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Published: December 1, 2018

I usually hate seeing journals like this, but given that I’ve spent 13 years on this site and met thousands of people, knowing there are at least a few of you who would probably want to hear if something was going on, I figure this is the only way to tell you.

For the past several years I’ve been dealing with health issues that I originally attributed to being overweight and/or having a sedentary lifestyle.

A few months ago, I was dealing with a chronic sinus infection and drainage from hell. To offset my symptoms and maybe get some sleep for once, I went to bed with a breathe-right strip on my nose. I woke up with no nose strip to be found and a weird feeling in my throat, like something was there. I went to the emergency room assuming I had swallowed the strip; they looked in my throat and said they didn’t see any plastic strip, but they did see that my throat (epiglottis, vocal cords etc) was terribly swollen, and because I work at an airport, tuberculosis had to be ruled out before I could leave. They kept me in the hospital overnight to test me and watch the swelling. Obviously I didn’t have tb as I had been vaccinated years before, so they let me go and had me follow up with an ear/nose/throat doctor.

They had me take an allergy test, which came back negative. Not allergic to anything.

Then they suggested a biopsy, to see if they could figure out what was causing the swelling, as it hadn’t improved since I’d been in the hospital 2-3 months back. They would also give me a steroid shot inside my throat to see if that would help.

The surgery went okay I guess. Two of my IVs infiltrated which hurt like a mf, I still have a huge bruise a week and a half later, and they said the piece of my throat they cut out was yellow instead of pink--obviously not good.

The steroid shot did nothing. I got the results on Monday, and as it turns out, I have a rare condition called Amyloidosis. Basically, in reaction to a chronic infection, my body’s antibodies become proteins and build up in my tissues and organs. That's what's causing my throat to be twice the size it should be.

There are a few different types of amyloidosis based on which organ is most affected, and treatment varies. However, there is no cure, I will never breathe normally again, and the maximum life expectancy is maybe 10 years with the best form of the disease and early diagnosis and treatment.

I’ve been having symptoms since high school, so we can go ahead and knock at least five years off of that. Also, I don’t know what type I have, and I’m supposed to see a doctor at Vanderbilt to get their opinion and see if they can recommend a treatment. They haven’t called with an appointment time yet but I’m sure it’ll be months before I can go. I might not have that long.

Bros, I’ll be honest for a second. I never expected to live to 30, really I never expected to live long after Jack ended because that shit was keeping me going for so long. But knowing that I might not make it to 25, that I might not make it to tomorrow, is something I didn’t expect. I know I shouldn’t jump to conclusions, but if I’m unfortunate enough to have developed this disease, I’m probably unfortunate enough for it to be too late already.

I don’t want to give up yet. I still want to finish World of Light, just to finish something for once in my life, and leave something for this world that proved I was here that can bring other people joy the way these characters have brought me joy. I had other things I wanted to do, fan content and original ideas, but I realize and accept that I probably won’t be able to do them. I had two jobs, just quit one. I’m going to dedicate all my free time to finishing my story. In the event that I do end up dying before I’m finished, someone I trust will release all the material I have and the ending.

This also means that I will no longer be finishing commissions. I’m deeply sorry that I have basically strung some of you along for almost two years, and I’ll send what I have to you. If you’d like a refund, please send me a note with your up to date paypal and that’s what the rest of my money will go to. Again, I’m sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused you.

If you ever wanted to ask me anything, tell me anything, get to know me, or whatever, now is the time to do it. Leave a comment or send me a message and I’ll do my best to respond to you.

I’ll keep you all updated here in this journal.

Thank you all for everything: For your support, your kind words, your encouragement, your gifts, and your own contributions to the world that have made me so happy over the years and kept me going.

Always remember:
There are shy people like me who might not tell you how much they appreciate or adore your work, but live to see you post something new.
No matter how unloved you feel, there is always someone out there who would be destroyed if you died.
Life is short, maybe shorter than you think, so spend it doing something you love...even if that something is drawing weird crack fan art.

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Wow...I don't even know where to begin. My stomach flipped when I read about the life expectancy. I kept going back and reading over it again and again...hoping I was misreading everything. I admit the entire time I was reading everything, I was thinking it was going to be something that could be managed, even if made life more difficult. I didn't imagine it would be something...like this.

I know we haven't talked in ages, and I admit I had unfollowed you on tumblr because some of the things you reblogged made me uncomfortable. But hell, you were my first follower on tumblr, and I remember you back during your 'askura' days haha. I don't like to think much about my PPG fandom days because it's HELLA CRINGE and I HATE how i was back then, but you were one of the fonder memories of that time. I always loved your comments and humor! And I've been so amazed by how much your art has progressed through the years and holy shit dude, your PPG art looks straight up official. It's amazing!

