I don't even know where to begin.... Have you ever had that moment where everything just feels like a bad dream? That nothing is in your control anymore? At the moment that's how I feel. For the few that know me you would know that my mom has cancer. And one that very few survive from. We thought she had been doing better. She was doing better till this weekend. We aren't sure what happened but we got the call this morning that her organs are failing. We just had to say good bye to her because she only has about two or three days left. I mean I've lost my grandparents before and other friends have lost family members but my own mother? I am not even sure what needs to be done really. I have a general idea but I mean I never really talked about with her. You know? I keep thinking this is a bad dream I'm going to wake up from and she's going to be right there ready to go shopping with me or go on vacation. It's not fair. Life just really sucks right now.