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Journal Entry: Mon Mar 21, 2011, 1:21 AM
Natures two faces
and blooming sakura

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Life level up - lvl 26

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 18, 2010, 12:49 PM
  • Listening to: Perfume
  • Reading: HHG2G & Pathfinder
  • Watching: Perfume Music Video
  • Playing: Fallout 3
  • Eating: Baked Potatoes
  • Drinking: Tea
So last Saturday was my birthday which I didn't celebrate particularly - guess I'm just that old. ;) The only thing I stick to on my birthday is to eat Sacher cake which is probably one of the most chocolaty chocolate cakes ever invented and I offer a tribute to the late Franz Sacher for his ingenuity. Of course my wife knows my modest perversions and we spent a nice afternoon with my parents eating Sacher cake.

Though I'm not so much into highlighting my birthday I guess it's an opportunity for reflection of the year that has passed. And, of course, to look forward - to the next level. This was a concept presented to me by a quick remark made by one of my friends. Six of us have run a D&D campaign weekly since the middle of July, so our conversations are often bent towards RPG jargon. He said "Level up! Do you get any new feature? or is it skill points for this level? =)".

It struck me that the rpg way might be an better way to measure up your achievements. I suppose looking at yourself from a 3d person's view would give a more objective angle. Divide whatever you did last year into appropriate categories and fill out your character sheet. What skills did you learn? Any features? Titles? The most exciting (?) - new gear? Or perhaps even a change of alignment? Video games and rpg are simplifications of real life and a way for us to relax in worlds where the rules are predetermined and choices are simpler. But maybe we can bring some of those things back to learn about ourselves...
Some of my own hopes for next year this level is to get my MSc title, +1 Perform: Sword Art and perhaps a new sword. What are yours?

Live Long and Prosper

Next up I'll write a feature on the incredible music videos of the japanese electropop group Perfume (Pafuumu).

Kamakura deno toumin

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 17, 2010, 10:08 AM
  • Listening to: Jorn Lande - Rock'n Roll Angel
  • Reading: Miyuki Miyabe - The sleeping dragon
  • Watching: Romeo must die
  • Drinking: Hot Cocoa
So I'm just back from three weeks of well needed vacation in Japan. The title of this journal means "Kamakura hibernation" and it was the theme of my wife's and my trip. Basically three weeks of taking it easy in the ancient capital (1192-1333) of Kamakura south of Tokyo, at the pacific coast. We spent much time visiting the many temples, shrines and gardens of the town and I hope to post some of the nice photos I took in the coming weeks.

Back home I feel filled with new energy for my work where I continue to finish my thesis work in nanotechnology. I also have a new sword which I got just before I left for Japan and I didn't get to try it out until today. I had a great feeling about this sword when I tested it the first time in november last year and it still feels excellent after the training today - it's just my own form which is rusty and slow =P

I'm also going to take an evening course in Japanese - after each visit I feel more strongly that I want to be able to talk properly with my family in Japan, hopefully this can be the first step towards that goal.

I think there will be lots of things going on for me in 2010, there will be plenty of changes and hopefully lots of opportunities. I have great expectations for the year of the Tiger.

Me at Hachimangu in Kamakura

Live long and prosper

Back to the Feature III

Journal Entry: Fri Aug 21, 2009, 1:40 AM
  • Listening to: Twisted Sisters - Hot Love
  • Reading: Analysis of variables in one dimension
  • Watching: Discovery's Fight science
  • Playing: Step Mania
  • Drinking: Black Tea
Taken from AmrothDin...

1) For each of the 9 first people answering this journal I will put his/her avatar and the three deviations I like from his/her/its gallery on the list.

2) If you answer, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing this way the list with 10 people.The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone.

And because I stole this from his journal, the first place goes toooo...

1. :iconamrothdin: A fellow swede (visst är jag originell, AmrothDin) and the author his own warhammer comics. Check out his crazy wh40k galore gallery.… - We're all awaiting the arrival of the true kin.… - Because I'm a donor (for the blood god!)… - Because scrolling is fun :P Great comedy doesn't take much. Also check out the band Eels and their Novocaine for the soul (yes, the music is somewhat weird, genre undefinable).

