Now some of you out there might be wondering what Autism is, well Autism, or autism spectrum disorder (ASD), refers to a broad range of conditions characterized by challenges with social skills, repetitive behaviors, speech and nonverbal communication. There are many different forms of Autism, so it's different for everyone who has it. So, in other words it makes me different from everyone else, and you're probably wondering what I've been through, and it has not been easy for me. I suppose I should start from the beginning, I think I was diagnosed back when I was in
kindergarten. I don't really remember much, except I had a wild imagination, and I still have a wild imagination to this day.
I also remember that I did things that were beyond my control, and it wasn't until my mom finally took me to the doctor that I was finally diagnosed with my condition. From that point on, my life changed dramatically, I was made fun of, and picked on by the other kids, because I was acting too weird, and different, but I couldn't help it! The worst part is I never understood why they were making fun of me. I would try too tell the teachers, but they never did anything about it. It wasn't until I met someone who protected me from the bullies that things started getting better for me.
This person became my best friend, and we did everything together, but eventfully, she moved away when I got into middle school, so I had to defend the bullies on my own. However, as I got older the bullying and teasing got worst. "Why are you acting so weird, why can't you be normal you freak," some of them would say, and I would never know how to respond, so I just walked away from them. One day though, it got so bad that I started having suicidal thoughts, but don't worry, I never hurt myself or anything like that, mostly because I couldn't go through with it. I don't know what I was thinking at the time OK, I just wanted the teasing to stop, but then, I thought about my family, and how much they loved me, so I guess my love for my family is what has kept me going all these years.
Sometimes, I ask myself though, is it still worth it, and I guess it is worth it, because I have people who love and care about me, even when it seems like the rest of the world is against me. Some people still make fun of ,me though, because they don't know what it's like to have a disorder you can never get rid of it, and you have to live with it, until your dying breath. Sometimes, I wish I could make it go away, but then, I think that God made this way for a reason, and he has a plan for me, I should also mention that I'm a Christian. Anyway, people still make fun of me to this day, and it's not easy for me living with my condition, but you know what, what's the point of fitting in, if no one will accept you? Is this what our society has turned into, a society that will only accept those who fit into our society, but shun those who are different from us?
It seems that way, doesn't it? Hopefully, one day, our society will change for the better, but until then, I guess us freaks have to stay together. So, go ahead, make fun of me for all I care, I don't really care anymore. If you can't accept me for the way I am, then maybe there's something wrong with you. Anyway, that's my story, let me know what you think in the comments section below.