Hi there! I've been on and off line here on DA. I thought I took a moment to do an update on my journal. Recently, I'm in the middle
part of my second chapter of my graphic novel. Or actually still somewhere in the beginning to be honest. But I'm making some bit
of progress, though a very slow one.
Lately, that question about me still being single got brought up again from time to time, and folks in real life had been really wondering about me, as to when I'll
ever find a girlfriend. It went as far as one of the female friends, wanting to "school" me about intimacy, because often times, the innuendo joke at work would go
over my head and I'd had to ask what certain adult terms actually meant. XD Yeah, it's a sad truth about me. I have sort of an innocent mind, and a funny example was
how after hearing about the word "missionary", I was like, "Oh wow! I'll be sure to pray for you. Working on foreign land is challenging. You might need to learn other language
and stuff." And...I had no idea that the girl was talking about a sex position, since I'm not familiar with names in that content I know of some terms though. But one
day, I'll have to look it all up just to be sure I understand them correctly. XD
And um..."eating out" was another word that had nothing to do with hanging out and eating at some food spot as I genuinely thought. Of course my face was bright as tomato the entire
day, and the girls would giggle remembering my naive conversation. So one of them explained to me about some things on women's parts and stuff, and wow...
so that was pretty much the highlight of the week. It was educational. XD
Anyway, I'm still sticking to my personal resolution to focus on my self improvement and my creative projects. As much as I would love to find someone special, the prospect of it, seems nearly
impossible anytime soon. I've been told several times that I need to really venture out. But to be honest, I have no clue where to go, since I haven't hung out in like forever. I've gone out frequently, sure enough,
but often times it's in things that I had to do. Making ends meet, and my epiphanies where I run out to improvise and carry out tactics so that situations can work better to my advantage. It was all I know. So yeah, I'm a nerd in tactics to some extent. Just not when it comes to romance.
Is romance something I should even be ready for, or is that something that just happens when I find the one I wish to be with? I've done some research from time to time, some information are more consistent than others, but I still feel like I don't really understand it. Maybe I'm looking too hard into all of this. And then there's the stories I've read about in online, long distance relationship, and even here on DA, couples have met online, and eventually got together and even married. That's incredibly cool and all. But again, I have no idea how that came to be, or how that's even possible. For me, I generally enjoy my friendship with everyone here online, and while I have express my cares and concerns for people on a personal level, it had always been from one passionate artist to another. I genuinely enjoy connecting with people.
And there have been times when I wish, hanging out in real life would have been possible. Many of the things that had been shared with me, I wish I was present in real life to help in any way that I could. I mean after all, it's what I do.
Speaking of which, I've been enjoying watching that anime, "My Hero Academia". Awesome anime.
Totally within my zone. Hehe. never a dull moment I always say.
Gooo Ultra!! XD
Catch everyone later.
...I don't know if I should even post this. I thought about deleting this post several times, cause, typing about this has me blushing now.
I'm a little embarrassed that I'm learning these terms all late now. I mean, I'm not exactly prudish, since I am capable of having a wild imagination
for things. As a person with mental issues like short term memory, I focus allot in my self improvement, and so I research allot on how I can overcome
my shortcomings to this day. And all things considered, I did pretty well. I managed to have a really good job and be able to keep it for a year already.
That's an achievement for me personally, which I am quite proud of. I just don't have much of a luxury, in whatever seems to come naturally for most people.
My online interaction here on DA,as a writer among other things I do, are coping mechanisms that helps me to better myself, which has gotten me very far.
So I may be late in allot of things in the social aspect of the world, but it's never too late for me to learn now. I just have to work a littler harder to catch up.
But hey, I'm getting there. They say, "geniuses have a unique perspective on life" Maybe I am one, only God knows, but I'm just a humble artist striving to
be the better version of myself. I still have a long ways to go.