TheMackOfHorror

I guess I owe you an apology Trinity…. I’m sorry for what I did. I didn’t mean to make you angry, okay? I’m sorry for talking shit about you. I’m sorry for even mentioning your name. I’m sorry I was an asshole and I’m sorry that I was rude when you confronted me about it. I’m sorry Joe-Joe for dragging you into this mess. I should’ve thought about your feelings and I’m sorry for being selfish. I’m sorry. It’s okay if you guys don’t forgive me because it’s clear that I don’t deserve it anyways. Sorry everyone….

I walk down the street. Then just as fast a lighting I feel this craving. What could it be? Red, red, red, red is all I see. I smash, crash, beat everything I see. I know that when I go back to my friends I fell normal and content but when I'm alone I feel this sudden urge to destroy everything. Lying in the dark at night is such a drag because I'd rather be sneaking away to destroy everything. What a life worth spent. People say I become distant now. I laugh and tell them they're only imaging it all. I'm normal, right? Don't tie me down because the urge is too strong to resist. I can't be fixed or helped. I wish that I could be normal but then a small thought tells me that everything will be alright. Hurt everyone near you. I know that I can't stop the future but I would if I hurt you. I'm so sorry.

You feel like you're drowning in it but the odd feeling of happiness makes you smile. You're terrified but it seems so  beautiful. You can't escape from the feeling of dread and colorful happiness. You could wish it would stop. You walk with a smile across the blood-stained grass where they serve out their cruel deeds to the world. You wish that you belonged and wished that this could end. But it's so fun and this world is of your making. I know that you get sad sometimes but it's better this way, you'll see!
We invite you and see what you're made of. Our eternal queen has returned. We are so happy to see you! How have you been? Surrounded by smiling faces and friends you can't help that something is wrong. You look so nice today! I know what you want and I'll never give it to you. Experiments are done everyday without a care. Why have you brought me here? You want to escape but they won't let you. You know that we love you, right? They circle around eyes switching to red. No one will leave us again. We want you to be here. This is what you wanted, right?
It is a once in a life time chance to be here. So tell me why are you sad? I know that you think I can't be trusted but that's where you are wrong. I know that we can be friends! Oh, this world of illusions is home to me! We twirl around, faster, faster, faster. I know why you're here my friend. I want you to know that it wasn't my fault so don't blame me. I can see that you're upset. Why are you so sad? I wanted you to be there when I needed you. So why did you not show up? I know that secrets are best kept but it's hard that I can't tell you. I know we are the same but why do you resent me? The world is turning, faster, faster, faster, faster, faster, faster.....

Chains dangle from your wrists and your ankles. I smile happily at you as you become frightened. What's wrong? I know that relationship don't always end well but how come you act like you don't know either? I grab a deck from the stool beside me and deal you some cards. You are going to play right?
You look so terrified as you grab your cards and search them frantically. I know you're nervous but don't let it show for I feed on it. I know what you're thinking. If I win I live and go on with my happy little unimportant life. I will not lose if I deal my cards right. Am I right? You get a determined look on your face now let the games begins. I know that we had a fight and I'm overreacting but you must know that I find this perfectly reasonable. You deal of six as I shift my eyes through my cards. Blood stains the once white edges and my heart skips a beat as I find a larger number than yours. What will you do? Will we stay here for all of eternity? Yes? No? Yes? No? Am I right? 
What you're feeling right now is completely human but you look determined still. I will break you in half in no time! I know what your next move is before you make it so don't think you have the upper hand. I am death itself. I like you but when we fought it opened a scar inside me and lava poured into my veins. This is your fault, right? You can't leave even if you want to. You struggle through the other rounds trying to one up me but it's futile! The Card Master lend me his heart and then I soared into the inky black sky.
Have you already tired out? You seem sleepy to me. If you sleep you will instantly die. No matter how much you score we all know the outcome. Death or life? I chose myself for the winner. You cried as I grabbed the knife on my table and you tried to look away at your own fate. You scream the whole night until you fell asleep. Now I must clean after another one of my victims again.

Me: *looks at dirty things* Hmm? That's interesting!
Mylie: What are you looking at?
Me: Epp!*hides computer screen* Nothing!
Mylie: Let me see...
Me: *gives in* Okay...
I show her the computer screen in shame. Mylie takes a long time to respond.
Me: *praying*
Mylie: It's okay if you're fully gay. I don't mind just don't do this in front of the kids, OK?
Me: Ok!