So.. this is probably going to mean nothing to most people. I haven't even been active on dA in 3 years. But whatever, if someone reads this and cares, that's cool. I just feel like I should say this so everyone that cares knows what happened.
Anyway, as some people have noticed, I've recently rejoined the Chipmunk fandom. After basically not being a part of it for almost 4 years, I decided to come back. So... why did I leave?
I wish it was a good reason, but actually, the heart of it is pretty dumb.
For reference, I joined the chipmunk forum in April 2012. That was when I was near the end of seventh grade, and 13 years old.
So, in 2013, I started high school. I was still pretty active during my freshman year, but there was one thing that kept me out for a while. I was in marching band and drumline, which in itself isn't a problem. But, the forum would host MMTV on Friday nights back in this time. And Friday nights were also when I had to play our show at the football games. Due to this, I wasn't able to talk to my friends as often as I wanted. I couldn't listen to the chipmunks and talk about random stuff as much as I used to. I think I stopped posting chipmunk stuff in the middle of my sophomore year.
Also, I felt guilty for liking the chipmunks. High school is scary, and I didn't want to admit to my friends in real life that I liked to listen to a band of signing chipmunks in my free time. I also stopped watching My Little Pony at this time... so yeah.
Since I felt guilty, I had to convince myself that I didn't like the chipmunks anymore. And after a while, it worked. I spent about two years barely thinking about them. When the Road Chip came out, I didn't even go see it in theaters. I saw it once after, and I couldn't tell you a thing that happened because I was so uninterested. I deleted all my chipmunk songs from my iPod. I just cut them out of my life basically.
I think the final reason I left was that all of my friends in the fandom were so much older than me. Now that I'm 19, my friends being older isn't as big of a deal. But at the time, I joined the fandom, I was 13, and most of the friends I made were close to 18. And that was... not great. I started to ditch my real life friends because I wanted to talk to my internet ones. I didn't even do anything for one of my birthdays because I wanted to celebrate it at MMTV. I feel like if I had continued to try to be friends with everyone while I was growing up... idk. I might not have grown into a better person as easily. And I might have missed a lot of things in my life. I don't really know how to explain it lol.
Anyway, I'm glad I took some time away from the fandom to grow up. I was kind of a weird kid when I was in the fandom, and listened to the first people I met like they were saints and could never be wrong. They were adults, so I could trust their word. And now that I'm older, I can realize some of the things I did because I was listening to my friends weren't great. Nothing terrible but... I stil shouldn't have believed everything they said at face value.
I used to scream at people for posting recolors and making repitches. I didn't care that I could be hurting a kid who just wants to have fun. I didn't do it often, but I still feel bad for the kind of person I was. And honestly, I don't care anymore.
So, I'm back in the fandom now. I missed my old friends, and most of them are still active. I don't even know why I decided to rejoin. I hadn't watched anything chipmunk related in a long time. The only thing I watched was "A Chipmunk Christmas," but that probably wasn't the main pull. I just... I missed my friends. I feel like I'm better friends with most of them now than I was before I left honestly. And I've even made a lot of new friends. But I'm going to try to not let the fandom take over my life again. I used to try to be at every forum event for the entire time. And honestly, I shouldn't have tried to do that. I felt so guilty went I couldn't go to something because I had a real life commitment. So, I'm gonna try to not feel guilty for that. Because I don't want to have to leave again. That'd just be sad.