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Wow. So it's been 4 years since I've been here. 4 years since I've written anything. I've been busy! My life is completely different now. I am married. I have given birth to 3 daughters. I am a Christian. My life and mind are no longer complete chaos.
Last night I stayed up late reading my old journals. Just wow. Was I really that person? That entitled, confused, broken girl. God has changed me, transformed me. I am still broken but He's putting the pieces back together in His order and time. I have learnt so much and still have so much to learn.I
I started reading again. With lockdown I've had more time for myself. Reading again have me the urge to write again. My mind is itching to write. I just don't know how anymore. I guess I'm afraid of doing it wrong. My husband (Pip) tells me to just do it, but I'm afraid of failure. Interesting.
So I guess I just want to say 'Hi!' to anyone who remembers me from the fairytale-heart era as well as this account. So much of my life has been documented on Deviantart, so much that I had forgotten. We think we'll remember but we don't.
Hopefully I'll start writing again.
Last night I stayed up late reading my old journals. Just wow. Was I really that person? That entitled, confused, broken girl. God has changed me, transformed me. I am still broken but He's putting the pieces back together in His order and time. I have learnt so much and still have so much to learn.I
I started reading again. With lockdown I've had more time for myself. Reading again have me the urge to write again. My mind is itching to write. I just don't know how anymore. I guess I'm afraid of doing it wrong. My husband (Pip) tells me to just do it, but I'm afraid of failure. Interesting.
So I guess I just want to say 'Hi!' to anyone who remembers me from the fairytale-heart era as well as this account. So much of my life has been documented on Deviantart, so much that I had forgotten. We think we'll remember but we don't.
Hopefully I'll start writing again.
Where Did I Go?
It's been over 2 years since I posted on this account. Wow. My life is significantly different. I'm a mum now, I have a home. My daughter will be 7 months old next week. She is amazing and my life is so much better than it was the last time I was here. I always get the urge to write at this time of year, but I'm rusty, I haven't written anything in a long time. Here are my thoughts from a few days ago.
Where Did I Go?
There is a conflict within my soul
Where did I go?
The girl I once was
Had some of her troubles unmuddled
Some of her broken pieces fixed
She became a mother
A woman with a child and home,
Single. Stigmatised.
My daugh
Where Did I Go?
I think it's been over 2 years since I posted anything on this account. A lot has happened since then. My life has changed significantly. I have a daughter now! She's almost 7 months out and she is amazing. I haven't written anything in ages but felt the need to get my thoughts out.
Where Did I Go?
There is a conflict within my soul,
Where did I go?
The girl I once was
Had some of her troubles unmuddled
She became a mother
A woman with a child and home,
Single. Stigmatised.
My daughter is my world
But where did I go?
Old addictions occupy my mind
If I relent a little will I be broken again?
Can I invite a small part of my old wor
We're Just Animals Fucking Away Our Loneliness
I've really hurt him. I didn't think he'd give a shit because he made it clear that he didn't want me. I hurt his pride, his masculinity. I didn't mean to. It was just sex, sex with his friend. We've been broken up for five months, did he expect me to be virginal until he'd made up his mind about what he wanted?
I don't understand how he could have said such horrible things to me. I know I hurt him but we're adults, grow the fuck up and stop thinking everything is about you. I fucked his friend and I'm sure I will again, but we're just people, we're just humans, animals fucking our loneliness away. He said, 'If you were here now I'd probably
Beach Bake and Cemetery Dates
I met a cute girl on OKCupid, let's call her Z. The night before last I met Z by the pier at about half seven in the evening. We went for a couple of spliffs on the beach - I supplied the weed, she supplied the chocolate milkshake - and talked about non-superficial things. She’s chilled and she rides a bike and she made me laugh.
Tonight, well last night, we sat in the Pavilion garden and smoked weed and talked about loads of things, then she bought us chocolate and we walked up to one of Brighton's cemeteries and smoked and munched and talked in the dark. She said she thinks my life's been crazy, which I find amusing because it's just
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