[WoLF] Rowana | Loner

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► :: I D E N T I T Y :: ◄

Name: Rowana
    Alias: Row, Vanya (does not use this name anymore)

Sex: Female
    Gender: Female
Age: Young Adult (1y 9m (Dez 2019))

Bloodline(s): 25% Valley x 25% Bayou x 50% Timber

    Height: 76 cm / 30 in (37" when mature)
    Weight: 35 kg / 75 lbs (140 lbs when mature)

Voice: Paige Duddy from XLYO [Link]
    Mannerisms: Flirty, Outgoing, Suspicious

Physical Description: 
    Fur: Brown, red and tan coloration
    Build: Lean and thin body with long legs
    Scars: Multiple across her face, left shoulder and two on her back, burned pawpads
Rare Traits/Birth Traits: Heterochromia (Left eye is yellowish, right is orange)
    Related Deficiencies: N/A

Guild: Loner
    Rank: --

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Traits:

► :: H I S T O R Y :: ◄

Pre-Group History: _{(~1880 Words)}
[Tension in the Family]
^{Rowana was born to the leader and Lunaris of Cean'Nari, Tatsuya, and a strong warrior of the pack, Roan, along with her three siblings by the name Vanya. Her older brother was named Folkvar, and her younger siblings Zarenel and Oscuro. And really, the first few months were happy. Even things between Roan and Tatsuya were going almost fine, definitely better than prior the birth of their pups. So things were going fine. Both parents were involved with the raising of the pups. That's what the pups thought. The truth was, their relationship wasn't any better, just worse. They didn't know about their father's crime just weeks before their birth. They didn't know about the fact that Tatsuya had left Roan alone in her grief for her ex-mate, not supporting her enough when he should have. But they were too young to know. Everything was about playing and having fun. A dreamworld that they were living in, comparedto reality.
What Vanya and her older brother didn't know yet, that they were born with great responsibility and destiny, just like their father and uncle. One day they would lead Cean'Nari, side by side. And they were good siblings. Even closer after their learned about their future. And the way young pups are, Vanya would always blabber about her future rank to her sibling, while she did not consider herself more important than them.
After a while of maturing though, even the young pups noticed that the tension between their parents, despite them trying to hide it from the pups and put on fake smiles. They kind of failed. Especially after Roan left for days with their uncle Deucalion. She was never the same after returning. Rowana clearly remembers the day. When their mother returned with another wolf's coat across her back and a bare skull on her head like a mask. A scary one. But the litter greated her with a warm welcome, being the first to run up to her. But unlike them, their father was more angered, even if he was relieved that she had returned to their children. Roan had told them to go away, but the pups still caught everything that went down. That was the day when their parents snapped. When they showed a side of theirs that none of the pups expected or wanted to see. Both adults verbally snapped at eachother throwing spiteful words at the other. And the whole quarrel lead to their mother foridding their father from interracting with his pups.
Nothing was the same after that day. Their happy childhood turned bitter and cold.
Every day was similar after that. Just the same daily routine. Vanya and Folkvar were given their new ranks - they were now heirs to the sun and the moon. And they were happy. As happy as a young adult can be in times where their parents constantly argue or just don't even interract with eachother.} 
[I turned against my own blood]
^{Things kept getting worse between Tatsuya and Roan, and it left a bad taste in the pups' mouth as they got older and more mature, understanding more and more of what was going on in their family. And it was getting on their relationship as siblings. While neither Vanya, nor Folkvar were happy about their parents behavior, they stood loyally to Cean'Nari. But Zarenel and Oscuro not. They ran. And Folkvar and Vanya ran right after them. 
The siblings got into a fight, with two of them wanting to run from the toxicity of their family, and the other two wanting their siblings to stay. Vanya was scarred. With finding no comfort in their own parents, her only safe place was her siblings. All of them. And the fact that Osc and Zarenel wanted to leave her and Folkvar behind hurt. The brawl between the four ended in all of them being scarred and bleeding. And in the end, Folvar and Vanya let them run. It was pointless. It was sick that they have drawn the blood of their own siblings. She was sick - even if it was not her who cut through skin first.
Folkvar and Vanya returned home with the news of their siblings having left. And it broke their parents even more.
Vanya didn't know whether she should be angry at her parents for being so arrogant and stupid - or feel pity for the fact how broken and troubled they were.
It wasn't their parents who were the only ones broken. Their whole family was. They all were a mess.}
[I never saw you coming]
