You're My Nightmare Come TrueIt's easy to see that you don't know where you're going,
But when you kissed my lips and pulled me closer to you,
My fear was washed away and replaced with happiness..
As you pull into the abondoned field all my fear comes rushing back,
I see nothing I know and no signs of safety,
We sit in silence as you think of a plan..
We move to the back and you ask me to get naked,
I'm too afraid to let you see me without these things convering my precious body..
You keep insisting and decide to do it yourself,
I tell you no but you just go along with it anyways,
There's not much I can do to stop you, I'm so afriad of being abused..
I didn't wan to go this far, it was only supposed to be us just hanging out,
But you force me down and quickly take away something I held dearly..
Even though you hurt me, I can't help but feel special,
Just the fact that someone wanted me,
The fact you told me that I was breathtaking, among other things,
Yet, I can't help but hate myself for believing every lie..
Just Can't Tell Him...Lying on my bed alone,
Looking out my window,
Feeling the cool breeze against my body,
Sprawled upon this rock,
Too many things running through my head..
I wish I could turn my head,
And see you looking back at me,
Feel your arm around my waist,
Gently pulling me closer,
Pressing you lips softly to mine..
Everything important slowly fades away,
As soon as your face comes to my mind,
I wish I could make you see,
Exactly what you mean to me,
But that could ruin everything..
Derek..The things you say,
Are what get me through,
Get me through the day,
Your words of wisdom,
Sound so good to me..
You make me feel wanted,
I have a purpose around you,
A feeling never felt before,
Yet this unkown feeling,
Makes me feel so good..
I can't wait for the day,
The day that we meet,
The day I put these words to a face,
These words that halped me through,
The toughest of times..
To you I can give a hug,
But it's not an ordinary hug,
One filled with love and thankfullness,
And maybe, just maybe,
It'll make you feel..
As you make me feel..
For Dustan..I wish I could do magic,
If only, if only,
Than I could give you,
Exactly what you want..
I'm not good now,
Not able to give you the things,
The things that you wish for,
The things you'd die for..
The one thing you want,
Is the one thing you can't have,
I can try to do my best,
And get this thing you want..
But I can't do magic,
These pretend powers,
Won't do me any good,
When what you want,
Jake and His LossYou had me going,
I actually believed it.
Every word you said,
Seemed to be exactly,
Exacty what I wanted..
But I've figured it out,
Figured out your lies,
You told me one thing,
But all the others,
Knew something else..
I thought you were sincere,
But it was all an act,
You plyed with my heart,
my emotions, and my head,
I was wrong about you..
Too bad you're gone,
You don't know what,
What exactly you're missing,
Cause I'm the best,
The best that you could do,
My love is real,
Along with my feelings,
Too bad you wouldn't know,
You've lost a great thing..
Again..I've done it again,
Fell for someone's lies again,
Got my hopes to the highest again,
Just to see them smashed again,
I can't forgive myself again..
A RevelationThe CD of my life,
Is only pointless to myself,
Every track a suicide,
And every song sung,
Tears a whole right through my heart..
I can make it through tomorrow,
I won't live in pain forever,
Cause tomorrow could be special,
And we could make it through together..
I won't sit here and watch myself,
Put my heart through this mutilation,
So I'm throwing this record out the window,
I'm forgetting these songs about broken hearts,
I won't spend my life regreting..
Here's to a brand new me..
What The Fuck..When you left you took my whole life with you,
And all I ever wanted to be was your whole life too,
But all though we're not together,
This music will bring m back to you..
The only good thing about this song is,
Knowing that you're doing the same,
In some way that connects us,
And it helps to scream your name...
But this song is almost over, and you are almost gone,
Just remember that I miss you,
And you're never really alone..
These last few screaming lyrics,
Almost warm my heart,
And that one last note lingers,
As I slowly fall apart..