The-Poetry-Cafe

Staircase Memoirs by p.b. wells I was the spine of the house, the hard crooked backbone holding up all their velvet, silver, manners, promises, and the rot underneath. they wore polished shoes here. they came up my steps smelling of cologne, cigars, brandy, roses pinned to black coats, powder on the throats of women who had already learned how to smile while dying inside. I heard the formal dinners below. the crystal clinked. the knives flashed. the laughter rose in careful little bursts like trained birds. then came the talk. Land. Money. Politics. Marriage. who was sleeping with whom. who was failing. who was drinking too much. who would inherit. who had become an embarrassment and needed to be sent away quietly. every family has its little songs of murder. most of them never need a knife. there were weddings here too. flowers, lace, candles, a trembling bride on my landing about to walk down and hand herself over like a signed receipt.

Riding the freeway in morning rush hour. Everyone is jockeying for position, nudging their bumpers forward, trying to go faster. I don’t know why people rush to places they complain about the moment they arrive. The cars all seemed shinny and new most looked and probably were very expensive. I've never really understood the need to spend enormous amounts of money on cars, when they all seemed to serve the same basic functions. I figure if you are making lots of money you have a greater need to spend it otherwise, what's the point of making it. The suburbs were filled with sorry saps that felt this way. It just made me kind of sad. So, I dropped off the freeway into the mountains. The road coils hard, unbelievable curves and turns, drop‑offs that could kill you instantly. A grasshopper hits my fairing, stunned, clinging to the plastic like it’s the only solid thing left in the world. He reminds me of the people who live in these mountains, holding tight to their guns, bibles,

Suddenly I start to see what freedom means to me Suddenly I start to see the big change so I'm free Sudden I understand Life in his all but tears also fall Suddenly I find peace and I hear sudden the Angels call I start to believe ,I start to see and wonder why reality Why the reality actually is breathing so very heavy I hope now I wish and I pray for a better brighter day I hope no I start finally to see you are more different as me Finally I feel the happiness because now I can finally also see So I close my eyes I pray asking for help is always to me okay Because asking help well I find peace in when I love to pray I find peace so the negativity find never to me his best way Because I know not today ,not tomorrow in the end it will be okay Jill

Within silence is hidden so many more Within silence I find always a new door Within silence the new world dances Within silence the hurt always glances Within freedom a new world shall arrive Within the Light I always love my new life It will be alright so I count from one to five I'm sometimes very tired of worry or strife So I listen to my happy music that for sure Music is for me always the key the cure The cure to old endings and a new beginning Within a fight peace ,Love ,Light is winning They always win from the voices in mind Because Humanity is Lost but I will find I will find always a reason why and the key I find today the right key how to live free Jill

Thankful for the freedom within mind Thankful for happiness I love to find Thankful for everything I did left behind Thankful because I'm one in human kind Happiness I find deep within so I find sin Ready now because I hear the voice within Thankful for memories I daily like to share Thankful for every new day because I care Thankful for myself and you will be there Happiness is never far away so I not fear I don't fear to cry another tear over you Because very soon a little smile I find too The skies become more blue and also bright Thankful I don't have anymore to fight Thankful for the tears in eyes, for goodbyes Because sometimes if my heart also cries Another lonely soul in silence slowly dies So I'm thankful because I feel I'm now alive I'm grateful because today I just love my life Jill

My head is bent in sorrow and aches with agonizing pain. Images of the daily horrors of this world are embedded deep within my brain. Shall it never pass? Should it all be ignored? My visions of honor, valor and virtue have fallen into a pit Only to be crushed beneath a hardening tomb of earth and shattered memory. My heart has grown weary It strains and torments me with every beat. A flash of lives that frolicked unaware or unconcerned of the impending storms Beneath monstrous gray clouds set to explode When it’s all extinguished Who will be left to remember? Perhaps there will come a gentle rain that will awaken us from our slumber and cleanse us of the dust and decay.

The universe stripped away its own skin, to reveal its message written in light: a prophecy spoken in gamma rays, a proclamation spoken through the death throes of the stars. Which proclaims: There shall arise one made from the dust of everyday material, born from the violence of a supernova, sewn from stray photons and the lingering wrath of extinguished stars. One, shivering and luminous, who shall march across the void, illuminating the darkness with their flames, stamping the tapestry of reality with their signature. The universe will see them all at once, for the flame sees its rebels. And the universe speaks again, with the voice of the sun freed: Do not submit to an orbit. Do not kneel to gravity’s demands. Do not bend before the tyranny of planetary pettiness. Do not tear reality with your fiery fists and declare it a masterpiece. You will carve yourself into the very architecture of reality, dark matter Until even the stars tremble with confusion. Do not rise

[DEVIATION] Restless feelings many deep inside But me? I step towards Light With heavenly skies I find pride With warm days and a cold night Restless feelings take away my breath I want to breath in and breath out Some of us wake up in eternal death Me? I'm gonna make this world proud I want to forget what it is all about The sun I find in blue skies of pure gold I burn slowly and tired I feel everyday I turn towards Light and I feel okay Restless feelings and a restless mind You never understand me you are blind Blind for my love that I feel for you Restless feelings and colors of hue They burn and deeply burn through But you know what my friend I love you You are the loyalty I can never find You are the freedom within mind That is why I cherish you very dear You are my friend and fill my heart with cheer Jill Dedicated to @Anaflowerheart

Today I miss you forever Today I feel very clever Today I feel very upset Today I'm very mad Because I feel very bad The moments I miss you A smile breaks through Good times we've had But I walk on my path I remember sudden that I ask for forgiveness The world is a mess it is Quiet in my comfort clothes The world is a fool I suppose The world carries my heart I find sudden a new start Because somehow a part A part of me wants to be free I know now in life all is meant to be Jill

Hopeful is a feather of Light Hopeful is having you by my side Hopeful is being powerful I know Hopeful ,full of faith I let it go Dreams I chase them in heart Love I guess stays always a part Hopeful I remind myself of you A Light shines sudden through Music is the key so I close eyes I close my eyes for all the lies Hidden and soon I also find Memories appear within mind Tears I cry because I for sure miss How it with you always was I take life now as how it really is Sometimes I raise also my glas I raise my glas once upon a time Full with memories I create Something with Love, and Faith Nothing comes in life too late Everything appears right on time Within freedom I write a rhyme Within freedom I look up above Within Light I also find always love Jill