I don't know what I can say, really. Saying 'I hope you pull through' or 'Keep fighting' just feels...hollow. I don't know. What can you say to something like this? I feel like if i was in this situation, hearing these things wouldn't make me feel better in the slightest. But I don't know how a comment devoid of positivity would be of any help to you, either *sigh* All I know is I DON'T want this to be the way it is. Even if we never speak again, I don't want to believe that within a few short years, you won't be here anymore. I want to believe that this isn't set in stone and you'll defy the odds. I want to believe that you'll accomplish the goals you've set for yourself and many more after that. 

Even though I said I thought saying 'I hope you pull through' feels hollow, I'm going to say it anyway. I DO hope things turn out differently. I hope you can manage this beast and are able to possibly find a way to live with it. I hope you're able to keep going...well beyond 30.

Keep fighting. Keep hoping. Keep going.
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I don't even know who you are but im terribly sorry you have to go through that. I had depression since i was 8 right now I am 13 right now about to be 14 in July. I was bullied in the 6th grade and told to kill myself I have 17 failed attempts. My dad abused me and my three older brothers. Both of my parents were on drugs my dad still is. My mom is 2 years clean. My 15 year old brother abuses me now but that's when ever he gets the chance. My mom also makes me feel unwanted all the time. My two 22 brothers are on drugs right now so i an't go around them but my mom is trying to get custody of my nephew. I get bullied because of my sexuality and because I wear glasses. I am a transgender biologically I am a female but I consider myself a male. If you want to talk to me I'm here. Anyways live the rest of your life to the fullest and be happy for yourself. 

Also DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!
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SuperheroMangaGirlHobbyist General Artist
Hey im kinda just getting back into deviantart becuase I forgot about it for a year, but I saw your journal and just wanted to comment on it.           -Some of these comments are really long so I’ll try to make mine as short as possible-
I know what it’s like to be really nervous about something and sad, also a lot of my friends have mental issues and I know people with chronic diseases, so I’m really sorry you have to deal with this kind of thing. My pastor has really bad cancer and he could die really any time now and the cancer has taken almost everything from him. 
Good luck and enjoy your life before you leave this Earth and go to a better place where you can be happy and healthy.
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KelaaiyerHobbyist General Artist
i'm really sorry you have to go through this. though i'm not going through anything myself (other than depression, anxiety, things that aren't life threatening) my grandmother has stage 4 cancer. it's rough not knowing if she's going to wake up the next day, and each time i hear her go into a coughing fit the best i can do is curl up in my bed and cry. every time that she's away at the hospital i cry myself to sleep praying to god, praying to anybody that she makes it out. i've cut myself and considered suicide way more times than i should and i feel nobody should ever have to worry about not waking up when they go to sleep that night.

i hope you live a happy life, no matter how long you live, no matter what you have, because everyone deserves to die peacefully. even if not everyone does, they deserve to. i don't know you but i hope you enjoy the years you have.
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Hi,
Sorry to hear about your problems. I have had years of sleep problems that turned out to be related to a condition called "suffocative sleep apnoea" - this is caused by my largish tongue falling back on the narrow wind-pipe to cause a blockage that leads to nearly suffocating of oxygen whilst asleep. Result is that you are thinking you are sleeping (but disturbed somehow) and actually your brain is sending an alarm screaming that "I am suffocating!" about a thousand times a night until you move and dislodge the tongue... but the next morning you awake with no recollection and what a hospital brain scan showed me was that my brain had NOT gone thru a proper deep sleep cycle (poss since age 16) and that left me fatigued and oxygen deprived.

As I gained weight and stopped going to the gym in my thirties- the problem became alarmingly acute - I was falling asleep mid-sentence at work.

I found out that the simple act of wearing a Mandibular Advancement mouthpiece - like a boxer's mouthguard (set in hot water) at a position that holds your jaw forward a fraction  - effectively resolved this HUGE PROBLEM that may have made my brain fuzzy for 30 years !!!

I now also have a CPAP oxygen pumping machine... this machine  makes sure air is forced into my lungs thru my nose so I never starve my brain of oxygen.

I have also suffered a constant nasal mucus blockage type syndrome. I think that that was triggered by tiny fungal mould spores that I breathed in from a mould in the damp corner of my bathroom (it had no windows). It was very difficult to get rid of - but sitting in a hot dry SAUNA can kill the spores. possibly better than steroids, anti-biotics and drugs...

