The Image in the MirrorI know there’s something wrong, but I can’t admit it to myself.
I’m addicted to the thought of draining myself dry.
Tormenting my own mind and destroying this so called temple.
Clawing at my stomach and breaking nails into my ribs.
I’m building an image to fit the molded ideal.
Is it really so wrong to have bone surfacing from the skin?
I hate this prolonged, agonizing hunger.
I hunger; I hunger for that destructive perfection.
I’m enduring this sight; this sight of me melting away.
Watching as I fade, oh so pale; it’s getting worse…
I’m so sick and fragile, lying on broken glass.
If only I could pick up the pieces and cut it all away.
There’s something wrong, my strength is going fast!
I lay here cold and shaking…alone, I’m alone.
I’m growing tired if this never ending cycle.
It repeats, repeats, and repeats!
I’m not getting any better and I can’t see what they see.
I’m disgusted with the image i
Letting go of control...It sit here watching the time go by not wanting to go to sleep but just sit here in the silence reflecting on another day. Tomorrow is a huge day a day I've been waiting for but also a day of fear. I do not know what will happen or what the future brings but I do know that I have it within me to overcome any obstacle that is put in my way. One day at a time is all I can do, one moment at a time on some days too. The more I let go the more I see that trying to control doesn't help me. Let go and let God is what they say, it is hard to do but when I do I'm amazed at what comes my why. 3 months ago I never would have thought I would be where I am today. I finally found hope and I know its because I have let go and began to create. Creativity is my life it's how I survive. Life may be hard at time but I don't mind because I never would have got to this place if I didn't go through pain. " What doesn't kill you makes your stronger" is defi
Pain grows into creativity Lost in a world of chaos and pain,
My emotions switch from day to day,
One day I am happy and confident,
The next I want to curl up into a ball and cry,
Fear surrounds me,
Pain engulfs me,
Memories haunt me.
I wish I could let go of all this pain inside,
And live a normal life,
But what is normal anyways,
What is the way it is suppose to be,
Really is there such thing as normality.
Accepting who I am is important,
And using my strengths to succeed,
And learning to work on my weaknesses.
If life was easy and happy all the time,
We wouldn't know what happiness was,
Because we would have nothing to compare it too.
With extreme pain also comes happiness,
Because I am suddenly more grateful for the little things.
I may never be what society expects of me,
But that is ok because I don't need to be,
I am unique and eccentric,
I am an artist and a writer,
I may think differently then other people,
But that makes it easier for me to be creative.
I notice the details that
Too long asleepSmoke, screaming, war cries, a hand holding on to her own, pulling her on, pain. She stumbled, but did not fall, tears were streaming down her face.
Running through the trees, an arrow whistling past her, confusing, utter chaos.
A raised hand, the sound of stone opening and a door, a thick dark wooden door with intricate metal work in the emblem of the kingdoms. A thick key coming from around her guardian’s neck, put into a keyhole, an opening. Inside, a stone room, a bunker, a stone table, fit for a coffin.
They were inside it, the sounds of the battle muffled, her grandmother and herself. Was her grandmother, the warrior, the fighter actually crying.? Her grandmother, the queen, looked down at her granddaughter with agony filled eyes and kneeled down from grief and clutched her granddaughter’s thin arms.
“Jen, you need to listen to me,” the queen said in a hardly controlled low alto tone. “I’m going back out there, to get a healer, you must not die
The main faults of a beginner (Me in 2012)... and how to correct them.
Credits and links to the stocks used on the new picture I Ching 05 - Xu (Waiting)
I was a bit ashamed about this picture done in 2012 and chose to redo it entirely (with another house, due to the removal from dA of the first one). But what were the main mistakes and how can we correct them?
Here are the faults which immediately grabbed my eyes:
In 2012, I didn't master the adjustment layers and I tried to blend the pictures together using a full of colored layers (colors picked on every source layer) on a soft light mode: it may be a solution sometimes, but it often gives a bad result as we can see here: The foliages are too yellow compared to the rest of the picture; the house looks like a visible collage; t
Step by Step - Retouching a Fantasy Portrait
Step by step tutorial: simple photomanipulation of a fantasy portrait with a new background.
Model from :iconfrostalexis: Snow White 7
Robin in the snow 01
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8 by annewipf
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Winter Robin before after small by annewipf
HOW TO ADD A REALISTIC SHADOW ON A GROUND TO
My picture was lighted by an early morning sun, I had to think to the way to add some shadows from the balustrade to the ground on the foreground. Here is the way I used and I hope it will be useful for you.
1. COPY AND PASTE on a new layer the balustrade (or any object you want to project the shadow).
Then place the copy just under the original layer, using the Free Transform tool.
2. CHANGE IT INTO A BLACK SILHOUETTE
Using the Image > Adjustments > Brightness Contrast setting, as shown below (Brightness minimum, Contrast maximum).
3. TRACE SOME DIRECTIONAL LINES FROM THE LIGHT SOURCE
Choose the light source (
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