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SO for about a week or so my friends and i have been playing transformice (super fun game btw), my friend rat decides to marry me on said game. that happens, and he starts calling me his husband, which makes me lose it a little because i had a crush on him. things progress, and we kinda have convos that get a little gay, until i finally realize: "oh fuck. he's into me too. i am an idiot and a fool" so i march up to him in his dms and tell him that we're both awful at communication and that we're both gay for each other. and now i have a boyfriend. steph yelled at me for how stupid i was lmao life is a bad fanfic
i feel divine, like a god that shouldn't exist, that defies natural order. but i am here, i am divine, i do whatever the hell i want to. there isn't any feeling.

i feel what should be fear. there isn't any though, i already know what's coming. this is just the calm before the storm, and it's gonna get a hell of a lot worse. 

i am the duality of man, in one being. divinity and despair.
1. what’s your gender? 
trans guy!

2. what are your pronouns?

3. is your family accepting?
mostly, wont let me change my name :/

4. what do you wish you could tell your past self?
you will have. so many crushes. all on guys and nb people.

5. what is your sexuality?
bisexual! (attracted to guys and nb folks specifically)

6. favorite color?

7. sun gay or moon gay?
moon gay

8. when did you find out your sexuality?
it fluctuated for quite a bit in 8th grade, when i was fully exposed to all of the identities of the lgbt community, but it settled out at the end of freshman year

9. how was your day?
i slept in a van and nervously walked thru a casino to get ice cream

10. do you have any gay friends?
my entire friend group

11. what’s your favorite hobby?
fuckin' around with my friends

12. who’s the best gay icon in your opinion?
billy joe armstrong (technically he's bi but im a Fucker)

13. which pride flags do you like the most design/color wise?
bi!!! its rlly nice w/ the pink, purple, nd blue

14. are you openly out?
online yes, and im trying to be more out irl

15. are you comfortable with yourself?

16. bottom or top?

17. femme or butch?

18. do you bind?
i bind occasionally, since my binder is unsafe : (

19. do you shave?

20. if you could date anyone you wanted, who would it be?
i do love my current bf, but there is someone i still have mild interest in (no im not telling)

21. do you have a partner (s)?

22. describe your partner (s)?
angel is a very sweet and kind person, who makes great jokes and is kinda cursed but he's just so PERFECT UGH

23. have you ever dated anyone of the same sex?
ive pretty much only dated same sex ppl

24. anyone of another sex?
technically? i dated them before they came out as trans
25. pastel gay or goth gay?
fuck you. emo-punk gay

26. favorite dad in dream daddies?

27. tell me a random fact about yourself?
i drink enough caffeine to kill a horse

28. do you own any pride flags/merch?
bi flag pin, transmasc pin, and trans flag!

29. have you ever been to a pride parade?
kinda, the place i was visiting 2 days ago had pride going on and i went and bought a trans flag. i couldnt stay tho : (

30. any advice to someone who isn’t out or who is exploring themselves?
take your time! really figure urself out! it isnt bad to change your pronouns to figure out who you are, and its okay to change often! you are valid
i was recently scrollin' through tumblr and found a thing that's essentially a clone of myspace, and i signed up, hmu my url on it is…
Hello, hello! I'm reopening my commissions because I am in need of a chest binder, and I don't have the ability to get a "real" job.
A few policies before I list prices, I will NOT draw anything related to: hetalia, NSFW, extreme mech designs (like transformers), youtuber egos, fetishes, pedophilia, racism, homophobia, transphobia, or any other bigoted thing. I only take money through Paypal, and I expect payment before I start working. 

Lineart: $10 for bust, but it can be bumped up to $15 for a waist or fullbody. $5 extra for another character, and $2 extra for the addition of one (1) color.

Colored: $15 for bust, but it can be bumped up to $20 for a waist or fullbody. $5 extra for another character, $2 extra for a simplistic background, $4 for a complex background.

Colored & Shaded: $20 for bust, but it can be bumped up to $25 for a waist or fullbody. $5 extra for another character, $2 extra for a simplistic background, $4 for a complex background.

