Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people (don't list names):1. You're so nice and your art is so pretty?!!! efbhsabj I look up to you so much even though I'm older than you and that can be a good thing and a bad thing. I feel kinda like I have a responsibility to you and I can get quite uncomfortable because I'm Christian and you feel threatened by Christians. Sometimes Christians are just as threatened by society as everyone else who doesn't fit in. I really wish we could do more together like art trades but I never have the courage and you can't even draw much anymore. I don't even know if we'd be friends in real life. Sometimes I feel you wouldn't care about me because I'm one of those internet friends, you know? But that's me not you.
2. You're super cool and nice and pretty and I'm really excited because I comissioned you! Kinda like the above, I feel pretty torn because I really like you and look up to you but you aren't comfortable, which I understand. I really do like you! But sometimes I feel your closed off and I don't feel like you'd count me among your freinds and stuff. That's fine, except I really do put so much effort into trying to impress you and you never post on my stuff or anything.
3. I'm so sorry. I haven't cut off from you because of you! But everyone's putting you under pressure and I'm scared I'll do the same, and I just can't keep up with you. I wish I could be a support for you but I'm not good at that kind of thing.
4. So you're one of my absolute best friends and you're so funny. It's hard because I want to spend so much time with you but it wouldn't be fair with everyone else and life gets in the way. You're also getting down hearted recently and I just want to tell you that you don't need to obsess over sugar, you're not fat! And I always imagine you saying that I never get stressed and that I don't have problems, even though you only said it once, and it makes it really difficult. I do get self-conscious and you don't know that??? Also it's hard because I don't want to be jealous and posessive but I'm always nervous because you're spending lots of time with that one person in particular. You're a really strong atheist which is fine and we never talk about religion or anything but I think we should. It won't matter to you but I pray for you.
5. I wish I could tell you but it'll hurt you and get me in trouble and I want to start again. I want to keep up with you again but I can't and you're never around where I am so it makes it hard.
6. I'm sorry because even though we've been friends for so long and see each other almost every day I keep judging you and I shouldn't! Please don't prove me right though, life isn't just about boys and gossip and don't swear so much! I want to stay friends forever.
7. You're a really good friend and I don't put enough time into you. You're hilarious and so talented?!! I can't believe how everyone underrates you you are amazing. I won't let anyone talk bad about you I don't even care anymore!
8. You are my rolemodel and my goal. I want to do everything right and everything you ask me! I know you'll always listen to me and forgive me and you know what's really going on in my life. I don't need to write any more, you know everything about me!
9. I wish I could be as perfect as you want me to! But everything's hectic and you don't know everything even though you're such a big part of my life. It's always difficult because you can't take sides but I know you want me to do well at life and alive me and I'm so reliant on you!
10. I'm sorry that you don't see everything that's going on. It's really hard not to be annoyed at you, because it feels like you're taking my friend and I want the best for her and I don't know, you don't live up to that. I don't want her to act like you. I still really respect you though, but it's hard to act like I'm your equal and I don't think you see me as that. I don't think I matter to you but good luck!
Nine things about yourself:1. I'm right handed but I taught myself to be ambidextrous!
2. I have no idea what I want to do when I get older and it bugs me.
3. I really wanted green eyes as a kid but my eyes were always blue. But now, magically, they've changed green!
4. I want really short hair but my mum won't let me
5. I want to be good at drama and improve and everything but I can get pretty nervous which ruins it.
6. I have a crazy imagination which is great I can ignore boring teachers really well.
7. I can do this weird thing with my ears I tense them and a buzzing sound occurs and I can block out most sound? Good for the above aha.
8. I'm really uncomfortable with hugs but I'm getting better.
9. I wear glasses.
Eight ways to win your heart:1. Have intellegent conversations with me
2. If you put effort into showing me you notice me like drawing stuff for me
3. Wait for me even when I take a while to pack up or whatever
4. Like what I like aha
5. Put up with my obsessiveness and talk about something even when I've been talking about it for the last three days.
6. Accept me and work around my issues or specialties.
7. Come up with a better nickname then Han or Teay
8. Organise stuff don't make me do it I find it really challenging
Seven things that cross your mind a lot:1. I need to remember that
2. I wish you'd notice me (senpai, notice me!)
3. Am I obsessing too much?
4. Was that rude?
5. I wish I had more money / points
6. I wish I could draw that well
7. Do I have to?
Six things you wish you never had to do:1. Homework
2. Avoid certain topics or do certain things because it's polite
3. Pick-up the phone
4. Write thak-you notes
5. Doubt myself and others
6. Get a job
Five turn offs:1. Acting like my emotions don't matter or I don't have my downsides too
2. Lots of swearing
3. Loud talking / over the top actions
4. Putting me on the spot publically
5. Pressuring me into stuff I don't wanna do
Four turn ons:1. Being smart / knowing what you're talking about and talking about it with me
2. Waiting for me and searching me out
3. Smiling with me at the stupid teacher or something
4. Being nice even to people who everyone else hates
Three wishes for your future:1. Do something enjoy as a job
2. Do more art and writing and do it better
3. Have lots of pets
Two things you want to do before you die:1. Make a video game / write and get a story published
2. Learn some more languages
One possession you could not live without:1. My ipad ahaha