2. :iconimhappyplz: Open

3. :iconimhappyplz: Open

4. :iconimhappyplz: Open

5. :iconimhappyplz: Open

6. :iconimhappyplz: Open

7. :iconimhappyplz: Open

8. :iconimhappyplz: Open

9. :iconimhappyplz: Open

10. :iconimhappyplz: Open

Live long and Prosper

New Icon

Journal Entry: Fri Jan 23, 2009, 2:06 AM
  • Listening to: Sir John & Bablon - Stardust
  • Reading: Snow falling on the cedars
  • Watching: The forbidden kingdom
  • Playing: Step Mania
  • Drinking: Tea
Finally I got around to do this and, in the end, it didn't take more than half an hour. My new avatar is a stamp I had made with the Japanese (Chinese) characters for my last name which in English means Oakstar. In Japanese it becomes kashiboshi which of course sounds hilarious =)

As I just got married I'm going to change my name to Tojo but I figured it'd be nice to preserve my old name in the icon. This type of stamp is also used for signing important papers, but as I now have a new one I figured it's safe to have it here ;). Admittedly those really used for signing are usually somewhat more intricate in detail and also inverted in colour because those are more difficult to do and thereby more difficult to copy.

My stamp

If you are interested in having one made you can surf to I bought mine from them directly in Japan so I'm not sure how they ship internationally.

Live long and prosper

Autumn Noir

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 4, 2008, 9:59 AM
  • Listening to: Blackmore's Night
  • Reading: Transmission Electron Microscopy
  • Watching: Sin City
  • Playing: Max Payne
  • Drinking: Spiced wine
The first steps of Autumn are already taken on the journey towards the darkness of winter. In the fiery glory of autumn me and my lovely japanese wife got married. Within the world of seasons the beauty of fall is perhaps the most fragile, though, and soon the red and orange must give way to grey and black.

In the wake of All Hallows Eve our land has seen naught but rain. Today we've been sprayed with fine rain and the yellowish glow of the streetlights give the evening that film noir feeling. It is a mood I like.

It was one of those nights...
When the darkness creeps in way too quickly,
preluding the incoming storm.
The rain...
hammering down like a colt .45
hammering a pimp in a back alley

It was one of those evenings
when you know you should've stayed at home.
Realising only after the doors shut behind you,
the Mistake...

Don't get too gloomy out there. The autumn is there to drink spiced wine in candle light and make love while the rain drums the windows.

Live long and prosper


Journal Entry: Thu Apr 24, 2008, 7:34 AM
  • Listening to: Andy McKee
  • Reading: Mechanics in reality
  • Watching: Pom Pocco - Hayao Miyazaki
  • Playing: GTA SA
  • Drinking: Blue berry soup
Can't believe it's been exactly a year since my last entry. I guess my last journal was just to good to take away.

Just a week ago I switched operating system from MS (as in MiSerable) windows to Fedora (Linux). It's a change I would recommend anyone with some curiosity and a bit of willingness to learn. What I felt was that in windows I was constantly trying to do things that the system wouldn't allow me. It became a constant matter of working against my computer instead of with it. My first action was to change all my software to free programs which did indeed improve both performance as well as my mental state. If anyone is interested in alternative software I'm happy to help you find it.

In the end I felt that this wasn't enough and the idea of using Linux became increasingly stronger. After a long period of research and the difficult process of choosing what version of Linux to use for the first time a victor finally emerged. My choice was Fedora 8 xfce.


Not saying that everything works automatically in Linux. But if there's a problem it's because I haven't done anything to solve it, not because of the quirks of the OS. I'm very happy with the transition and looking forward to Fedora 9 that is to be released on the 13th of may.

On other notices I have two musicians I would really recommend. The first one I found about half a year ago and I just ordered two of his CD:s from Candyrat records. His name is Andy McKee and his skills lies in the acoustic guitar. You can really see his how he loves music when he's playing. Take a look at Andy McKee at YouTube. Also make sure to check out his song Drifting as well.

Second is the YouTube phenomenon and musical genius Ronald Jenkees. He's slightly wierd but he does know the true values of life and music. See his latest (and best) video at YouTube

Well, that 's enough for today
Live long and prosper

That Deco Feeling

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 13, 2007, 3:13 AM
  • Listening to: Soul Calibur OST
  • Reading: Thermodynamics and Electronic materials
  • Watching: K1 Japan
  • Eating: Muffins
  • Drinking: Water
Today I got a letter from Hollywood! =)
Not that I'm a big fan of hollywood (as in hollywood movies) but it's still cool to get real letters from distant places. As all other western people, totally isolated from nature and our primeval instincts, my first reaction to finding something exciting was to take a picture of it. And this is what it looked like...

Letter from hollywood

The inside was of course what really made my happy like this.


It was my new Deco t-shirt from deviantWEAR series 7 and it feels great I tell you. Fortunately S was the size for me and it fits perfectly. The question is - Am I still too sexy for my shirt?

Too sexy for my shirt?

I'd like to think so ;)
Live long and prosper

Deviant series 7 is here

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 24, 2007, 4:40 AM
  • Listening to: Edguy
  • Reading: Oscar Ratti - Secrets of the Samurai
  • Watching: Miyazaki's Whispers of the Heart
  • Playing: Step Mania
  • Eating: Pizza
  • Drinking: Tea
I bought the Cranberry t-shirt from Deviant wear series 6 which is now one of my favourite clothes.

