Summary: Takao is too "blind" to see that he's completely obsessive over Kai. Even Kai thinks so too. However, slowly, Takao comes to realize this... What would he do? KaiTaka, OoC/AU-ish, Takao's PoV.
Warning(s): Yaoi ( boyXboy ) for those yaoi haters. Mention of sexual activity and rape. Character insanity. Character death. Use of drugs and alcohol. I guess that's it. If there's more, then I'll add more in later chapters. I'm sure this isn't all.
Pairing(s): KaiTaka ( Kai X Takao ). Hints of Max X Hitomi and Rei X Mao.
Note(s): I got inspired to write this by a fic that I read where one character goes insane because his partner was abusing him, and... Well, I can't tell you the ending there, because it'll give away the ending I have planned for this fic. Sorry, but I also got inspired by the song, "It's All Over" by Three Days Grace. I decided to transfer the lyrics into a fic, which will be this fic.
I'm new to writing Beyblade, so if anyone's OoC, then tell me. I'll try and be IC next time, alright? All I know is their english personalities, so if their japanese personalities are different, then tell me. All I know is Kai's personality. That's it. That's all.
I'm sorry if I got any spelling wrong. The only spelling corrections I have are google. So, it I made any mistakes, tell me.
Criticism is welcome.
I do not own Beyblade.
Enjoy! xD x3
Your bottle's almost empty,
You know this can't go on,
Because of you,
My mind is always racing.
Takao's PoV ( Age 18/2-years-later )
"Takao, what do you really think of Kai now?" Asked a certain annoying blond friend.
I looked at him, "Hmm?"
"I mean, I think he's starting to boss you around, and stuff that that. Isn't that bothering you?" He asked, showing concern.
I grinned, "Nah. He's just been in a bad mood lately. He'll be back to his normal self in no time. No worries, Max, okay?"
"If you say so." He murmured, and eyed me, "Are you sure? You got a bruise on your ankle."
I looked down, "Oh, that? I'm fine. Got that during practice at the dojo. My grampa told me to stay away from it for a while."
"That? It looks terrible!" He yelled, catching attention from the class(1), "Are you sure?"
I shushed him, "Quiet. I told you, I'm fine. I just kicked too hard, that's all."
"Fine, fine." He whispered, eyeing me with concern. I understand his concern. He is my best friend after all.
Everyone continued with their work, and I tried to fall asleep, but I couldn't. I, at least, pretended so I wouldn't worry my friends more then they already were. I couldn't sleep because there was always Kai in my mind. He has been getting more volent lately, but I thought nothing of it... At first at least. He's been coming home to the dojo late at night and wake me up. He then starts to get rough. Rough to a point where it turns into rape, and not rough sex.
It then got to a point where he's drawing blood.
Every night since that night, he's been hurting me and causing bruises, and cuts to scars. He then stopped arruptly before he literally kills me.
He then left. For almost three months.
My friends knew, and tried to comfort me. However, they don't know why he left. They just know he left. He left because he felt guilty for hurting me so badly. He was still himself, after all. I didn't mind until he left.
He still hurt me after he left though. He broke my heart.
During those three months, I completely locked myself into my room with barely food or water. I seriously loved Kai to a point with no return. Through my friends tried to comfort me by trash talking about Kai:
"Kai's a jerk. Forget him."
"Come on, Kai doesn't desurve you. You desurve better."
"Kai's just rotten. There is plenty of fresh fish out into the sea."
I ignored them, and just stayed in my room sulking. Sure, what they say might be true, but I loved Kai to a point of no return. He is my everything. My beautiful pheonix. His eyes. His body. His mind. His... Everything. Everything about Kai that I loved. Everything. We've been dating for 2 years now, and I intend to keep him.
After those three months, he came back. He apologized in front of my friends for hurting me and I instantly forgave him, surprising my friends. Once in private, I told him one thing. This important thing so we could stay together forever...
"Takao! Takao, wake up!" Yelled an annoying female voice.
I groaned, and got up, and glared at her, "What!?"
"Class is over! Didn't you hear the bell!?" She yelled.
I looked at the time. Huh. I must've tuned out everything. I guess I've been deeper thought then I've thought. I sighed, and sat up, "Glad it's a weekend then, huh, Hitomi?"
