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If you're king, I'm queen
You did this to me so you could be king…
You wanted to be the main character in somebody else’s life
So you made me an extra in yours…
We spent our lives sitting on a tree branch for two
With my wing around your shoulder and your arm around mine
Until you caught a glimpse of another being - one of your kind - walking below us
Below OUR tree
You didn’t push me off to invite her up to sit next to you
For I could fly
Instead, you send me on an errand - to swoop down and fetch her up
And seat her next to you
In my place…
And after I’d done the deed and you’d left my side permanently with her - as expected - you’d returned…
…to pay me a midnight visit
Only to drive me into a deep, deep sleep and cut my wings off
To present them to her
Like how the huntsman presented Snow White’s supposed heart to The Evil queen
So now you shall await MY visit
As Queen of the moors
To drive YOU into a deep, deep sleep
And rip out your icy hear
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Letter for Dianne
Dear Dianne,
I can’t even remember the first time you entered my life.
All I remember was everybody thinking I was kinda weird for talking to myself all the time when I was really just talking to...you
And then one day, my childhood friends and I talked about our respective imaginary friends to each other and I brought you up...my imaginary friend.
I named you Dianne afterwards and let you stay through thick and thin - especially through the shitty relationships I had with actual people in the actual world.
However, over the years, everyone else outgrew their imaginary friends who all left with the promise that they would be forgotten as soon as they left...but you stayed on, continuing to communicate with me through my thoughts
There had to be some mistake...
Imaginary friends are evanescent
They don’t carry on till adulthood and talk to their mortals inside their heads.
My mother suggested that you were a devil and I had to resist you
I laughed her off
This isn’t an
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Revised comedy screenplay synopsis
The story centers around the hilarious elements related to public restrooms from the perspective of 10-year-old Alex Chan who often frequents the Grand Dorsal Fin, KL - a budget hotel in the heart of the city - due to his mother’s job as a cleaner in that hotel. Often left to his own devices, Alex spends most of his time in the hotel lobby’s restroom, where he notices many things unique to public restrooms - teenage girls always having to go to the loo in groups of 4 or 5 otherwise the world would end and the phone numbers or profanity scribbled on the walls - ordinary yet laughable things, only from a child’s blatant and innocent perspective. He writes the sights and sounds he experiences in his daily journal.
  Often feeling lonely, Alex befriends some of the hotel’s regular guests and feels more at home with grownups than kids his own age from school. His favourite person to talk to happens to be the frontdesk receptionist, Wong Ah Lian - who often escap
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A bad mixture of different references in one poem
We were always by the riverbanks
With my hand in yours and yours in mine
As friends
As guy and girl
Until your other hand snaked around my waist sneakily and stabbed me in the gut
Like Jack The Ripper and yet another one of his street-walking victims
Like I was nothing more than a...
...whore?
Hush
Don't speak
I know it's what you think
Even if you never said it
It's all evident in your sweetly-veiled insults
The ones you'd deliver under your breath, thinking I never heard it
With your 100-dollar smile on
The very one that led me to think you'd be the perfect shoulder to cry on
When instead, your shoulder was the very one from which the arm that pushed me off the riverbanks and into the river with a splash extended from
So I'm left going under without a hope
Until someone comes along and fishes me out
Maybe even God himself
Whom you shunned me for
Under the pretext of "expelling the immoral brother" - or in my case, the immoral sister
My, my, my...
Yet another religious fool who took t
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Rejection
When the dawn breaks, you'll find my body washed up on the beach
After consuming perfume so I could be nice on the inside
And the necklace I gave you around my neck
You didn't even wear it once
So I'll wear it instead
Bearing your initials
Even in death
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Blood rose
There hangs a bouquet of dried flowers from the edge of my curtain rod
Dull, withered, grey...
Except for the sole red rose
Whose faded-yet-crimson hue stands out among the rest
A metaphor
Regardless of all the dirt and filth I've rolled in over the years
The world still looks at me and sees Your blood over me
Your royal, holy seal on on me
Instead of the Devil I have been betraying You for
But fled from recently
Like a woman packing a bag and fleeing her lover's house in the middle of the night
After a bad fight
Where realization is brought to light
A mistake with whom I shall never re-unite...
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Maleficent
Once upon a dream
You led me down to where the wild roses grow
By the lake
With its clear waters
Birds singing in the trees all around
There were no snakes waiting to strike at very first rustle heard among the grass
Or masked serial killers waiting to grab you and stab you to death among the weeds
Until you…
You lay me down by the banks
With the promise that I’d see you the next morning as soon as I opened my eyes
But instead, watched me fall asleep and as soon as I did, pulled out a dagger and was about to stab me when I turned around at that very moment with a look of mirth and calmness across my sleeping features so you didn’t have the heart to, hence lowering the blade…
…to my wings instead and sliced those off with one swipe - the symbol of my trust and my joy
And beat a retreat before dawn broke
Before I awoke
Taking those severed wings with you - a symbol of YOUR pride and sadism
So you could proudly wear them on your own back and boast about who y
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I never want to have anything to do with you again
A dark auditorium
A sea of faces
My heart still searches for yours
Although my eyes try not to
I put on my gold hoop earrings
And wear my red lipstick
To look good for you
Out of habit
Like I once did
Forgetting that we're now just names in each other's message inboxes
Moving further and further downwards
With decreasing importance
Till they both vanish completely
Like our friendship
And you walk down the aisle with her
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Romanticide
Deleting someone’s number from your phone’s contact list and unfollowing them on social media is like committing suicide. It says “I’m done with it” - life, for suicide. Love, for the latter.
Somehow, everytime I try to delete your number or just unfollow you on all social media accounts and just block you whenever I get tired of your coldness, I…can’t. It’s like pulling out a piece of yourself (because the person - you - is unfortunately now a part of me). Anyway, it’s not like you stay cold so getting rid of you would be easier. In a few days or even just a few hours, you warm back up again and spring back up into my life. I don’t know why the fuck can’t you just let me let go of you in peace. It’s like a suicide I can only contemplate but never attempt.
Today was different. I finally got the strength to get rid of you. My fingers actually managed to hit the ‘delete’ option in my phone when I highligh
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You did this to me so you could be king…
You wanted to be the main character in somebody else’s life

