I don't usually vent but FUCK i try so damn hard to be nice to people and work on my art but there is someone else that my art looks a lot like and i wish it didn't so much I draw upwards of 20 sketches a day just trying to develop something new and it always comes out the same and people are just so damn mean about it that it makes me want to give up drawing,, and i feel so awful that i try to do nice things to try to cheer people up like hold raffles for the people who support me and then people will stick around and talk to me during the duration of the raffle and then block me as soon as they don't win and it's just like. What the hell. I am so damn tired of trying to work on my own stuff when it will never be original enough because no matter if I do 20, 50, 100 drawings a day my style doesn't fucking change, and no amount of events make me feel any better because people take advantage of me. I just want to do something that I feel proud of. I am so damn tired.