Well, after trying once again for over a year with a human. This is been the hardest relationship ever and I wanted things I never wanted b4 with her. Well, it just shows to my self that a vamp is not meant to be happy or with a human. It's never going to work no matter what I feel or think. Time to go over to black magik and block feelings once and for all. Block them where they will never come out again. Never fall for anyone again. I will search for as long as I need to and I will cross that line I said I would never cross if I have to, to find and have that spell that will block or remove emotions. I can never get close again after this a
Only time can tell where things will go from here, you let a fucking emotion escape you, just one and you lose all focus and bindings. As this dumb vamp, let's another in you wonder wtf are you doing? You know humans and vamp do not work, can and never will work. But the lust, the darkness, the love, make you want it over anything. Making you feel would you could have and then its rip from your bleeding vamp heart. This vamp should not keep falling deeper and deeper for her every day. So scared that this one will be gone too soon. You do everything for her and you still feel like it's not enough or you do it for her and then she does not und
No matter how hard to try, no matter what ritual you do, no matter how
you try to keep a vampiric soul for falling for another in this world,
you just never seem to be able to keep it all locked away for long.
Vampiric souls link to others in ways you can’t imagine, you try to hide
what you are, try to stay away but then the lust takes over and its
break out and all the vampiric feelings you thought you locked away and
will never surface come out and you once again are in a battle to live.
You know as a vampire, things are not meant for you to be with another.
You are so high on the lust, the feelings, the smell of her b