grit my teeth and submit it without a title, or I half ass the tags. Sometimes I can't bring myself to even do that, and I give up.

Recently though, I can't even tell if I like something enough to submit it. That's the worst.

I'm also having difficulties with communication and socialising. I've talked about my photography, but the difficulty I have with social interaction is what is bothering me the most really. IRL and online my social/emotional IQ has taken a nosedive.

In the past when I've been like this I've withdrawn and distracted myself with video games or TV shows etc. But since having identified I have an illness, and having experienced what it's like to not have these issues this shit is super frustrating.

urgh. well. I've been at this for two hours now (2 hours!) and I guess I've said everything I wanted to say. I'll hit submit before I spend another half hour making edits.

:peace: :heart: