gazing into an otherworldly abyss.
It tugged at the foundations of my existence,
threatened to take vitality
from the house of my body;
and ebbed away my essence.
My identity was compromised
as the darkness stole away
my whole and whispered to me.
I awaited a reaction to my presence,
a contraction -
and yet none came.
With sharp sparks of adrenaline
surging in my bloodstream,
I swear I almost jumped - leaped - there and then.
Your eyes are a staggering force of motivation.
You are so pure, I know, in your world so high above me. On a self-imposed pedestal, you cast your eyes down, my insignificance glaring and offensive.
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You would have them think you are untouchable in your virtue, yet your pious words cannot mask the sin in your eyes. We both know you would cast aside your Catholic conscience and let me stain your sheets and mind with my filth.
Or, given the chance, you would cleanse the heathen dirt from my flesh in the hopes I may one day reach your state of grace. Only then could you have me in the ways that have led to muffled moans alone in your room; the thoughts
Calculating motivation in a cold mind, and visioning their death
Near the sidewalk cars pass by, they look at me through shaded glass
Just as they did, in the long faded corridors of school.
I retreat to somewhere with an overview away from theirs
And think of what it is they're thinking, in fright
Long sleeves cover myself as I stand above the masses of skin.
To shield against their gloatings and uncompromising norms
A mask black and effective rose, yet fragile in its core
In dreaded stillness I turn to stone, they speak to me and my tongue is numb.
Take my hand and we'll walk through this horror
This abyssal fear of simple people, and their peaking eyes
A hood on my face since an early age was always enjoyable
Take my hand and guide me through, dear friend, don't run away
From my hateful gaze.
Underneath wings of stolen steel,
The crags hang threateningly,
In the grey-blue horizon.
A new light is dawning,
Tinting the darkness to greys, not blacks,
As a figure waits uncompromisingly in the silence.
I want to be
Could never be
the innocence just wasn't there
and I won't fake it
I love your acid spray
the dress right off my shoulders
It was a mockery of glamour
and lets fuck
Where love is but a myth
An urban legend
Death inside the hills of deceit
Leaving me here in the darkness to be bled dry by those that dwell on the blood of the night
A tainted sky
Only left here to feed that which has no right to live
Cut me out of this picture
Out of this great world of lies
Eyes watching .
Hands on the throats of those creatures that feed
My mind wanders and finds those who put me here
Deaths awaits them on their doorstep
An objective truth of their torture
With white eyes
A stillness in their breathe
A life suffocated by the thrilling agony
A world with uncompromising hearts
A world where death is a natural season
Not a sport
A voice left unheard
Peace is held in the hands of
She made love to me in the cold spring rain.
Wet kisses made more so
But her touch was warm and dry.
Ruthlessly chaotic and mad with passion,
Her lightening struck as thunder rumbled overhead.
Against the hardest rocks she broke me,
Indenting me silhouette epitaph
And inscribing her name forever upon my heart.
Her face contorted with rage,
In her bite I felt searing love.
She makes me kneel before her
And bathes my scars in mud.
I follow her to dark places,
Where we each are contraband,
Hidden; to be found only in darkest of times.
Relentless and uncompromising,
She takes all I have
And I must weep that I
have nothing more to take.