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Icarus
Like a moth to a flame I fly closer to that which burns I try to grasp what has hurt me before I reach for that which I have held My wings are black, Scorched and charred by the flame I desire But I seek it nonetheless To hold it is pain It is a beautiful punishment I sought that which was meant to be for another I paid the price And yet still I try to hold on It will be my death But, oh, what a beautiful death it will be
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Lines
Shame courses through my veins Corrupting my very soul. I had almost grown accustomed to This world I've come to know. But old habits die hard And this one is just the same. There's no one else that's here And I'm the only one to blame. The lines begin to throb in pain, Blood slowly seeping out. Not enough for the release of death But enough to let it out. I failed myself and no one else, So there's nothing I have to fear. I'm the only one who knows That the lines are hiding there.
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Fading
These words that I make, The letters I place, Can speak to the heart and soul. They can banish strife, Give power and life, But still they will not be known. There is no more time For art of the rhyme, As it has long since been lost. It all fades away Into shades of gray As times ravages are brought.
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The Man
This man that I have become Is not who I wanted to be. I hate myself for what I've done And the things that I have seen. But I've made my own decisions And have to suffer my fate, For no one can change what I am, A monster I've come to hate. My heart is cold as a winter stone, Having known too much pain. My hands are now hard as steel After fighting in vain. I've created this curse under which I lay. I blame no one but myself. I'll carry it until I die In a personal hell.
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The King of Things Gone By
I am the king of things gone by. Master of all that's not there. I drink from rivers run dry. I watch the invisible air. I am the king of things that never existed. Ruler of all that passed away. I walk a path that grew twisted And see colors in shades of gray. I am the king that ruled nothing at all But had it all in my grasp. I built an impenetrable wall To shield from pretend attacks. I am the king of a kingdom so mighty And yet nothing has ever been shown. I ruled my kingdom so wisely That it's existence will never be known.
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The Enemy
Where is the enemy? Is he outside of my home? Is he at my job? Is the enemy you? Or is the enemy me? Where is the enemy? He's inside of my mind.
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Promise
I bear these wounds Upon my chest. Hidden from view Of all the rest. I hide them away So they don't see I'm weak. I give no sign Of any flaw to seek. I opened up to you And showed you my pain. I showed you the battle I fight day to day. I gave you my trust, A gift few now hold. You promised it wouldn't break, A promise so very bold. And now it seems like I Have grown boring and dull And it seems almost like That promise was rendered null. I spend my days in wait For a moment I know will come And everything that I had Will finally come undone.
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Icarus
Like a moth to a flame I fly closer to that which burns I try to grasp what has hurt me before I reach for that which I have held My wings are black, Scorched and charred by the flame I desire But I seek it nonetheless To hold it is pain It is a beautiful punishment I sought that which was meant to be for another I paid the price And yet still I try to hold on It will be my death But, oh, what a beautiful death it will be
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Lines
Shame courses through my veins Corrupting my very soul. I had almost grown accustomed to This world I've come to know. But old habits die hard And this one is just the same. There's no one else that's here And I'm the only one to blame. The lines begin to throb in pain, Blood slowly seeping out. Not enough for the release of death But enough to let it out. I failed myself and no one else, So there's nothing I have to fear. I'm the only one who knows That the lines are hiding there.
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Fading
These words that I make, The letters I place, Can speak to the heart and soul. They can banish strife, Give power and life, But still they will not be known. There is no more time For art of the rhyme, As it has long since been lost. It all fades away Into shades of gray As times ravages are brought.
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The Man
This man that I have become Is not who I wanted to be. I hate myself for what I've done And the things that I have seen. But I've made my own decisions And have to suffer my fate, For no one can change what I am, A monster I've come to hate. My heart is cold as a winter stone, Having known too much pain. My hands are now hard as steel After fighting in vain. I've created this curse under which I lay. I blame no one but myself. I'll carry it until I die In a personal hell.
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The King of Things Gone By
I am the king of things gone by. Master of all that's not there. I drink from rivers run dry. I watch the invisible air. I am the king of things that never existed. Ruler of all that passed away. I walk a path that grew twisted And see colors in shades of gray. I am the king that ruled nothing at all But had it all in my grasp. I built an impenetrable wall To shield from pretend attacks. I am the king of a kingdom so mighty And yet nothing has ever been shown. I ruled my kingdom so wisely That it's existence will never be known.
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The Enemy
Where is the enemy? Is he outside of my home? Is he at my job? Is the enemy you? Or is the enemy me? Where is the enemy? He's inside of my mind.
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Promise
I bear these wounds Upon my chest. Hidden from view Of all the rest. I hide them away So they don't see I'm weak. I give no sign Of any flaw to seek. I opened up to you And showed you my pain. I showed you the battle I fight day to day. I gave you my trust, A gift few now hold. You promised it wouldn't break, A promise so very bold. And now it seems like I Have grown boring and dull And it seems almost like That promise was rendered null. I spend my days in wait For a moment I know will come And everything that I had Will finally come undone.
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Like you need more stalker info.
Hey it's a tag journal and I'm not dead. Yet. ANYWAY The TMI tag 1. What are you wearing? Black fleece leggins, t-shirt an my bear hooodie. It's a comfy clothes day.   2. Ever been in love? Yup, and now I think I'm starting to fall again. <3 3. Ever had a terrible breakup? I suppose. It was my fault though. 4. How tall are you? Short, 5'4'' I believe. 5. How much do you weigh? Of a mini elephant. xD jk I have lost weight but hoping to lose more. 6.Any tattoos? Nope, I want a water color one someday. 7. Any piercings? Just my ears, might get a nose piercing if I'm brave enough.:p 8. OTP? Ahhgg I can't think of one D: 9
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Should I change my name? I do have one or two in mind.
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  • :iconnomemeplz:
  • Yes. xDisturbedTitanx (what was going to be my new Xbox Live name.)
  • Yes. xStrickenTitanx (current Xbox live name. Above wouldn't fit.)
  • Yes. other (suggest in comments.)
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Thinking about changing my name.
So, for a few years, my go to username for everything has been TheRoaringBear. I feel like it's a part of me and who I am. But I also feel like it holds the last vestiges of a person who I no longer am. I've grown. I'm smarter, I'm stronger, and I'm wiser. I feel the need to move on, but at the same time, I'm afraid of letting go of this name that has come to define me. It's more than just a moniker. It holds the emotions, the trials, the tribulations, and the experiences of who I am. As much as I want to move on, I feel like I can't let it go. Very sheldomly have I come across a name the same as mine. I feel that it's unique, and uncommon in
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Happy birthday!
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:


It's December 20th which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!


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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

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