On my Journals on this site I posted a huge account of my experiences and have found I returned to a pretty sporty fitness by doing regular aerobic gym work like rowing machines, and sauna and eating less... I am trying to find it but can't it is titled On Beauty And Engineering - about how having four extra big and flat front teeth triggered my tongue being pushed back in the first place...
 
I hope that you will find a cure thru keeping on trying and get a great life back... 

Don't give up!

Good luck.
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Teacupballerina, I've had some good talks with you in the past on other sites and your art is pretty inspiring, I should tell you that doctors don't know everything. I have a neighbour who's proof of that, they've been telling him he'll pass away, every so many years, and my family perks him right up before he can feel down about it, it's been over thirty years now, we might have accidentally made him immortal.
Also cut out that negative thinking right now. You need some happy thoughts, a good diet, rest time, and some tlc. *pats* you're just sick and you'll get better soon, let me know if you need anything. 
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JohnGraveHobbyist Digital Artist
I didn't get to know you, but I admire your courage and your commitment to doing something you love, I'm so sorry that something like this happened to you, nobody deserves this, I hope you can achieve your goals and all the strenght in the world to go throught this, good luck and take care.
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No, thank you for spending your time on us.
This is your time now. Make the most of it.
Having a goal that you're actively working on to accomplish is more than most people ever have.
I wish the best for you.
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BitterPumpkinHobbyist General Artist
This is my first time checking this account in a while, and I certainly didn't expect this. I'm quite literally at a loss for words.
I do want to say that you've always been an inspiration for me, and it was your artwork that made me want to try drawing toons in the first place. You'll probably always be one of my favorite artists, even if I don't practice much anymore.
Take care. I'll be wishing you the best. 
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PhantomLatteHobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi Teacup, I'm sorry I've taken so long to write a comment here. ;-; Reading this broke my heart, I really hope you will be okay. :heart: You're a huge inspiration to me and you just seem like such an amazing person. <3 I'm wishing you the very best!~ :huggle:
I did also commission you a couple years back, but I'd honestly like you to keep the money. Again, wishing you the very best! :heart: :heart: :star:
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yosuehereHobbyist General Artist
when I first saw this I really thought it was just a figment of my imagination
I'm sorry you have to go through this
your art is literally why I started a da in the first place,
there's so much personality in your drawings
and you are such a cool person
you seem very strong and your attitude towards what's happening to you seems very healthy
so best of wishes <3
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teacupballerinaHobbyist General Artist
Thank you :crying: :heart: I'm just going to keep going and hope I can continue to put out stuff people didn't know they wanted to see LOL
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I want to get to know you! I've been around your art for a while now and you're one of the reasons why I've started drawing again; it's just so unbelievable to believe, really, and just...I don't wanna lose hope, ya feel? I hope you know you're surrounded by many who love you.
Panur's avatar
Be strong darling, and know your art has changed many a life, aku/bloss really held me together after a really bad breakup, as silly as it may sound. Good luck with your work <3
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teacupballerinaHobbyist General Artist
Thank you, it strangely helped me through some rough patches too, so I'm glad <3
DollRoq's avatar
There's nothing I can say that hasn't already been said, but.. I really hope that somehow, things end up okay for you, whatever that may be. 
We've never spoken before, but I always admired your art, and who you are as a whole. I just wanted you to know that. 
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Best wishes to you. Just know that your art has made a lot of people very happy and, with any luck, you might be able to make a lot more people happy in the coming years.
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eyughoProfessional Digital Artist
NOOO TEACUP PLZ LIVE.
I really hope you manage to find a way to treat it and honestly you're a really great person.
You're always so funny and you manage to make so many people smile with your art, I really REALLY hope you get better soon. You really don't deserve this horrible situation and I wish I was fate herself to make it better somehow. :iconcryforeverplz:
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kisaneko19Hobbyist Artist
heavy dude...i hope you are able to overcome and get through this thing, or at least be at peace about it.

i wish all the best for you and yours in this difficult time.
Afroformer's avatar
Oh, my gosh... I'm so sorry to hear that.

I wish there was something we could do for you.

I'd like to say that I appreciate your art and the humor you've put into some of your work. I haven't been an extensive visitor to your page, but you keep drawing me back in. 

I hope the next decade or so you have left is the best ever. 
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TendasorokiHobbyist Digital Artist
TEACUP NO
you’re too talented to leave us I hope things look up for you I’m prAyIng 😭
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teacupballerinaHobbyist General Artist
ME 2 I'M GONNA TRY TO KEEP myself from panicking before i know whether or not it can actually be treated with ease and at length
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TendasorokiHobbyist Digital Artist
OK BUT SERIOUSLY I WISH YOU THE VERY BEST youre one of the first artists I found in the sj fandom and Id be freaking devastated if anything bad happened to you >~<
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