Run me over, cut me up
Stuff pills in me to shut me up
Feeling like I'm out of luck
Like no one even gives a fuck
They hide me, bury me away
They chide me, tell me "Not today"
My sanity has all but slipped
I'm stuffed down deep into my crypt
Droplets falling, pitter-patter
Disregard me, what's it matter?
Thinning strands of thinning hair
Too many pills, too dull to care
Can't so much as get a word in
No one wants to share my burden
Bended knees and bended back
Future's looking pretty black
They say "Just a little longer"
That just makes my anger stronger
Aging, raging all the time
No more justice, rampant crime
Planet's dying, we're all fryi
By BHS and Forzare
A Lucky Star/Puella Magi Madoka Magica crossover
Cover by Hikari-Luv (remove spaces): fav .me /d4w1y0y
***Author's Note: We do not own the LS or PMMM characters or settings, and made no profit from this work. This story takes place at around the same time as the beginning of the Lucky Star anime, at the start of the cast's eleventh-grade year.
10/22/2015: I've made some changes to the first chapter, including a new title and various grammar fixes that I missed when I wrote it in a hurry back in 2011. I think it should be more in line with the rest of the story now. - BHS***
PROLOGUE: The End of Everything
CHAPTER 2: You Should Stay Away From Me
Homura Akemi was mobbed the moment the next break started. Kagami watched as a crowd gathered around the new girl's desk, all clamoring at once and asking her questions. So much was to be expected… a new student was always an event.
For her part, Akemi seemed to answer even the most inane questions cordially, though she still never changed her expression or raised her voice above a monotone: "Yes," she said, "I moved here from a city called Mitakihara." "I've been homeschooled until recently due to illness." "No, I don't want to join the computer club, thank you."
Kagami waited until the mob had
CHAPTER 3: We Were Too Late
"G'morning, Kagami… wow, you look like hell. What happened?"
That was the middle Hiiragi sister, Matsuri. The oddball of the family in appearance as well as behavior, Matsuri had light brown hair, hazel eyes, a lazy attitude, and an extremely blunt manner. She smirked and leaned back in her chair as Kagami lurched down the stairs, rubbing her eyes.
"Leamme 'lone, Matsuri," she mumbled as she sat down at the table, fighting the urge to nod off again. Much as she hated to admit it, Matsuri was probably right… after the night she'd had, she almost certainly did look terrible.
"You poor thing," said a gen
CHAPTER 4: Why Can't I Do Anything?
"Minegeshi!" Kagami's cry of horror was drowned out; a terrible noise was coming from the cube, a deafening moan that sounded just human enough to chill the blood of whoever heard it. Once again, she pushed against Homura's arm. She had to do something, get that thing away from Ayano and Misao…
"No," said Homura, barely audible over the sound. "You must stay here, Hiiragi-san. I'll stop it… and I'll do everything I can to save your friends. Kyubey, stay with her."
I understand, came the reply. The catlike creature was now sitting at Kagami's feet.
With that, Homura thrust her
CHAPTER 5: It's Not What It Looks Like
Kagami stared up at Homura, letting that information sink in. Neither of us killed it… you did. It should have had an effect on her, but she only felt numbness… her limbs felt like someone had replaced her muscles with lead. You did. That was impossible... she had been helpless in the grip of those hand creatures, barely even able to struggle, and on top of that she had blacked out after a few seconds. All she had been able to do to the Demon was-
Homura's eyes widened in concern as Kagami inexplicably started to laugh. "Hiiragi-san?"
"Ha ha ha… I'm fine," gasped Kag
CHAPTER 6: Are You Still Watching?
"I can hardly believe it," said Konata with delight. Her chin was in her hands, her elbows resting on the bed. "Who would have thought? Our little Kagamin…"
Kagami gripped the blankets so hard she could have torn them to shreds. "Sh-shut up! I told you, it's not like that!"
"Really, I didn't think you were into romance at all, let alone with another girl… Never thought you would swing that way, Kagamin."
"I don't! And what is that supposed to mean? I like romance just fine!" Kagami shot her friend her most ferocious glare.
"I just didn't think that black, grouchy, shriveled-up
Author's Note: This chapter is a bit late due to a very stubborn illness. I apologize for the delay, and I hope it's worth the wait.
