Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I like being together with them, but it doesn't feel much different to do so during christmas.
Funny enough, even Yuletide raced me by without a backward glance. I used to write yulecards and spread the wishes, since that holiday has so much more meaning to me. It's not about peace and tolerance, and all the stuff that's being put into christmas instead of being spread over the year... Yuletide is about the return of the light, the slow halt of the darker days and the growth and awakening of all things on Earth..
I've thought about it and I think I know why I'm so obliviate this year.. I'm so done with 2009. I've got everything I could from this year and I wish it was 2010 already. The end of the year seemed nothing to live forward to, because my year, technically, has already ended. The next checkpoint will be the Yulemeet with our pagan brotherhood Tuatha De Lugh, which I deem not the end of the year, but more the beginning of the new, a sort of timeless place in between even..
2010 is gonna be a hell of a ride. Not just for me I think, but for a lot of people... The conjunctions that have taken place during the last few months reach their peak on the 31st of december, when the Blue moon turns Red. It will be like the starting signal for the next race, and I'm so totally ready for it. Bring it on. Whatever may come across, whatever may come in my way, I will face it like an Adventurer. The time of defense and survival is over, now it's time to grow again. I don't know what I will meet in this new year.. And I must admit; I am a bit frightened. But that's alright, because I know that once you beat your way through the obstacles, you always reach the finish line as a stronger person... Let's do it, people.
Merry Christmas and a lovely Yuletide to all of you. May the reborn light warm your faces and show you the next few steps of the way.
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