"What!?" She asked, raising an eyebrow, "Aren't you gonna complain?"
I get her concern. I didn't argue, so I guess she would be. I gave a small smile, "Hmm, I'm fine. I'm just tired."
"You weren't even snoring. Are you sure you're okay?" She asked, "Were you awake the whole class?"
I gave her a weird look, "Huh? No. I didn't even hear the teacher, nor did I hear the bell. I was asleep, Hitomi. I'm fine."
"If you say so." She murmured, and walk away.
I soon got up and left to head home to the dojo. Damn. I gotta pick up something first, or Kai will be pissed. I decided to choose a different route, so I hope no one I know would notice me. I gotta pick up something for Kai.
I went to the store to pick up a drink. I also went to pick up a soda for myself, so I could enjoy tonight as much as I could. Kai sorta got addicted to wine, and often sips it 'till he's drunk. Isn't wine for occations though? Oh well, I guess I can't complain. I bought the wine ( told the casher that it's for grandpa, as usual ), and bought a soda. Great, now I'm ready to head home.
"Takao!" Yelled a male voice behind me. I froze, recognizing that voice.
I turned around to meet golden eyes, "Yes, Rei?"
"Is that... Wine?" He asked, "You know that stuff is bad for you?"
I understand his concern. I'm buying wine, and that's unusual, so I shouldn't be surprised. I smiled, "Oh, this is for Grampa! He requested this!"
"Oh." He said, eyeing me, "Are you sure? You've been coming here more often lately."
I chuckled lightly, "It's fine. Grampa's been more down lately. He gets wine when down. Trust me, he's more funny when drunk though."
"If you say so." He murmured, "Well, I gotta head home. Catch ya later, Takao."
I grinned, "Talk to ya later, Rei."
I waved as he left. I would've sighed in relief if I wasn't in a public place. What I learned from Kai, I could act differently then how I'm actually feeling. Kai acts like this all the time, but totally opens up when he wants to. He doesn't talk much, but he does speaks his mind when necessary. He's an antisocial kind of guy, but that's how I like my Kai.
I walked home to the dojo.
Home at last.
Kai doesn't get here 'till night time, so I hide the wine in my room. While that's waiting, I waited for Kai to return home.
I just sit outside, waiting.
And my phone rings. I could bet who it is. Grampa answered it.
"Hello? Oh, hi. Takao? Hold on, I'll get him."
I knew it.
"Takao!" He yells, "Your friend's on the phone for you!"
"Comin', Grampa!" I yelled back, and walked up to answer the phone, "Hello?"
"Takao! I wanna ask if you could hang out today!" A high male voice spoke through the phone.
I sighed, "Sorry, Kyoujuu. I can't. I have to catch up with Kai tonight."
"Aww. You've been catching up with Kai ever since he came back. Why do you have to catch up to him? He's a jerk." He complained.
I chuckled lightly, "He's been gone for three months. What do you think? We're making up for lost time."
"Are you sure? You don't sound too happy about it." He replied, sounding concerned.
I understand his concern. I'm hang out with a so-called "jerk" tonight. No biggie. I grinned, "I'm fine, Kyoujuu. I'm just nervous, ya know? He's totally different then the last time I've seen him. I'd like to catch up to see what's different, you know?"
"If you say so." He murmured, "When can we hang out again?"
I sighed, "I promise, I'll hang out after the weekend, during school. Okay?"
"That's what you said last week, and you totally avoided me." He sighed, "I gotta go. I'll talk to you later."
I smiled, "Alright, Talk to you later."
I hung up.
I walked back outside, and sat down, and looked at where the sun is at. It looks like night would be hours 'till Kai came. So, I decided to blade 'till he came him.
"Takao!" Yelled an older male voice.
I paused my aim to see who spoke to me, "Hai, Nii-San?"
"You have plenty of time 'till Kai comes over. Why didn't you accept your friend's offer to hang out?" He asked.
I placed my hand on my hips, "Well, I didn't want to risk it. What if I come home later then usual, and Kai's already here? He'd be pissed, and that's the last thing I want."
"So? Better late then never. I'm sure he'd understand if you come home late." He glared.
