So you don't have to read just if you're interested.
I got quite emotional during writing the second theme. XD
Still I would like you to at least read the sixth subject! Thanks!
Sooo guys...
I feel so weird and feel like I need to tell someone something, expecially I thought about a few things I want to talk about with you all.
I'm just gonna start. (Just to tell, its 11 p.m. Here and I am tired but I can't sleep, so please forgive me my grammar etc.)
First.
For me this stamp means not only the kind of art, like photography, sculpting, writing, photo manipulating etc.
I love this stamp since I found it and for me it means that no matter if you're a beginner artist or a professional, if your anatomy is right or not, or anything.
What you do is art and it's beautiful!
I've heard of and readen a few very rude comments on beginner artist art. And this is NOT okay.
Everyone was a beginner once - and a lot of people forgot that.
Have these people ever thought about how it feels getting such comments? Cuz it feels bad, it makes you feel like shit and worthless.
I know it, because I've got a lot of rude comments in Facebook art groups, and it feelt bad.
Just don't write rude comments. Before you write one, think about how the artist will feel as he/she reads your comment.
I could talk about this all day, but I don't want to spam you more then I already do.
Second.
My fursona Star.
Some of you might know that Star is my fursona, but is aswell the main character of my story/future comic. And exactly this makes all this fursona thing very hard.
I can't fully feel Star being ME, because all her past, relationship and family etc. is connected to the story. And her powers just make it more harder.
Like... I don't know how to say this.
I want her to be me, but I don't want the story to be changed or even deleted.
See, my username is Star, most of the peoples call me Star, I dream about Star, I'm proud of having her as a fursona and I love her - yet I don't feel she is fully me.
I've tried to make another fursona, who can really be me, but I can't.
I want her to be a normal wolf, without any powers. Without being the Guardian of life. Without having pups or a mate. Just to be me.
I am just helpless here.
I've been roleplaying with Star quite often lately, where she was just a normal wolf. And I enjoyed it just soooo much, I felt like she was me, really me.
I still keep trying to make another fursona, or change Star. But I just don't know.
And. Ships. Yes you might know that Star has a mate -Ragnar- and pups -Asya and Assain-. But this family is her family in my story. So don't wonder if you see her with a different male on a drawing.
Fourth
Introducing my secondary fursona
(Yes I have one <3 Still even if you love her so much and she is like me, this didn't helped me with the problems of Star)
Here she is, meet Fuchsi <3
I created her as a simple random roleplay-character for a RPG on WhatsApp maybe about 5-6 months ago (?)
But as we roleplayed more and more, I started to like her more and more, and finally about 1,5 months ago, I decided to take her as my secondary fursona.
And I love this baby <3333
She is just a mirror of me. How she acts, how she feels, how she solves her promlems, her childish and playful personality. It's just all me <3
Not gonna tell much more now, you'll have to wait until I submit her ref.
Fifth
Back to Star... and the new ship/relationship.
I want to introduce Rick to you.
He is like the funniest but most romantic character I have ever had, and I love him (Just as Star does.)
He was first a random male I roleplayed in our roleplay between Star and Shei with @/Sazteen. But as the story went, they got closer to each other and then finally became a pair.
-Not gonna spoil more-
Sixth
My stress in art.
Commissions, contest entrys, requests, ARPG stuff and personal art are too much together.
This is why I'm gonna close commissions and art trades and won't join any contests for a while.
I just need time for personal art (incl. ARPG stuff).
I aswell will start to animate, and animating takes time. (If anyone can recommend someanimating programs -expect Photoshop and MS Video maker- I would be thankful)
Maybe, I will make a few YCHs if I'm in needs of points or open sketch commissions, but not gonna open them fully for a while.
For the peps who read this and I owe art to:
I will finish your commissions as soon as possible, I didn't forgot them.
Seventh
My art style and animating
Well, my style is semi-realistic, and I like this style. I'm half satisfied with it.
But, I wish to have another art style aswell. Something more unrealistic, somewhat cartoony. But still I didn't found it, but I'm working on it. (Another reason why I close comms and everything)
Aswell, I need this more unrealistic style for animating. Something that makes the animating easier but still looking good.
So, style changes on the way. ^^
I think I'm done.
Have a nice and lovely day/night