Contact me on discord at unGODly#3945 to start!
1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
williams (i'd be marrying my dude mewwt)
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?

i dunno
4. When were you on the phone last? 
5. What are you excited for?
chaos order reboot rp
6. What were you doing yesterday?
do you think i cam remember that?
7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
my friend zach
8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
i have no clue
9. Have a best friend?

three! vivian, angel, and steph
10. Are you scared to fall in love?
yes but no
11. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
12. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
steph's dad
13. What time is it right this second?
9:44 PM
14. What do you want right now?
food and/or a boyfriend
15. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
with? probably one of my cats
16. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
single and pining my dude
17. When was the last time you cried?
uhhh bout 5-7 days ago?
18. Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)?
they think we do, i know that they're ableist fucks who ignore my mental illnesses
19. Do you find it hard to trust others?
somewhat, im used to people betraying me
20. How fast does your mind change?
21. I bet you miss somebody right now.
fuck dude i sure do
22. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
i dont know my mental state unless its positive, negative, void, or horny
23. Why do you think so many people cheat?
greed? they want things they cant have, but say "fuck that noise" and do it anyway
24. Tell me, what's on your mind?
the concept of doing a group cosplay at ren fest
25. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
freedom from school
26. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
i did for about ~14 years of my life
27. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
last night
28. When is your next road trip?
this summer
29. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
30. How's your heart?
emotional? confused, in love with too many people. physical? i dont know SHIT abt my body
31. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?  
my dude that's a big insecurity of mine
32. You think somebody's in love with you?
whoever the hell star is, but he hasnt been talkin' to me recently
33. What are you planning on doing after this?
34. Next time you will kiss someone?
good luck, i dont expect myself to make it to my next birthday, let alone meeting someone i love romantically irl
35. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
i dont think so
36. Who do you not get along with?
my guy the list is too long
37. What does your 3rd recent text say?
"uhhh they're just normal rabbit legs"
38. What are you wearing right now?
dream factory shirt, expensive ass hoodie from disney, pajama pants
39. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
im by myself
40. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
fuck dude, its been too long
41. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
for a boy, probably jeremy, for a girl, most likely dahlia
42. How did you feel when you woke up?
i cant remember that
43. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
i wish the party bus would be active
44. Do you crack your knuckles?
i physically cant
45. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
listening to all the voodoopunk related songs on repeat w/ steph
46. What are your LEGAL initials?
47. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Blood In Gold
48. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
earlier when i thought of konny's old ass aradia cosplay
49. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
i'd cry, but let them go
50. Explain your last awkward moment?
i dont remember
51. Are you afraid of the dark?
52. Do you have good vision?
53. Have you ever tripped someone?
i've tried
54. Have you ever slapped someone?
yes, i plan to do it again
55. Are you Irish?
56. Do you use chap stick?
makes my lips greasy, so no
57. Do you have any scars?
all over my shoulders and arms
58. Is there someone you will never forgive?
of course
59. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
60. Name the last person to text you?
61. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
sweet jesus, no!
62. Can you go in public looking like you do?
63. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a A?
64. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
65. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
do you expect me to have a future?
66. Do you fall for people easily?
seeing as i got over my crush on konny and near immediately got interested in someone else, yeah
67. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
my irl friend emil
68. Do you miss the way things used to be?
sometimes, yeah
69. Song you're thinking of right now?
the ending of discussion 2 (i think) from the new albion radio hour
70. Want someone back in your life?
i dunno
71. Will tomorrow be better than today?
yeah! i have late start
72. What's the color of the shirt you are wearing?
73. Who was the first friend that you had?
sophia, a girl i met in 2nd grade
74. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
75. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
76. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
i put on a facade that sometimes melds into my actual mood
77. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
78. What do you wear when you sleep?
79. Are you obsessed with something right now?
planning out and thinkin' of the chaos order reboot rp
80. The first person you loved is?
i dont know
81. Something terrible happened with you?
christmas eve
82. You are locked up with someone you love, what happens?
we're both really awkward so i guess we'd try to chill n' communicate (he's nonverbal and i dont know asl)
83. If you could wish something, what would it be?
i cant decide
85. When you are alone, what do you think about?
Oh, You Know ;)
86. How was your first kiss?
87. What's your favorite music genre?
it changes, so idk
88. Are you going to tag people to do this?
nope, but i did get this from figgoprince (not tagging because he asked to not be tagged)
I'm going to be going by Patrick now. This is old news, but Elias has also broken up with me. Deleted all my shitty love songs/poems for a reason I'm not willing to share. Otherwise, its the same mental decline of my issues getting worse.
Hey y'all, it's 2:10 AM and boy am I ready to make a mistake

