okay so as you guys can tell i havent been on a lot recently
i'm going to be honest --
i just dont find the motivation anymore, i loved art it was the biggest part of my life but now it just feels like a chore due to college- i dont want something thats such a big part of my life to become something that i look at with boredom or even hatred. so im not going to pursue a further career in art to work under companies. i want to work for myself where i will be happy.
that aside, i am still going to draw but not by my colleges standards.
furthermore, i am also very depressed which i do take medicine for and have been diagnosed - i still have problems with me but they're still diagnosing me hahah im just a fucking wreck tbh
my 18th birthday is coming up next month and i am not looking forward to it at all like i should be
honestly i just want to lay and stay in bed for days
i actually went to the hospital the other day because they were worried i was going to kms hah.
anyway end of rant i guess?? i dont know what else to say otherwise ill go on for days complaining like a mopey little fuck that i am hah.