I understand. I'm not using my time wisely, and wants me to be happy. He's concerned in his own way. I huffed, "Still. I don't wanna risk it. I don't like to see Kai upset, and being here while he's here is important to me. Besides... It's rude to a guest when the host isn't home."
"... Fine. Whatever." He murmured, and walked away.
I nodded, and started to blade.
I wiped the sweat off my forehead, and looked up at a stary night sky. Looks like dinner would be done soon. Save for grandpa's cooking. I guess I could quit practicing for the day. I licked my lips for they were dry. I guess I need a shower. Who knows. I walked to the front door and sat down. I wanted to enjoy the cool air. Enjoy the moon for tonight. I looks like it'll be a half moon tonight.
"You don't look so good." Said a annoying/childish male voice, "Maybe you should sleep."
I rolled my eyes, recognizing that voice, "No, Daichi. I've been training since this afternoon. You're just saying that so you could battle me."
"I'm not saying it like that, idiot!" He yells, "I'm saying it because you really look terrible! Have you been getting any sleep!?"
I paused. No. No, I haven't. Do I really look that terrible? Leave it to Daichi to point that stuff out. I understand his concern now. I looked at him and smiled, "I've been getting plenty of sleep. I guess I look like this because I woke up earlier then usual, ya know?"
"Don't lie to me!" He yells, obviously pissed, "You obviously have bags under your eyes!"
I sighed, "What I mean earlier then usual, I mean way earlier then usual. Like 4:00 in the morning. I guess that's when Kai got home last night and--"
"--Eh, don't. I don't wanna hear any mushy stuff." He murmured, "So you blame Kai for your lack of sleep."
I paused. Oh, I didn't realize. I seriously blame Kai for everything, huh? I laughed at that thought. Right after I promised myself--
"--What are you laughing at!?" He asked, glaring at me.
I smiled, "I guess I blame Kai for everything. Of course. That's just ridiculous, you know?"
"Ridiculous!?" He growls, "It's stupid! So stupid, it's not even funny! Why would you even love a guy who's a completely jerk to you? It's... It's unhealthy!"
I scoffed, "Says the monkey who barely even showers. That's unhealthy."
"Hey!" He stood up, "At least I know what you're doing is unhealthy! You lack sleep, and you barely eat!"
I scoffed, "At least I eat and sleep, Daichi. Relax, I'm fine. I'm still alive."
"If you say so." He murmured.
"Takao!" Yelled an elderly, but stern, voice, "It's time for supper! Aren't you gonna come in!?"
I sighed, "Comin', Grampa! Come on, Daichi."
"Right." He murmured, and watched as I got up walked inside.
I've got the feeling he'll be watching me. He'll try to prove me wrong. I just know it.
Once supper was over, I walked into my room and waited for Kai the rest of the time. I proved Daishi wrong, really. I ate all my food, and then left. That's it. That's all there is to it. Now, I just need to wait.
You know, before I asked him out, he was kind of sweet. Dispite his additude, he was actually kind of shy, and he could be romantic when he wanted to. He's pretty smart, and pretty cool. In fact, he was kind of attactive. I asked him out because I was still questioning my sexual orientations. Well, I gave it a try and now... Now, I actually love him to no return. At least I know how I feel. However, he's still questioning... Questioning how he feels. I could tell. He's becoming more aggresive. More... More angry.
I looked towards the drawer where I hid the last wine. I heard the door open. The person remain silent as he walked in, closing the door behind him. I didn't realize how much time has passed.
"Your bottle's almost empty." I murmured, "I got a new one."
He sat down next to me. He remain silent.
I softly smiled, "I love you, Kai."
I looked at him, and I watched his lovely red eyes. I leaned up to kiss him on the lips. It was just a quick peak.
I lied to my friends.
Everything that happened to me and everything I did, I did for Kai.
I got bruises and bite marks all over because of Kai.
I didn't actually sleep in class because of Kai.
I bought wine for Kai, no one else.
"I didn't sleep nor eat... Daichi was right. So were my friends... But... I don't care." I murmured without thought, "I love you too much."
Like I said to Kai...
"I don't care what you do to me... As long as you don't leave me again..."
To be Continued...