I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die.
Stehe nicht an meinem Grab und weine.
Ich bin nicht dort, ich schlafe nicht.
Ich bin wie tausend Winde, die wehen.
Ich bin das diamantene Glitzern des Schnees.
Ich bin das Sonnenlicht.
Ich bin der sanfte Herbstregen.
Ich bin der Morgentau.
Wenn du aufwachst in des Morgens Stille,
bin ich der flinke Flügelschlag friedlicher Vögel im kreisenden Flug.
Ich bin der milde Stern, der in der Nacht leuchtet.
Stehe nicht an meinem Grab und weine
Ich bin nicht dort, ich bin nicht tot.
I only told four people till now, but on 5th September 2015
our second dog, Daylight or short Dayli, died of complications after an emergency operation in the early morning.
My one year hiatus in 2016 was because of that. I couldn't draw, I simply couldn't.
Two years later, my beautiful girl Spike died this morning, 9th of October 2017,
around 8 am from acute kidney failure after the vet did everything to save her.
Last time it hurt, but there was still Spike at home.
I haven't slept in two days, barely eaten. I'm sick to my stomach and close to fainting.
This time I am not sure how to keep on living. Everything I tried was for her. I cannot, WILL NOT, say goodbye to any of them. They where everything I had and now both are gone.
I am not saying goodbye because I hope I will see them again some day.
The vet bill now exceeds everything we had. Thanks to a friend and your support so far we could pay the bill.
But I still have trouble paying the health insurance not to say buy food for the month.
We are now selling everything in this house that is not nailed to the floor.
After this I do not know I can ever pick up a pen again. I will try my best to finish every already paid for commission. But I am not sure I can work on any from the unpaid ones. Please give me some time. I will contact you all and give you my decision.
After that I will most likely go into an indefinite hiatus and probably leave dA and cancel Patreon. Right now I cannot say if I will ever return after that. My PayPal is still up for donations
: firstname.lastname@example.orgAs is my Kofi
You can also reach me under my PayPal info email.
Thanks for all your support.