Listening to: The humming of my laptop
Reading: What I typed
Watching: The screen ._,
Drinking: Water. Key to Success.
Hey, so a lot of you guys probably don't even Watch me anymore but that's okay.
I'm sorry I've been inactive... for a year. Things have just been crazy busy. I know these sound like a bunch of excuses but I don't know when I'll be able to be active again, Here's why:
This. This is draining me. I took four classes last semester and I'm taking five now, including a lab. On most days I wake up at six and don't get home till nine. Any other day I'm working.
2. Vocal lessons.
Honestly, right now this is my priority. I've decided I want to pursue a career in music production, though I still want to make art of course. The thing is, I realized that once I started doing art under requests and pressure that it wasn't fun anymore. It became more of a job than fun, and that's when I realized that I really didn't want to pursue it in college, where restrictions and rules put one under even more pressure. Drawing is something that comes to me naturally and I just can't force my brain to work like that anymore. Then, I discovered that I can see myself doing music as a career. Though it's just as stressful as any other art field, it was one of the only other loves I had. In fact, I may have loved it my whole life, but was never encouraged by others to pursue it. I really do love music and I really wanna see where I can go. It's a long process and some nights I don't even get to practice. I've certainly gotten better but I need to be prepared by March.
Don't misunderstand. I do wanna come back and try to post some more. I want to get back into art desperately. Just know that it may take time.
I've had the biggest love affair with this culture for many years, or at least what I know. I'm taking Japanese in college now and I'm trying to get there as quickly as possible. I will always love my home, but I feel like that's where I need to be, even if it's only for a little while.
(And with the elections coming up here in America, the future in this country seem rather bleak ._. At least for the next four years. I honestly need to do some more research before elections, but so far none of them seem very appealing.)
4. General lack of faith in my art skills
I don't know. I seem to not be improving at all. I don't know how to practice because when I was first learning I just picked things up without much research. I'm desperately trying to improve, especially in digital art but I'm not sure where to start. I know this isn't much of an excuse...
Also, Painter 2015? Insane. I feel like I could so so much more but IDK how. That I'm definitely gonna research.
But that's pretty much it...
I HAVE, however, been posting art frequently on my Instagram. It's easier to keep up with. If you'd like to follow it. it's: stripes.01, and please do follow it because I have very recent posts on there.
I'm thinking of dedicating this account more to digital art than anything.
Anyways, for those of you who have stayed, thank you. I love you and you're amazing and I'm really sorry I've been so terrible. I will be back. Lots of love!!!