So you made me an extra in yours…

We spent our lives sitting on a tree branch for two
With my wing around your shoulder and your arm around mine
Until you caught a glimpse of another being - one of your kind - walking below us

Below OUR tree

You didn’t push me off to invite her up to sit next to you

For I could fly

Instead, you send me on an errand - to swoop down and fetch her up
And seat her next to you

In my place…

And after I’d done the deed and you’d left my side permanently with her - as expected - you’d returned…

…to pay me a midnight visit

Only to drive me into a deep, deep sleep and cut my wings off
To present them to her
Like how the huntsman presented Snow White’s supposed heart to The Evil queen

So now you shall await MY visit

As Queen of the moors

To drive YOU into a deep, deep sleep

And rip out your icy heart

You are no king to me…

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You make your bed each morning
With the lacy pillows and floral comforter
For each new girl that messes it back up again later at night
Later at night when the city lights illuminate the streets outside
And the room stinks of cigarettes and sin

But no love…

And she lies asleep with her head on your chest
Like the Linda to your Gia Carangi

While you lay on your back, staring at the ceiling
At the abyss that never does stare back at you
Wishing morning would come soon
So you could push her off
And retreat to the comfort and privacy of your bathroom
To lie in the bathtub, turn on the faucet and submerge yourself under the icy cold water
Like they do in all those Tumblr pictures

Never to re-surface

A metaphor…

For the icy water he’d left you to sink under after you’d tread the thin ice that layered the pool of lies - his eyes

A rustle outside as she gets up and leaves…

A ring of light above the water when you open your eyes…

Someone better than both him OR her has arrived to pull you out


And into His arms for eternity

There will be no more SHE’s coming around

Neither will there be HE’s

Only…

…HIM.
I won! My script got chosen :dummy: Only, my lecturer asked me to change just a few things. Otherwise everything else was spot-on :la:
Dear Dianne,

I can’t even remember the first time you entered my life.
All I remember was everybody thinking I was kinda weird for talking to myself all the time when I was really just talking to...you

And then one day, my childhood friends and I talked about our respective imaginary friends to each other and I brought you up...my imaginary friend.

I named you Dianne afterwards and let you stay through thick and thin - especially through the shitty relationships I had with actual people in the actual world.

However, over the years, everyone else outgrew their imaginary friends who all left with the promise that they would be forgotten as soon as they left...but you stayed on, continuing to communicate with me through my thoughts

There had to be some mistake...

Imaginary friends are evanescent

They don’t carry on till adulthood and talk to their mortals inside their heads.

My mother suggested that you were a devil and I had to resist you

I laughed her off

This isn’t an old wives’ tale

You're just my alter ego

The black swan to my white

There is no resisting THAT

Till we are both dead,
...Dear Dianne.
  • Listening to: Pas de Deux Bird Creek
  • Drinking: Water
Mainly cuz' I realize how long I've abandoned it but mostly cuz' I'm at the end of my semester and am bored outta my mind lol. Expect to see more writings or photos or whatever being posted :dalove:

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Davinah M.
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Malaysia
I'm a Malaysian girl of Indian descent who used to be a "butch"(cross-dressing female) before this. My rather odd username was made when I was still living out that phase, which was when I was 15 years old. I wasn't a lesbian or anything-like most girls who adapt to the cross-dressing/"butch" lifestyle but still I was one- a butch, that is (hence the name straight-butch) Then I added my date of birth, which is the 29th of March to it and it became 'straight-butch29' , get it? Teens go through many phases in life, which is what I was obviously going through and I think this username will serve as a reminder of THIS particular phase forever. NOW...I'm obviously a girly-girl :D My hair's longer and I like leaving it loose and I don't mind being in skirts and dresses. Oh...and make up too :flirty:

In the meantime,
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No problem. Thank YOU for the faves as well :D
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