sureya

hello everyone... it's been a while, hasn't it?

i guess life just haven't stop spiraling for me since the past few years, especially after my TB diagnosis. i have been cleared from tb, but after that i am left with hypertension. the doctor said it was brought on my the lack of exercise & staying awake at night too much. yeah, the thing about tb is that it makes u feel tired & hot & sweaty at night so u can't sleep. & i've been having the symptoms for years before i was finally diagnosed.

so being a healthy person i was before, to suddenly come down with a condition that would affect me for the rest of my life... i guess... was quite a shock & disappointment for me. so i've been feeling anxious & scared about my health, especially when i have to start taking daily medication & blood check every 3 months. & my 1st few months of taking the blood pressure medication was horrible. there were quite a few side effects while my body was getting used to the medication. ><

anyway, i started changing my life habits... no more sugary drinks, soda, salty food, more vegetables, less carbohydrate, & so on so on. & i take at 30 minute walks every day, in order to control my weight. which is very hard to do because it's very hard for me to lose weight, but very very easy to regain them. ><

but most of all... i walk outside of the house to remind me that there's still a world out there. with tb & then covid... oh,talking about covid, i caught covid earlier this year.but it was the less severe omicron strain so it wasn't that bad. it was like a bad case of cold with extra joint pains. i was left with a case of cough for a few weeks after, but then i always get that after a cold. but at least it wasn't as bad as before i got my tb treatment.

anyway... i felt really cooped up & exhausted, that couldn't focus at all on drawing. i've watched a lot of people getting into art during the lockdown, & here i was not being able to bring anything out on to paper. i got really frustrated... but what can i do when my brain is telling me it doesn't want to draw?

so i started this small drawing group on facebook... just a small gathering place for local artist friends to get to know each other & share their artworks. & managing it gave me some sense of purpose. i mean, if i can't draw at least i can encourage others to draw. & with that... i'm slowly regaining my own motivation to start drawing again...

& as usual, with every 'art block'... my art would change. & this time i noticed a significant change to my strokes. however i am re-learning & practicing more on anatomy & movements, because i want to do more dynamic drawings. hopefully i can improve... ><

loging in today, i've notive A LOT of changes in dA. some things i like, some i don't. & since when we can login with facebook? i was like nooooo!!!! since zucc locked up my old account, & caused trouble to my IG account... i have vowed to NEVER link facebook to any of my other social medias ever again. >"<

&... i got a notice from dA... that SOMEONE SUPER SNEAKY GAVE ME 1 MONTH SUBSCRIPTION.  luckily i didn't logged in too late... there's still plenty of time for me to make use of it. whoever u r... thank you so much. ><

u have made me very happy today.