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I close my eyes when I am underwater
think about how no mother wants
to believe she birthed a monster
and the somnolent echo of sound through water
in my eardrums rings so hollow
I remember as a child, doing headstands in
the swimming pool and coming up eyes open
through sun dappled blue sky water with those
rock songs that played in the car hollow in my water ears
you know, at nine, that is what i thought god was
three times that, and i laugh at the fact
you'd think talk of addiction would make me afraid
i've lived more addictions than debts i've paid
I close my eyes when I am underwater
and now when I open them, I see white ceiling,
hear those voices still ring hollow, no sun, music, god
I lift my left hand, look at the ring, the rock, the finger
Twenty seven years, is this who I am now?
I am always underwater, I am withdrawing
I am confounding and frustrating, I am aching
Am I bound to be servile, am I making poor choices?
Is this a bond or a contract and how will my heart act?
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He held his breath and waited for the good days, until they stopped coming.
She was always emotionally wild, but here and now with her brown eyes flashing rage and two balled fists pulling furiously at her long, red hair, it didn't make him feel passion any more. No lust, no compassion, not even amusement, only anger, resentment, frustration, and finality. She wouldn't take the medicine any more, blamed it for the six years of trying to conceive; the two miscarriages. Of course, he was crushed, but could she handle being a mother in that mental state? God knew his own had never been quite right, and maybe it was why he carried some sense that this was all his fault- that he should be able to hold her together better than this. She teetered on the edge of sanity, fragile, protected only by fickle gravity.
He wouldn't leave her. Not now. After a decade, it hardly seemed worth it. She was beautiful, if nothing else, sexually voracious and darkly perverse in ways he'd never imagined a real
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This schizophrenic give and take
the back and forth
the lines we fake
the tales you tell from the murderer's seat
we are complete
completely lost
No mercy can keep us free from sin
or protect us from all anxiety
so why even try to lie to me?
Why pretend there's a way
we can fake ourselves
back into pure
Good night, Mr. Sleepy Bones
you made your bed
now sleep alone
hello darling, nothing has changed
you just don't know my face
you just don't know my name
wave goodbye to
all the inaccuracies
the lovely little scars
inside of me
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goood Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2008   Writer
I can't wait for you to get back D:
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Thanks for the fav :)
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Thank you for the :+fav: on My Emerald Isle Necklace. :hug:
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thank you VERY VERY much :)
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I am a random passer-by, but since you're local I'll check your page out more often :) First time here. I'll look at your gallerty tomorrow sometime after work. Take care!
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Thanks for the :+fav:! :D
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