CHAPTER 7: Sorry for the Deception
Tokyo Univesity Dorms
"Ossu," said the young woman on the bed. Her nose was buried in a very thick and complicated law textbook, and didn't look to be surfacing any time soon. The book was propped up in front of her on the bed, and soft chewing sounds came from behind it as her mouth worked on a stick of her favorite chocolate pocky. She looked quite different from the girl who attended Ryouou High years ago; taller and fuller-bodied, perhaps a little hea
CHAPTER 8: Be There Soon
"Uwaaa~!" Konata let out a gaping yawn and stretched her arms over her head. "Some weird day, huh?"
"Uh-huh," said Kagami.
"Mmm," said Tsukasa.
They were on the train again, another school day complete. Kagami had insisted that she was well enough to walk home, and surprisingly, Tsukasa hadn't objected. The train ride was unusually quiet save for the usual creaking and clacking; not as many people were travelling today.
"So Minegeshi-san and Kusakabe-san are both okay now, right?" said Konata. "I heard something about a fight between them before they passed out."
"Yeah," said Kagami.
"Uh-huh," said Tsuka
CHAPTER 9: Make It Go Away
La Beatrice Hotel, Tokyo
Three days before the end
"Fuck," said Kyoko, hanging her head between her knees.
Next to her, Oriko grimaced. "I would not put it exactly that way, but I share the sentiment."
Chances were that everyone else in the hotel did too. The sense of grief pervaded every room, every hall, and every stairwell, as if it were a living being relentlessly seeking them out wherever they went, intent on punishing the Puellae Magi for daring to think that they couldn't possibly fail with so many working towards the same goal. Many of the younger ones were still in shock, while the older ones had bec
CHAPTER 10: I Just Can't Stop Myself
Hiiragi household, Takanomiya
"Finished already? Let me see."
"'Kay." Tsukasa slid the paper across the table, then rubbed at her eyes.
Kagami scanned her writing and smiled. "This is really good… you're definitely improving."
"Thanks, onee-chan. Yuki-chan's been helping me a lot…"
"Mmm-hmm. There's just one thing here…" She smirked. "Her name's 'Lenore.'"
"Huh?" Tsukasa blinked and cocked her head.
"It's 'Dreaming of the lost Lenore,'", said Kagami, carefully sounding out the English words. "'Not 'Renoir', that's a French painter."
The younger twin's face slipped into an expressi
CHAPTER 11: When to Let Go
The Fourth's Lair, Kasukabe
Desideria pouted as she ran her hands over the curves of the Puella Magi's frozen body, avoiding the lance sticking through her midsection. The girl was still warm and soft underneath the golden shell, she knew, but she couldn't feel her wonderful warmth without breaking it what a pity. Without that warmth, it would be meaningless to feed on her Heart. Gaspare, however, had no such standards.
"Gaspare?" she cooed to the night without looking back over her shoulder. "You may start now, if you want. She's all yours. I trust you can handle her yourself?"
The Fourth was silent, as alway
*Author's Note: If you like our work on this story, please be sure to read and review Forzare's original work, NIL, found on FictionPress. He and I both appreciate your feedback. Thanks. - BHS*
CHAPTER 12: I'm Fine
Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
She was entangled in a snarl of bed sheets with Miyuki, both of them naked as the morning, the air heavy with the scent of summer sweat. She was hot, wet, and sticky and she didn't care, because Miyuki was smiling down at her, those gorgeous purple eyes unhidden by the lenses of her glasses. Tenderly Miyuki reached down and caressed her cheek with her hand, and shiver went up a
*Author's Note: I deeply apologize for the sudden barrage of kendo terminology presented in this chapter. I know it reeks of lazy exposition and/or the author showing off, but the only alternatives I could think of were to either footnote everything, or to have no explanation at all and pray my readers got it anyway. Any kendoka that might be reading, please also forgive any incorrect usage of terms you may find… I tried my best to ensure my research was accurate, but much like Kagami, I'm coming into the sport cold. - BHS*
CHAPTER 13: Thank You Very Much
Three Weeks Later
So, no luck?
No, thought Homura as she made a show
CHAPTER 14: You're in Love, Aren't You?
Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
It had been ten minutes now.
Ten minutes since she'd seen that.
