A shadow steps away.
It's a running theme, I'm always left behind.
The people get over me, move on with their lives.
But then here I am, still stuck in the same spot.
I asked for help, I begged to change.
I can't do it alone, I don't know how.
But then they leave.
I feel trapped in a box.
Why? Says the voice in my box with me.
I am lonely, yet have family
I am aimless, yet have opportunity
I am depressed, yet without reason
I am exhausted, yet I do not act
My chemicals seem to rule me, keeping me shut in my box.
Yet another shadow steps away.
The landscape of my mind is like an old attic.
they leave me
well-meaning words of sorry hanging lightly in the air
or perhaps nothing at all
Dust settles on the floor.
I am packed in a box people left behind.
Same as before.
No breath, no change.
I cannot escape.
there's an amount of comfort from the idea that they'll forget about me
the emptiness in my
So, as expected, eclipse is a garbage can; I've written this three times now because it decided to delete what I was writing. Funny how something that looks like an ugly mobile website is actually not reliable at all on mobile devices.
In any case, I figured maybe some of you might be wondering why I stuck around even though the aformentioned wretched and frustrating eclipse has arrived. It wasn't an empty threat, no, and I haven't stayed for nostalgia's sake; it wasn't even the fear of change that deterred me. The reason is quite a simple one, if you know me at all.
I am depressed.
I don't care about anything right now. Especially not some random webite that decided to change their page design, even if it is nearly unbareable to visit.
This particular wave of apathy and grief engulfed my entire body about a week after posting my last status update, and I am now only beginning to surface. If the past is any indication, I shall be floating in this ocean of depression for several
The world is in upheaval, I'm personally more uncertain than ever, and I come to dA for a fraction of stability; what do they do? Delete their whole old website.
I'm not sure I'll be around if dA goes through with this; I really love the art here, bu...