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gathering dust

A shadow steps away. It's a running theme, I'm always left behind. The people get over me, move on with their lives. something changes something progresses something moves But then here I am, still stuck in the same spot. I asked for help, I begged to change. I can't do it alone, I don't know how. But then they leave. I feel trapped in a box. Why? Says the voice in my box with me. I am lonely, yet have family I am aimless, yet have opportunity I am depressed, yet without reason I am exhausted, yet I do not act My chemicals seem to rule me, keeping me shut in my box. Yet another shadow steps away. Giving up. The landscape of my mind is like an old attic. they leave me well-meaning words of sorry hanging lightly in the air or perhaps nothing at all Dust settles on the floor. I am packed in a box people left behind. Same as before. No breath, no change. I cannot escape. there's an amount of comfort from the idea that they'll forget about me the emptiness in my
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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied
  • Aug 23
  • United States
  • Deviant for 11 years
  • She / Her

I Remain

I Remain

So, as expected, eclipse is a garbage can; I've written this three times now because it decided to delete what I was writing. Funny how something that looks like an ugly mobile website is actually not reliable at all on mobile devices. In any case, I figured maybe some of you might be wondering why I stuck around even though the aformentioned wretched and frustrating eclipse has arrived. It wasn't an empty threat, no, and I haven't stayed for nostalgia's sake; it wasn't even the fear of change that deterred me. The reason is quite a simple one, if you know me at all. I am depressed. I don't care about anything right now. Especially not some random webite that decided to change their page design, even if it is nearly unbareable to visit. This particular wave of apathy and grief engulfed my entire body about a week after posting my last status update, and I am now only beginning to surface. If the past is any indication, I shall be floating in this ocean of depression for several
The world is in upheaval, I'm personally more uncertain than ever, and I come to dA for a fraction of stability; what do they do? Delete their whole old website. I'm not sure I'll be around if dA goes through with this; I really love the art here, bu...
If you want a llama and I haven't given you one yet, let me know :b I'm just hitting the "random deviant" button and handing them out to artists I wanna encourage <3

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Thanks for the watch.
sunshineleyHobbyist General Artist
Absolutely o3o your art is really great
Thank you.
lithyeld Traditional Artist
Hey, thank you for watching !
sunshineleyHobbyist General Artist
Sure thing ;D
MatesLaurentiuProfessional Digital Artist
Thank you for the llama, much appreciated!
sunshineleyHobbyist General Artist
Absolutely c: