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Just Keep Breathing
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only pretty when you cry

o

only pretty when you cry

wouldn't it be nice if i weren't most beautiful with bright, tear-stained eyes

hurt me

h

hurt me

hurt me stronger hurt me faster i dare you to rip open my wounds

he's taken you

h

he's taken you

he's taken you from our secret place, and you don't even seem to care.

hold me down

h

hold me down

hold me back, hold me down. i'm drowning in a sea of muddled regrets.

dying light

d

dying light

sometimes i want to bid farewell to all the pain. my heart is heavy with the grief of things-- the past, too remembered and black with dying light.

Heartbeat

H

Heartbeat

The hollow drumbeats echo against the walls, beating beside my heart, swallowing me whole. I can’t move; I can’t breathe; my hands are frozen against my sides. The stillness chokes me until my silence is finally achieved. I think this is it. I think I’ll die here. I think the last thing I’ll ever see is the chipped painting on the ceiling, pushing its weight on down on me from above. It’s not until many hours later, hovering there in the dark, that I realize the one doing the choking is me.

Uncertain Sunlight

U

Uncertain Sunlight

i. i am not one for poetry. bathe yourself in ambiguity. ii. vague is my forte. i’m sorry if you can’t see through these careful poems. iii. i use concise words to narrow the crack in the window of my soul. iv. i do not want you to see through my defenses. they’re there for a reason. v. i have a record of loving too deeply for my own well-being. vi. now, dear audience, please don’t mind me as i turn away from you now. vii. there is something i feel bursting from me just for the long friend i loved: viii. all i wanted was to keep you safe from monsters. can’t you forgive me? ix. don’t hold my hand

mutilation

m

mutilation

there is something in me that needs to be let out i feel it beating against my chest pounding against my ribs warring in my belly to be unleashed at last. some deep hatred hides right beneath my skin, begging to be let free in a violent fit against the self. my hands are not artist’s tools or the writer’s pen. they are war machines knives and guns and daggers and cannons and razors and a soldier’s bitter agony; they are the bomb and my heart is the detonator, counting backwards down to one—down to that moment when all of this—air, earth, breath, life—explodes, blown to pieces, into nothingness. watch

let's be honest here for a second.

l

let's be honest here for a second.

let’s be honest here for a second. you say you miss me but you walk out the door as soon as you come home you know he’s there, out there, waiting for you to come back and we both know you’d rather be with him than with me. it’s okay to tell the truth. it hurts a lot less than the lies. maybe i shouldn’t care, but— i live with you here & you’re the only one who knows the truth about who I am the only one in my future who knows about my past. please don’t say you miss me when you might want to stop feeling guilty about leaving me alone again to spend time with him. i don’t blame you maybe

cieleta

c

cieleta

two years. two years since i last heard your voice. two years since you last said my name. two years since your last raspy laugh. two years since your blonde hair glinted in the sun. two years since you smiled at me. two years since. two years. i don't know why. i don't know why you took the pills or bled away through open arms or fell asleep hanging from the sky or pulled the trigger against a golden halo. i will never know. & i will never forgive myself for letting your suicide save my life. i woke up screaming & i went to bed screaming & i went to school screaming & i face every day screaming but my screams begin to sound like yours and
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only pretty when you cry

o

only pretty when you cry

wouldn't it be nice if i weren't most beautiful with bright, tear-stained eyes

hurt me

h

hurt me

hurt me stronger hurt me faster i dare you to rip open my wounds

he's taken you

h

he's taken you

he's taken you from our secret place, and you don't even seem to care.

hold me down

h

hold me down

hold me back, hold me down. i'm drowning in a sea of muddled regrets.

dying light

d

dying light

sometimes i want to bid farewell to all the pain. my heart is heavy with the grief of things-- the past, too remembered and black with dying light.

Heartbeat

H

Heartbeat

The hollow drumbeats echo against the walls, beating beside my heart, swallowing me whole. I can’t move; I can’t breathe; my hands are frozen against my sides. The stillness chokes me until my silence is finally achieved. I think this is it. I think I’ll die here. I think the last thing I’ll ever see is the chipped painting on the ceiling, pushing its weight on down on me from above. It’s not until many hours later, hovering there in the dark, that I realize the one doing the choking is me.

