And so I rest my weary head Dreading what's to come The pain and sorrow the morn will bring Oh please let darkness come Let it absorb me Let it take me Save me from my wretched self For I've no clue how long I'll endure How long I can last Till this body gives out

I've always known my worth Or the lack there of to be true I am nothing more than slime A worthless pile of goo

The water is so dark and deep out where you float All this weight I bear drags me ever down into the depths Beneath the waters ever still surface I struggle to make my way to you, reaching outward as I go But the closer I get the deeper it becomes And down into the abyss I go But something stirs down here with me Ever present, the shadows of murk below Like a comforting blanket wrapping around me Whispering softly in my ear to let go, fade away Embrace the cold kiss of the dark that I secretly desire I look back to you and stretch But you're so far away my gilded Lily Or maybe I'm just too far gone

Is every step I take wrong? Am I even supposed to exist anymore? What could I ever offer to another soul I am but a withered husk of a man A shallow, vapid, pathetic excuse of a curr No... All my time here is borrowed I might as well give it all back

It sits upon the water Still as ice or stone Frozen within it's beauty With a love I've never known Through the wind, the rain, and all the foul weather Beaten, battered and bruised, this beautiful little flower Yet it never withers, never ceases, never dies Just floating on the surface like a star among the skies Each petal of it gilded Radiant as the sun It's beauty everlasting The sweet lily of the pond

I saw the light flicker in the distance I never knew quite what it was And when I reach out for it, it vanished Could it have been just a mirage An eternity lasts forever But without you it seems like more My hopes and dreams left with you Now I'm just laying on the floor Watching the stars shine up above Always out of my reach Calling or their names Singing songs for each A haunting dirge A simple tune To show that things are ending As I just erode back away into nothing

This burning desire will swallow me whole I can't hide from it, it lives in my soul It brings me such pleasure and jubilation It leaves so little for contemplation

Everyday the thumping grows louder Beating stronger and faster As if an army marches to war It's source is not mystery to me The heart I thought was dead and gone Has revived itself and begun it's job All it took was a spark to jump start it Now it will march ever forward To the beat of the drum of love

What is the feeling that I have It's growing deep down inside Every time I hide it from me It seem to multiply I've felt this once before The warmth and exuberation It's something I try to ignore But theres a stunning revelation These feelings arent unnatural Somtimes they can't be helped And if i just embrace them I might not destroy myself But nothing is ever that simple There always turns and twists And it's hard to see where the path goes When it's shrouded deep in mist So I'll close my eyes Take that leap of faith Stretch my arms out to fly Hope I don't land on my face It's not the fall that might destroy me But the abrupt stop at t

Darkness swirls around me Swallowing everying reach for This vortex I cannot escape Pulling me slowly deeper into the quagmire Yet your hand seems to find me And pull me from my despair You lend me strenth to stand again No one knows for sure What strings of fate may tie us together But I know that I would fight the world Just to keep you in it And violently the world will change Break us down and shatter our faiths But I cannot destroy my iron resolve This decision I've made You saved me from my colision corse Brought a smile to my face Let me do the same for you I'll do my best to keep pace So that neither of us will lose this race