SO if anyone has a discord and wants to join my Cool Friends Club hmu

BUT ya gotta be like,,, a decent person, because my friends and I are traumatized and mentally ill teenagers (and a cluster suicide waiting to happen, but thankfully it hasn't yet). Ya gotta be willin' to follow the rules and to avoid talking about triggers n shit outside the special blacklist chat for stuff like that. I'm not postin' the link here because I'm Paranoid, but also I don't want the wrong people joining my server lol
Yaaay! I'm 16 years of age now! I may have had a breakdown at like 2 AM last night, but currently I'm fine.
I'm sorry in advance if suddenly my art gets more negative or I post less. My mental state is on the decline, since it has a positive/negative pattern. It's been a bit fucky since December, but it's hitting harder now, especially now that I've "run out" of new and positive things to keep me happy. All of this is normal, but please expect more vent art or less art in general.

It'd be amazing if you didn't leave unnecessary comments on this post, thank you.
If you can, please commission me! I want to draw things for people, and I'm kind of in an art block. I think my prices are decent, then again you may disagree, so here's the main info! If you can't commission me, maybe tell your friends about my art and encourage them to follow me!

Lineart: Typically $10, but you may add an extra color for highlights (like in my Firebrand/HABIT/Patrick Aesthetic photos) for $2 extra! Lineart will always be on a white background.

Flat color: $15, usually it's a bust drawing, but can be made into a fullbody for $2 extra. Adding more than one character costs $5 extra! Background can either be single color, gradient of your choice, or a fancy background, no extra costs.

Shaded: $20, usually a bust drawing, but can be made into a fullbody for $2 extra. Adding more than one character costs $5 extra! Background can either be single color, gradient of your choice, or a fancy background, no extra costs.

What I WILL draw: Furries, fanart, gore, MLP characters, horror things, OCs, human OCs, etc.

What I WON'T draw: Complicated mech, anything hateful (homophobic, transphobic, racist, etc.), nsfw, real life people (like Markiplier fanart, yes that includes Darkiplier and things like that), anything having to do with Hetalia (it's one of my main triggers due to abuse and the fact its really racist), etc.

You can contact me here, on tumblr at staticsignalz, or on discord at unGODly#3945
Aiight y'all, the reason why I've been posting so much vent art and shit like that is because I've been stuck in one of those fucken uhhhhhhh bad mental illness loops. Yeah those aren't fun. I'll try to post normal art soon, y'all, shit can be fucked tho. 

In other news, my furby family has expanded a bit, including a furby that Whizzer (Kat) sent me. They don't have a name, and if you have a recommendation, comment with the name! (Reminder that my naming theme for them is typically Slenderverse themed)
I have a poetic but fucked up way of describing myself. Due to the extremely high possibility of DPD (Dependent Personality Disorder), I'm like... a pet to my friends. Not in the fetish way or anything like that. It's just that I'm so dependent on other people telling me what to do and how to act, that I'm essentially like their pet. I'm loyal, helpful, but I barely have a sense of self. I exist for them, not for myself, because there is nothing for myself.

You may be thinking, or typing into the comments, "Hey Evan, that's fucked up! You should live for you, and your life!" but the thing is. I don't know what that would entail. I rely on other people to tell me what I'm like, and I don't know what's best for me. I know it sounds fucked, and it really is, but it's how I lived for the past two to three years.

Another way of thinking about it is that I'm a robot. The people who I trust program me to how they want me to act. If they don't program me, I'm worthless and empty.
Name: Evan Bennett-Che
Nicknames: Clef, Clmef (thanks Konny >.>), Hobgoblin, Furry, Fucker, Gamer, Thot, Email, Dirty little ice cream slut
Age: 15
Pronouns: He/him
Orientation: Bisexual
Mental Illnesses: Autism, OSDD, depression, anxiety, psychosis, possible DPD
Best friends: Alex and Katrina
Significant Other: Elias! (akaanamir)
Favorite Movie: Donnie Darko
Favorite Musical: Dolls of New Albion
Favorite Series: I'm a slut for any Slenderverse series
Extra Stuff: I draw, write, and die slowly. 
Other Social Media:
Tumblr: furrycoremutual (main) // staticsignalz (art) // slenderverse-furbies (furby blog) // psychosis-induced (arg blog)
Youtube: Static Signalz
Instagram: static_signalz (note: very inactive there!)