Uncertain Sunlight

U

Uncertain Sunlight

i. i am not one for poetry. bathe yourself in ambiguity. ii. vague is my forte. i’m sorry if you can’t see through these careful poems. iii. i use concise words to narrow the crack in the window of my soul. iv. i do not want you to see through my defenses. they’re there for a reason. v. i have a record of loving too deeply for my own well-being. vi. now, dear audience, please don’t mind me as i turn away from you now. vii. there is something i feel bursting from me just for the long friend i loved: viii. all i wanted was to keep you safe from monsters. can’t you forgive me? ix. don’t hold my hand

mutilation

m

mutilation

there is something in me that needs to be let out i feel it beating against my chest pounding against my ribs warring in my belly to be unleashed at last. some deep hatred hides right beneath my skin, begging to be let free in a violent fit against the self. my hands are not artist’s tools or the writer’s pen. they are war machines knives and guns and daggers and cannons and razors and a soldier’s bitter agony; they are the bomb and my heart is the detonator, counting backwards down to one—down to that moment when all of this—air, earth, breath, life—explodes, blown to pieces, into nothingness. watch

let's be honest here for a second.

l

let's be honest here for a second.

let’s be honest here for a second. you say you miss me but you walk out the door as soon as you come home you know he’s there, out there, waiting for you to come back and we both know you’d rather be with him than with me. it’s okay to tell the truth. it hurts a lot less than the lies. maybe i shouldn’t care, but— i live with you here & you’re the only one who knows the truth about who I am the only one in my future who knows about my past. please don’t say you miss me when you might want to stop feeling guilty about leaving me alone again to spend time with him. i don’t blame you maybe

cieleta

c

cieleta

two years. two years since i last heard your voice. two years since you last said my name. two years since your last raspy laugh. two years since your blonde hair glinted in the sun. two years since you smiled at me. two years since. two years. i don't know why. i don't know why you took the pills or bled away through open arms or fell asleep hanging from the sky or pulled the trigger against a golden halo. i will never know. & i will never forgive myself for letting your suicide save my life. i woke up screaming & i went to bed screaming & i went to school screaming & i face every day screaming but my screams begin to sound like yours and

Anri and Horace

Goodbye

BaTMaNT

Anxiety

Homesick

Leslie Withers: You'll... protect me?

Flowered ice-cream

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dying light

d

dying light

sometimes i want to bid farewell to all the pain. my heart is heavy with the grief of things-- the past, too remembered and black with dying light.
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My Bio
My name is Thalia.
I live in Oregon.
I love video editing, photo manipulation, graphic design, reading, writing reviews, and writing. :heart:
I'm twenty-one years old.
Just keep breathing.

Current Residence: Oregon
Favourite genre of music: Gothic punk; rock
Favourite photographer: suicidebee
Favourite style of art: Photography; digial art
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Zune
Wallpaper of choice: Dana
Personal Quote: "Just keep breathing."

Favourite Visual Artist
yummei; phatpuppy
Favourite Movies
Phantom of the Opera; The Raven; The Lord of the Rings
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Yellowcard
Favourite Writers
Cassandra Clare; Edgar Allan Poe
Favourite Games
Final Fantasy X; Ico
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS2; PS3
Tools of the Trade
Pencil; colored pencils; Photoshop Elements 8
Other Interests
Video editing; photo editing; writing

ThirteenWords

ThirteenWords

(I don't think anyone will comment on this, but I love this idea. <3 Plus, I couldn't miss out on using this lovely Vanille skin!)   (Oh, and happy birthday deviantart! Anyone feel like continuing the story with me?) "The hollow drumbeats echo against the walls, beating beside my heart, swallowing me whole."

Hello!

Hello!

I haven't written here in quite awhile, so I just wanted to check in! I really want to get back into writing--I've been following more people here who are writers and poets, and since my creative writing class ended (and I did more editing than writing), I want an excuse to work with words again. I love the feel of creating something, so I hope someone becomes of my aspirations here. Anyway, that's all! Hopefully you'll see more of me soon. <3

Boston

Boston

April is kind of a crazy month. I won't really be on dA at all until...probably after I graduate. BUT, I wanted to stop by and tell all my watchers/friends in Boston that I love you & I hope you're safe. I saw a video that a man took as the first two explosions happened, and I immediately started to cry. I can't even imagine. I hope you guys are alright, and I'm praying for everyone there. It's...it's horrifying. It's one thing to hear about it, and another one entirely to see it happen. Stay at home, and DO NOT go out. I don't have very many details, but I know that everyone is supposed to stay inside and DO NOT congregate with other group

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