My Cranberry t-shirt!

And today series 7 has been released - Yatta! They look good and I'll definitely purchase one or two... or three of them. For limited edition wear they're real cheap, at least they're not more expensive than buying designer t-shirts in stores here in Sweden. My only problem is size. The M size matches my chest, but the S matches my waist (yeah - it sucks having a nice body :P). I can hear you saying - "Why don't you just check the t-shirt you already bought, dumbass?". Unfortunately I left that in my fiancé's (how the hell do you spell that?) apartement, though I guess I'll go there to be sure I get the right size. I just hope they won't run out of stock until I have the chance to order.

Otherwise I divide my time between my fiancé (that word again...) though she's in Hungary right now, my studies (Automatic control engineering & Material science) and reading Mega Tokyo. Everyone should read Mega Tokyo. Ph34r M7! ->

I'm not wearing any pants...
Live Long and Prosper

Happy but ill

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 19, 2007, 7:30 AM
  • Listening to: Southern Allstars - Love Potion #9
  • Reading: Katharine Kerr - Days of blood and fire
  • Playing: Step Mania
  • Eating: Sushi
Life's a bit hectic at the moment and I've got a cold. But otherwise everything is just peachy. =)

Japan was great, it's a hard living when you have to eat incredible food, bathe in hot springs and meet nice people. ;) Most of the time we spent in Tokyo, but we managed to take a three day tour to Kamakura, south of the capital. Kamakura is where the first shogunate was set up in 1192. It was a warriors rule which was quite evident in the architecture of the place, it was very beautiful there none the less. We also went to Hakone and it's hot springs for a few days with my parents-in-law. I'll make sure to post some more photos from there soon.

Otherwise I'm continueing my studies in nanotechnology. Electronic materials and fouriertransforms this semester of which I find the latter to be a rather exciting subject - who'd have suspected? :P I'm very glad each new subject seems to be more fun than the last one. I'll take my own advice and...

Live long and prosper

Next stop - Japan

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 13, 2006, 7:55 AM
  • Listening to: Monkey Island 3 OST
  • Reading: Taisen Deshimaru - Zen & the Martial arts
  • Playing: Monkey Island 4
All exams are done and passed. My brain has officially shut down now and gone on vacation, just as I will go to Japan in one week. It's going to be so nice to relax and get away from the university. I guess it'll feel somewhat awkward to celebrate christmas and new year away from home, though I can't say I feel too sorry for it. After christmas we're going to Kamakura, the old shogunate city, and the new year we spend at a ryokan outside of Tokyo - it's going to be wonderful.

I hope to get some art stuff done before I go, but we'll see. At the moment I'm very content just being at home reading my books.

This new CSS-Journal is made by the great deviant mynti and modified a bit by me.

Live long and Prosper

Random thoughts and CSS

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 3, 2006, 7:26 AM
  • Listening to: Dublin Fair - Summer Hill
  • Reading: The tale of Genji
  • Watching: James Clavell's Shogun
  • Playing: Step Mania
Yay! CSS Journal. =)
I'm currently trying out this feature. This particular template is made by the talented mynti, yet I hope to create my own soon. I just have to deside on a good design. Something japanese I think... hmm...

My girlfriend is finally back after one month in Argentina so heaven is content again. It's an incredible support to have her here. The next trip will be together - to Japan! =) A promise of light in the darkness of December, I really look forward to it.

And remember:

Life is a pearl in the cosmic mussle of the universe

Live long and prosper

500+ and Waiting

Sun Oct 22, 2006, 1:47 AM
  • Listening to: Idlejamm - Black Cherries
  • Reading: Katherine Kerr - Firedragon

Still walking in the valley of waiting, but at least now there's a light at the end of the tunnel. My girlfriend is coming home on thursday after almost four weeks in Argentina . Until then life it's just a matter of passing time... (sigh)

Well, I'm very happy about the increasing number of pageviews. I should celebrate by doing some new deviation...

Oh, everyone have to visit :iconsmashmethod: and listen to his new Idlejamm album - A Jarful of Goodies (…)

Live long and prosper

  • Listening to: Eels - Railroad man
  • Reading: Katherine Kerr - Days of Blood and Fire
My best friend called me yesterday and asked: "what's up?" and truthfully I had to respond: "I'm overloaded with studies, my girlfriend is in Argentina for three weeks and it's raining... but appart from that everything is great...". Well I don't that bad really, but I miss my gf and long for a somewhat calmer week.

I haven't had time to work much on any art appart for some logowork to my forum and some smaller things which is a bit depressing. Oh well, seven times down and eight times up is the art of living and at least the autumn is here.

