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:: heartsick ::

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:: heartsick ::

:: heartsick :: alone, sitting here waiting eyes searching for love, a dream in the vast sea, swims a few fish floating in toxic waters, dying in limbo, washed up and bleeding rent to pieces, torn to patches wounds and scars of the opposing sexes, imposing absurd rules like kill or be killed, love or be loved twist of words, mind-bending games now, it is a new set of silly laws kill or be loved, love or be killed razing, fazing, hazing, amazing left there discarded, pain a' blazing maddening, saddening, not gladdening left there thrown away, old scrapings wild vertigo, empty-headed and crazy mentally furious, the burning sou

:: ruthless ::

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:: ruthless ::

:: ruthless :: bleary and bleak, the cloudy skies harsh, a crisp, wintry morning, I lay down the roses for you, deep, abruptly red, moist in dew, as you lay cold within the earth I am standing over you, dry eyes void of the soul you used to be buried memories emerge behind me reconciling the past mistakes based on the love we had, gone all that is left of you now, empty swirling and fading away, away and now, on that cold, bleak morning turning and walking over dreams whispering by in the gentle breeze hard, brown leaves dancing slowly swirling, reflecting the choices we made somehow, someway, for some reason all the mistak

:: macabre ::

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:: macabre ::

:: macabre :: waking up one day, slowly feeling naked to the world stepping out of my home during the chilling season swaying leaves fall about dancing in wide circles dreaming breeze whispers walking along the street rumbling cars and trucks rolling past lonely me uncaring and smoggy striding faster, windy stopping to observe spinning around, around ignoring the sensations blind little ol' me crushing bones, snapping flurring red and white falling flat dying - philip © 2004

reminiscence

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reminiscence

:: reminiscence :: If you let her go  and let her be happy... If you let her go,  she will look back and remember... As if you will be her touching keepsake,  standing inside her shelf of forgotten love... Oh, those days have gone by  with bittersweet memories... Those days when love's laughter  has roared, gone and died away... The sparkling eyes that glisten,  a smile that greets you everyday.. You start to miss her,  then push this precious memory deep inside... In hopes that one day,  when she will return by your side... In hopes that someday,  when the love pours out again... In hopes that one day,  when you

moon

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moon

:: moon :: delicate moon growing upon the hill the night is beginning - philip © 2001

Crazy In Another Dimension

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Crazy In Another Dimension

:: Crazy In Another Dimension :: It's a crazy one! Crazy world, crazy world, Things out of its place! What did we have And what did we get? Lots of tan fruits And magenta pets. I laid down In sunlight's brown, Counting clouds, They're tangerine, Floating by. The sky's green. It began to rain. The yellow hail Starts to fall, Melting into water; Of course, it's yellow, But I am mellow. My black fingernails, Pink eyes, purple hair And knowing this, It's a crazy one! Crazy world, crazy world, Things out of its place! The world isn't dead. Scratching my skin, It's really orange. My blue mouth Grinning wide And showin

forevermore

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forevermore

:: forevermore :: I look to my time, My experiences... I look up to the sky, My face warm from the sun... I look back and see only pain, My back feeling the hellish fire... I look away to hide my tears, My heart beats and cries out... I look around the world, My own place... I look at ugly images, My head throbs from the thoughts... I look at myself, My soul so muddy... I look forward, My eyes see the light!!!      Oh.. Oh.. Oh.. I look at the brilliance, My frown turning into a smile... I look forward, My arms outstretched... I look at its never-ending rays, My soul soon follows...      Oh.. Oh.. Oh.. Forevermore..

at the gate

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at the gate

:: at the gate :: At the gate, there I stand! Tearful eyes looking back... Hard times, a beaten path... It stretched out Far than the eye could see! A trying eternal trip, A journey called Life! Dark and forbidden ways Obscured my path, Easy detours to go astray! Achieving each step Painstakingly each day!!! Just to reach the goal At the gate, there I stand! Many temptations, They falter my strengths, But I stand strong, Taking the beatings Like a mountain In a thunderstorm! Knowing the right, Choosing the right, Trying to live the right way! Trials endured, always to survive, Traveling long and hard... Now, I have r
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vulnerable

