So I have been thinking about being on here and what it has done to me and my mental health and i've realized that it is not a safe environment for someone like me to be in. If I try and grow I get shamed and ridiculed and i'm just done trying to bother doing art. I just don't want to share anything I do anymore because of how people have treated me about it in the past.
My art style is horrible and it doesn't seem to ever get better and honestly I have no motivation to even try and improve
Also with all the people who just keep avoiding my blocks because they think it's justified because I messed up too many times. It's becoming exhausting, i'm sick of all the fighting and the nonsense.
I realized there is no way for me to be left alone unless I go away.
So i'm going.
If I come back, it will be on my own terms and hopefully I will be a lot more mentally stable and clear headed.
I will leave with this final thing, so maybe some people will feel a little safer.
I've never meant to cause anyone any real harm. If I did make you feel horrible about who you are, I truly am sorry. My intentions were corrupt, I will admit. I felt hurt so I back lashed. It has always been a problem of mine and i've been fighting it for awhile. I've been avoiding being online just so I could control myself from responding to the current issues going about.
Just know, that I would never cause any of you any real harm on purpose and i'm sorry if anything i ever did or said had offended you in any point over the last 6-7 years i've been on deviantart.
Thank you to all my friends who I had made on here, you have been such nice people and i'm so lucky to have gotten to talk to all of you.
The following people, who entered my 'Draw My OC Contest' please note me if you'd like your consolation prize of $10CristalMomoStarMrBenDoodleIsha-Prose0522
I know it's not a lot but it doesn't feel right choosing a winner right now