Thoughts of the lonesome

Thu Sep 14, 2006, 1:54 PM
My girlfriend has now been in Japan for a week now and I feel a bit lonely even though I know she's coming back on Sunday. This is from a letter I wrote to her:

I turn my head around as I work by my desk, thinking I'll see you standing there
Waiting to feel your hand on my shoulder

In my sleep I reach out for you, looking for your warmth
But I wake up with nothing in my hands

Trying hard to focus on what lies before me, still I get nothing done
As my mind keeps turning to you

Late summer has returned and the sun is shining outside, yet in here is winter
I long for the autumn together

In some strange way I feel very good about missing her like this, I guess you really don't know what you have until it's gone, or as Gary Moore would put it: "The blues is alright.". I was never before able to write poetry while feeling sad until now, but then again, I'm more like a happy man walking at the dark end of the street.

Live long and prosper
  • Listening to: Eels - Dark end of the street
  • Reading: Katherine Kerr - Silverdagger
400 pageviews!

Yeah, I know it's not much, but why not take every opportunity to celebrate? I'll open a bottle of champagne and have a nice evening with my girlfriend. =)

On a more down-to-earth matter my autumn semester has started and it seems we'll have some fun courses this year... Well, att least if you consider quantum physics to be particularly hilarious ;) I look forward to this anyway and hope to get some good grades.

Live long, and prosper.
Time for the summer get to know me quiz!

[1]-[Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.]
It is one of the commonest weeds of cultivated...

[2]-[Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.]

[3]-[What is the last thing you watched on TV?]
Midsommer murders.

[4]-[Without looking, guess what time it is:]

[5]-[Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?]

[6]-[With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?]
My stereo playing the Rap with Secret Garden (Celtic music, not rap)

[7]-[When did you last step outside? What were you doing?]
I threw out some bread crumbs for the birds about two hours ago.

[8]-[Before you started this survey, what did you look at?]
Some deviantART gallery.

[9 ]-[What are you wearing?]
beige fjällräven (swedish brand) pants and a brown striped shirt (kind of 70ies retro...)

[10]-[What did you dream last night?]
Argh! it's hard to remember, but I rememer my girlfriend spoke to me in japanese in her sleep.

[11]-[When did you last laugh?]
This morning

[12]-[What is on the walls of the room you are in?]
A japanese calendar, some dried leafs collaged in a frame, my martial arts grade diplomas, a wallscroll with the word ai (love) on and my Nemi calendar.

[13]-[Seen anything weird lately?]
I looked in the mirror earlier today and I'm wearing my spare glasses that look really weird and funny.

[14]-[What do you think of this quiz?]

[15]-[What is the last film you saw?]
The hunt for Red October

[16]-[If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?]
A (few) katanas of good quality, a fan, something for my girlfriend, a new pillow and a new stereo (this one is really falling apart)

[17]-[Tell me something about you that I don't know:]
I own three different versions of Hero on DVD, The swedish , the chinese and the Japanese one. I'm hoping to get hold of the South Korean version this year as well.

[18]-[If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?]
Make nature invulnerable to our stupidity.

[19]-[Do you like to dance?]
I certainly would if I could!

[20]-[George W Bush:]
What is there to say? We have a conservative monkey leading the most influential country in the world...

[21]-[Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?]
Xera or Tokiko, maybe both...

[22]-[Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?]
no idea...

[23]-[Would you ever consider living abroad?]
In Japan or England maybe, but I really like it here in Sweden.

[24]-[What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
WE ARE THE BORG! RESISTANCE IS FUTILE! ... just kidding... Welcome!

[25]-[4 people who must also do this memo in THEIR journal:]
You, you, you and you over there.

Live long, and prosper.
My last two weeks have been somewhat... overwhelming due to the addition of a girl in my life. So since exams are over, summer holiday is here and I have a new girlfriend, life could not be better.

Love came out of the blue
and I went tumbling after.
Only wish to be with you
for now and ever after.
I'm currently studying for my final exams this year and after almost two weeks of sitting still I'm climbing the walls and rapidly descending into madness... so naturally I wrote a poem about it.

I'm going insane
I am losing my mind
seeking answers I wish to find

I hoped these books would bring knowledge
but everything is not what it seems
Turned my thoughts into wicked dreams

The longer I read, the deeper I fall
Hour by hour, word for word
I listen and accept what is absurd

A revening soul
clawing on itself, trying to fight
A journey in the dark, a search for light

No salvation from this fate
Trapped in the pages of ancient lore
I have to read forever more...

Well it's only three days left 'til the day, then I'm in for three months of vacation.
Finally, FINALLY the most of the snow has melted, all it took was two days and a little (ok, a lot) of rain. Now the rivers are overflowing instead :P The forces of life have conquered king Bore (winter) and it's only a week left 'til my springbreak. Finally...