Kagami knew on some level that she was being ridiculous. Tsukasa was almost seventeen, and Miyuki just a few months younger. Both were well past old enough to make their own decisions. Why shouldn't they have a relationship? Why shouldn't they do that with-
Her skin crawled, and she rubbed her arms frantically. Because the very image was so desperately wrong, that was why; it was out of place with her entire universe. Her twin sister was the goofball who put off her homework during breaks until the night before
CHAPTER 15: Sinners Must Repent
Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
Kagami's hands went so numb that she could barely keep her grip on her phone. The numbness spread from her fingertips down her arm, over her shoulder and across her chest, billowing through the rest of her body. She desired desperately for this to be just a nightmare, but she knew it was terrible, awful reality, and she couldn't fool herself otherwise. "How?" she whispered.
The voice on the other end spoke slowly. Her words were labored and slurred. "Izumi… followed me home. Wanted to know… my secret. I was talking with her… when we were ambushed. Wasn't sure&h
CHAPTER 16: That Can't Be True
Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
"Kagami, Tsukasa, we're home!" Laden with bags of groceries, Miki Hiiragi balanced precariously on one leg, trying to push the front door closed with her foot. She tilted wildly, losing her balance.
"Careful!" Her husband's hand steadied her. Tadao was carrying his own bags, but he had shifted a few underneath his arm to catch her. "You always do too much. Let me have a few of those before you fall."
Gratefully, she passed two of them to him with a smile. "Thank you, Tadao." Grocery shopping for a family of six was an ordeal enough without sustaining injuries bringing it all in; a t
CHAPTER 17: If I Hold Onto You Like This…
The Sixth's Lair
Oh no. No. No, no, no, no, no. She's going to kill them.
She's going to burn them to death and make me watch.
I've got to stop her. Got to do something…
"Homura," she croaked, her throat constricted with panic. Wriggling in her bonds, Kagami tried to look over her shoulder. "Homura," she said again, managing it clearly this time. "Can you hear me?"
The only reply from behind her was a faint, muffled sob.
"If you can, then listen," said Kagami. "We don't have much time."
"I wouldn't waste your breath," said Desideria from her position on the stone altar. She sat on the
CHAPTER 18: So Now What?
Somewhere Near the Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
"C'mon, can't you do it just once?"
"But you've got to, I've been waiting for something like this my whole life! It's easy, just watch me." Konata waved her arms, posing as elaborately as she could without aggravating her injured hand. "'For love and justice, the sailor-suited pretty soldier, Sailor-'"
Kagami glared over her shoulder. "If you don't quit pestering her, I'm dropping you." She jostled the smaller girl she was carrying on her back, just to emphasize the point. As she did so, her bokken bumped against her leg again. She was weari
CHAPTER 19: I Think Have an Answer
Hiiragi Household, Takanomiya
"Do you understand now?" said Homura softly when she had finished.
Kagami sat in stunned silence. She had listened first with interest, then with horror, then in tears as Homura Akemi told the story. That story was unlike anything she could have imagined, more beautiful and terrible and sad than she had the words to express. Did she understand? It was difficult if not impossible to answer. "I…" She swallowed heavily. Could she ever fully understand the black-haired girl sitting across the table, understand her sorrows, her guilt, her grief? Could she ever comprehend the d
STARS ABOVE SIDE STORY
By BHS and Forzare
"You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy
When skies are gray
You'll never know, dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"
- Jimmie Davis and Charles Mitchell, 1940
PART ONE: DENIAL
Oriko Mikuni felt her coming long before she laid eyes on her. Such was her gift: precognitive visions that could give her brief glimpses of the future. Sometimes those visions were a boon, able to warn against danger and save lives before trouble arose... those were the times she was thankful for her power. And other times, they were a curse… she
STARS ABOVE SIDE STORY: My Sunshine
PART TWO: DEPRESSION
Kyoko couldn't taste her food.
Food was more than a means of survival, it was a comfort, occasionally even a luxury for the girl who never quite forgot the long nights when her late father hadn't been able to afford dinner for the family. The small mountain of brightly-colored packages surrounding her included all her favorites: melon bread, taiyaki, odango, instant cup ramen, gummy candy, freeze-dried ice cream bars, and of course, chocolate pocky. Discarded wrappers were quickly building up in piles around her. She was attacking the food as if she had a perso