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vulnerable

:: vulnerable :: all the things I have done for you, I unwilling did it out of a lie for many long days, I was relentless ignoring my heart and listening to my mind my heart tells me I should not be here today, standing before you, with long tears on my face I should thank you for the love and strength you gave me and for your everlasting words: "Follow your heart to no matter where you may go!" I could not let myself go, I could not let the storm take me away I could not let my heart go, the choices I made, I was nearly swept away please understand the things I did, I felt I did it out of a lie for many long months, I knew on

i remember you

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i remember you

:: i remember you :: I remember my best friend. I remember the time the friendship started. I remember we met in a such short time, Long enough to become the best of friends. A bond created so powerful, indestructible. I remember the moments we had in those days. Of all the cloudy days, you led me through. I remember you saving me From drowning in a sea of sadness. I remember the way you looked at life, You are the shiny star in my midnight sky. I remember how you smile and laugh. I remember the way you cry, It sweetens the memory so... The times we shared, cheery laughter, The precious emotions... It is an unbreakable song,

smile

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smile

   :: smile ::   Shimmering smile...  I see your face each day...   Seems that you unlatch me...  From the mires of everyday life...   Only to give me a sense...  Of serenity and peace...   I look up to see the sky, so blue...  Within my heart, there rings a song...   It rips through my soul...  Light is my body,   Arching wings of glorious white!  I soar through the clouds...   And to the smiling star  That breaks an early dawn...   Which reminds me of you...  Then the feeling last,   Until sunset, is when you said  Goodbye...      - philip © 2001

smile again

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smile again

   :: smile again ::   A friendly smile...  It's what you bring each day...   When things seem to go wrong...  All I need is to look at your face...   Only to give me a sense...  Of tranquility and peace...   I could not take my eyes off of you...  Within my soul, there rings a song...   It tears through my heart...  It is very strange,   I dreamt you were an angel!  Soaring through the clouds...   And to the shining star  That breaks into morning...   Which reminds me of you...  Let the feeling last,   Please, I beg you, do not bid me  Goodbye...      - philip © 2001

the morning s glory

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the morning s glory

:: the morning's glory :: The moon Fading softly In the sunrise. Its crest, fragile. White, wispy clouds Like lace Stretched across The sky. The Wish To fly, Fly away to Touch the clouds, To get a closer look Of the moon, White, soft against The daylight sky. To feel free, See the vast Lands of trees, Lakes of water, Lovely mountainsides, Flocks of animals, Soft to the touch. The morning star Glowing warmly In the horizon, Life-giving light Feeding all of us, Living things on Planet Earth. Thus, begins A fresh, new Day........ - philip © 2001

at the gate

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at the gate

:: at the gate :: At the gate, there I stand! Tearful eyes looking back... Hard times, a beaten path... It stretched out Far than the eye could see! A trying eternal trip, A journey called Life! Dark and forbidden ways Obscured my path, Easy detours to go astray! Achieving each step Painstakingly each day!!! Just to reach the goal At the gate, there I stand! Many temptations, They falter my strengths, But I stand strong, Taking the beatings Like a mountain In a thunderstorm! Knowing the right, Choosing the right, Trying to live the right way! Trials endured, always to survive, Traveling long and hard... Now, I have r

forevermore

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forevermore

:: forevermore :: I look to my time, My experiences... I look up to the sky, My face warm from the sun... I look back and see only pain, My back feeling the hellish fire... I look away to hide my tears, My heart beats and cries out... I look around the world, My own place... I look at ugly images, My head throbs from the thoughts... I look at myself, My soul so muddy... I look forward, My eyes see the light!!!      Oh.. Oh.. Oh.. I look at the brilliance, My frown turning into a smile... I look forward, My arms outstretched... I look at its never-ending rays, My soul soon follows...      Oh.. Oh.. Oh.. Forevermore..

Crazy In Another Dimension

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Crazy In Another Dimension

:: Crazy In Another Dimension :: It's a crazy one! Crazy world, crazy world, Things out of its place! What did we have And what did we get? Lots of tan fruits And magenta pets. I laid down In sunlight's brown, Counting clouds, They're tangerine, Floating by. The sky's green. It began to rain. The yellow hail Starts to fall, Melting into water; Of course, it's yellow, But I am mellow. My black fingernails, Pink eyes, purple hair And knowing this, It's a crazy one! Crazy world, crazy world, Things out of its place! The world isn't dead. Scratching my skin, It's really orange. My blue mouth Grinning wide And showin

moon

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moon

:: moon :: delicate moon growing upon the hill the night is beginning - philip © 2001

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:: ruthless ::

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:: ruthless ::

:: ruthless :: bleary and bleak, the cloudy skies harsh, a crisp, wintry morning, I lay down the roses for you, deep, abruptly red, moist in dew, as you lay cold within the earth I am standing over you, dry eyes void of the soul you used to be buried memories emerge behind me reconciling the past mistakes based on the love we had, gone all that is left of you now, empty swirling and fading away, away and now, on that cold, bleak morning turning and walking over dreams whispering by in the gentle breeze hard, brown leaves dancing slowly swirling, reflecting the choices we made somehow, someway, for some reason all the mistak
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