Love this especially the last half. I've had trouble with panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, and mental instability now and then (unrelated to them, more around emotionally tense relationship situations in outward life, as well as my chronic illness making it hard to live my life...) but they pull through for me again and again. If I want a break from fronting (since I'm the main fronter, its my life, and I'm the "main" you can say) Graltrez can step in and help. Iris is the body consciousness and is always there, little cheerful talkative one she is. <3 Laurina and Nastrith have fronted at times but Graltrez has proven himself time and time again to be my bulwark and stalwart ally and VERY good at what he does. He gets the job done and doesn't dither as much about things that may be causing me to panic or get emotionally hurt by. He's more unruffled by such things, and checks things off a to-do list and makes sure everything's running well in this life. He just hates socializing so I or Iris have to step in for that lol.
Recently he's been an AMAZING stalwart ally in this mess with my illness and helping me manage it better. One time when I was panicking a bit since I was emotionally messed up and mentally a bit too from the downward spiral of my energy and health in a couple hours (rapid yes I know) that so characterizes the beginning of an energy crash, I was debating whether to wake up mom by pushing a button she gave me for such a situation, if I've gotten too bad a crash and cannot move or text for help. Since I didn't think I was that bad I was debating whether waking her up was "fair" or not of me to do, but Graltrez just took one look at my emotional state, tried to convince me to do it and then when I dithered more, just took over and pushed the button and then went back to letting me front and calming me from within the mindspace. Mom came in and that helped a LOT, but if it hadn't been for Graltrez I wouldn't have pushed the button and probably would've done some harm to myself. *sighs* He's so sane and cool-headed and logical and has a very firm stance on needing to do what is necessary if it protects the physical/emotional/mental health. He's my backbone these past few weeks as I've been having trouble with a friend who is also a multiple, who couldn't deal with what I needed to do to set healthful limits on the relationship. I would've torn myself to bits emotionally over the stress but Graltrez keeps being cool and level-headed to a "T" and giving me that solidity and strength I need to learn lol.
I've been talking more about what he's doing for me to help me in my life, along with my boyfriend Raven, and mind-healer and all-around awesome guy Thespas, and twin Azzy, and my therapist and my mom when they heard about what Gra did that night, actually said out loud "Thank you Graltrez! <3" pretty enthusiastically lol. ;;; They're too used to me trying to hide my problems to "not be a burden/problem" for other people, so anyone that gets me to admit to having troubles and to actually reach out for help instead of suffering in silence, they like that person a lot.
Anyways rambled more than I probably should've lol but just wanted to share to someone who seems very supportive and in a welcoming environment. <3