First Step: Completed!

The banner's handled (after at least two weeks of work), and, now, it's time to tackle the legacy set's design for the Bard's fire--which I intend to change periodically in character with the Bard's roving nature, traveling to hazardous, fantastical locales across the DnD multiverse-- but, for now, what I'm designing is the default, the bardfire prime.

 I realize the internet is replete with bullshit updates, where people overshare the incredibly petty minutiae of their daily lives, but low key: announcing this stuff online may spoil how the sausage gets made, but it serves as a psychological cattle prod for me to make the sausage at all-- and I've had people argue with me that I shouldn't feel obligated to other people to create, but, counterpoint, and I'm saying this with genuine regard for the people who proffered this sentiment:

I'm a sperg with ADD. Please, if you're "normal", don't tell me how I should be motivated; because I can't motivate myself just doing things your way. I'm sorry, I just can't.

 My internal incentive structure is fundamentally hardwired differently than a normal person's; to the point gulping down prescription speed as a child didn't make me hyper, it made me sit still and listen in class; like a zombie. Point being, I am aware that people do updates online, demanding head pats for things as obnoxious as they are inconsequential; but this isn't inconsequential...!

 Not to me.

 It's my dream, and if admitting to myself 'I can't do this the normie way!' then that's what I have to admit; because I'm not normal*...!

I've tried building a channel for years. I've tried reaching into myself for the energy to match the lifelong passion I've always had, that I will always have, like you're supposed to, and I keep coming up, more oft than naught, empty. Trying to take the next step forward to building a Youtube channel-- in the dark--with no support, and ,parenthetically, no peer pressure--no potential to disappoint someone other than me-- creating anything under that model feels like putting my hand on a smoking stove top to cook. The normal way isn't enough; I just need something more! Just like I need Gut's Theme playing on an hour loop just to quiet the billion and one thoughts pinging away inside my skull; so I can sit down and write this personal admonition to myself, which includes this night's agenda:

1) Chose a Pose Reference for the Bard

2)Find the vanishing point in the Reference and build the Set's perspective grid.

3)Start sketching compositions :)

I'm still deciding whether or not I want the set to be converted to 64 bit art, like the RPG's I played growing up, or have everything stay consistently in my general with cell-shading comparable to 'Lodoss War'.

Tomorrow Night's Agenda:

1)Clipping an Alt. BF banner for Journal Updates.

(Borrowing fantasy art, when I HAVE fantasy art of my own, for the sake of filling space is just depressing tbh.)

*I have several opinions about how the psych community regards my nature. Being referred to as an "illness" doesn't tickle me like some people.