I take two Advil PMs for my headache. I could take them all and end this, but I take two. The sneers and dirty looks of today flash into my mind and I have to force myself to set the pill bottle down. What were my parents thinking? Sending me to a catholic school was the biggest mistake they could’ve made. There isn’t a Gay Straight Alliance here because it’s against the rules to be homosexual. No, they don’t have a rule in the student handbook that says “Being Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual or Transgender will resort in expulsion” but they might as well. The teachers don’t call on me when I raise my hand.
My thoughts wandered back into my fourth grade mind frame.
She had beautiful blonde hair and blue eyes,
And a perfectly white smile that reflected the sunlight like a mirror.
She was a good teacher, mmmhmmm, good to look at,
And I even knew it back then,
Before I knew I was a lesbian.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
Ranbows are red, orange, yellow, green, blue, and purple,
And so am I!
My thoughts wandered back into memories of Sam, my first girlfriend.
She was shorter than I was, with wavy black curls,
And with hazel eyes that seemed so enchanting,
And she had beautiful pale white skin, mmmhmmm, lovely girl,
And I knew it