Here's to another update because I just don't use deviant art that much anymore. I'm pretty sure only one person actually reads these but I enjoy doing them so I'm gonna keep doing them.
So I think the last time I posted one of these was over a year ago? Well then, there's a lot I have to say.
So where should I start? Uni? My Job? My Boyfriend? My Family? I might do this in a question and short (extended) answer form to make this easier to read.
Hows uni life going?
It isn't. I deferred and just never went back.
How's that job of yours going?
Did I ever mention that I work at a cafe as a barista All-Rounder? Well now I'm sort of a supervisor. This is cool I guess but it can get a little stressful at times and doing coffee all day everyday has left me with callused fingers so I mean its got its flaws and down sides but so does every job. Ultimately though I get paid a decent wage. I have good friends. It's got a good vibe and great ambience. Customers love me and I love being a barista.
How? Who? What? is your boyfriend?
HA HA. HA HA. HA...HA
WELL. WELL THEN.
This is a funny story actually. Remember that crush I had in highschool? That BGF that I dedicated a number of journal entries toward between the years 2014-2015. Well I'm currently seriously dating the guy I broke up with for BGF. I think I wrote one journal about him back in 2014. So yeah! we're back together again! we reconnected last October and we've been going strong ever since.
And your family? what's that like?
I don't wanna talk about it.
but I'll touch on it briefly. There's low key a misogynistic hierarchy in my family that somewhere along the line decided that woman should do 'womanly duties'and still work at the same time. in contrast men should not clean up in any way shape or form and be a 'provider' meaning they get to come home after work, relax and do nothing. I may be a little bitter over this.
On the other hand we're getting a house! I'm going on part ownership with my dad!
Plans for the future?
With the amount of time I've taken off uni its given me a new perspective of what I want out of life. I realised that the only reason I wanted to go to uni to begin with was an unrealistic goal my 18 year old self had. For me, it was to prove to myself that I could do it. It was a noble goal but not one that I could get anything out of life with. Whats the point of spending years going to uni, sacrificing a future mortgage, financial stability and a life I can build for myself and my future family when there's an easier and shorter pathway to take? To do what I wanted to do through uni, I wouldn't be able to have any of those things until at least my mid 30's. Art therapy is still on the table. That, nursing or general therapy work. All of which I can do through TAFE within half the time I would had I chosen university as my pathway.
There's a small part of me, there may always be a small part of me, that's disappointed I couldn't make uni work, but its not for me. It was a nice dream to have, and I wish I could go back to having that same dream, but there's a level of naivety there that exists only in my younger self.