Why? you may ask well I lost my job today. That in and of it's self just sux big time. And the timing couldn't be worse with the holidays around the corner. I'm not so worried about bills yet, but more about how crappy Christmas will probably be for my kids. I'm thinking we'll just stay home so they don't have to see anyone else get presents and them not, also I wont feel quite as guilty that I ruined the holidays for them. We shall see, at the moment I'm in the middle of a pity party, which I've told myself has to be over by the time I get up tomorrow, one day is enough to mope around.
I've been thinking about just going back to school and
The year is almost over, I can't believe how the time has flown by. I feel so unaccomplished for the year. Sure I've taken a few good pictures but I feel as though I have fell short when it came to really great ones. I'm hoping it will turn around in the next couple of weeks or so, or we will just have to call 2009 a wash. I'm hoping 2010 brings great things my way, I'm hoping my photography starts to really take off & I'm not feeling like I am begging people to "let me take their pix". It's very frustrating because I know what I am capable of. But since the average person can not see into my mind or take the time to look at my work they will
I've notices something, everything seems a lil bit better when I get some ink done. It's like therapy through ink, wellness through pain, happiness from my skin getting color. I've had other "therapy's" but none have seemed to work out quite as well as getting some new ink. That's probably a bad thing, I think I'm a little insane or getting there. I feel like giving up on all my hopes and dreams. Well I can't really say I have any left, they just kinda left me behind. I feel so I don't know, hollow, empty, almost like I'm wasting the air I breath. The more I think about where I want my life to be, the more lost I feel. Because I have no id