^{Wanting to be by herself for a longer period of time, Vanya left the densite alone and roamed in noone's-land. She crossed the lower parts of the mountains, leaving the valley of Ceblain behind. And that's where she encountered him - a dark coated brown male, just a bit older than she was, by the name Faolan, who lived just at the foot of the mountains. It was an innocent first meeting. They got along pretty well. He was friendly and playful, and listened to Vanya's problems as she cried them out to the stranger male, in all her frustration. And he even had a few supportive words to her before Vanya said her goodbye, but promised to come by soon. And that's where it started. The sneaking out at night, and coming back before anyone would wake up. And slowly, Faolan became something more than a friend. The closer they got, the more the two unfolded their true selves. Faolan turned out to be different from who he was the first time she had met him. He wasn't the good guy anymore. But Vanya didn't mind. She liked him. She loved the way he said her name, she loved the way he spoild her. More than she should have. For the most part, her sneaking off was not noticed, and even if it was, she always had a clever excuse.
But there was one thing she had no excuse for. The sickness she started to feel in the mornings. She was preagnant.
The female was grasped by panick at the realization and the uncertainity of how she should deal with it. She knew, her parents would be disappointed and angry. 
Vanya knew that she didn't want them to know. She didn't want to stay. And she was too afraid to tell Folkvar, let alone Faolan. 
So she waited as long as she could hide it from her family. Then she would tell Folkvar and say goodbye - then leave.}
[Home to Ashes]
^{It was the day before she'd tell Folkvar. The female was so nervous that she had to stay away from the densite because her behavior would've given away that she was hiding something. So, the she-wolf spent most of the day with sleeping in the shadows of a tree. 
A weird scent rattled her from her sleep. Her eyes snapped open to see fire. Fire everywhere. Howls and barks coming from everywhere. And it wasn't just Cean'Nari. The whole valley lit on fire. Panick got control over Vanya as she ran. Her pups. She had to run for them. To keep them safe and alive. So she ran towards the mountains without looking back, tears streaming down her cheeks as she heard the suffering behind her back, the loud cracking of fire - a sound that would haunt her forever. 
Vanya ran as long, and climbed the mountain as high as she had to to be safe from the fire. And when she was high enough, Vanya finally turned around breaking out in a desperate cry as she watched the whole valley burn. Her home, her family, her pack. They were dying. She stayed as long as she could, watching in terror, until the grey clouds that blanketed the valley made it hard to breathe, and she was forced to climb higher and hide in a cave. 
The day after Vanya climbed down the mountain. The fire wasn't out still. But it left Ceblain's territory. It ate the grass and the few tree's the grassland had before leaving to consume the woods of Ty'Koga and FellWood. Everything that used to be green was black now. The hot ashes and small burning spots left her paws burned and scarred, but she had to see if anyone had survived. But there weren't survivors. Just burned bodies of deer, hares, other animals - and wolves. 
Ther was noone left who mattered-}
[I ignored the fact that you are a monster behind sweet words]
^{There was nothing left for her in Ceblain, so Vanya crossed the mountains. But she still feared to tell Faolan. And instead, decided to live on her own for as long as possible before telling the male about their pups. But living alone and pregnant was a lot harder than she imagined. In the beginning, she could hunt properly. But the bigger her belly grew, the more tired she was, and the smaller the prey was that she could catch. And she was loosing weight, rapidly. But Vanya still refused to come out to Faolan. On little food, but she managed to survive for almost a long while, and the date of her litter's birth was coming closer swiftly. She knew she would not be able to live on her own once the pups were born. The little food she could gather would not be enough - it was barely enough now.
And what she feared became reality. Faolan, instead of reacting happily, lashed out on her physically, unable to control his fury. Too weak and too exhausted, there wasn't much Vanya could do to her defense expect begging the brute to stop. And eventually he did, leaving her severely wounded and bleeding.} 
[Even them - I even lost them] 
<sup>Vanya awoke in a place she had never seen before. A white room and a cage, bandages all over her body. But she was at least feeling better - still, she was worried. Did they survive it?
That was the first time Vanya had seen the two legged creatures. They'd sometimes walk by her cage, sometimes even crouching down to stare at her for a short while and all Vanya did was stare back, sometimes pull her lips back when they'd make rapid movements. She was given food and a hay bedding to lay on comfortably. Which she was grateful for.
Just the day after waking up in this strange place Vanya went into labor and gave birth. But they were all born dead. There was no crying, no movement. The only thing Vanya found a bit of comfort in was cleaning them all and giving them all a name, Zukko, Reyna, Faun, Faust and at last Roun. A while after the two-legged took the stillborn pups, but continued to tend for Vanya's wounds. 

Eventually she was released in Lunar in good physical health, but the she wolf would never be the same. Everything was taken from her. And she just wanted to forget. If they were gone, she didn't want to think about them and feel the pain of loss. So the she wolf decided that one step towards leaving her past behind was leaving her name behind. 
Rowana, that's how she would introduce herself from now on.</sup>

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Group History: 
2019:

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Mate: None
    Crush: None
    Past relationships: Faolan | Unknown | Assumed Alive | NPC
Offsprings: 
    1st Litter with Faolan (NPCs), all deceased: Zukko, Reyna, Faun, Faust, Ruon

Family 
    Father: Tatsuya | Morass | Alive
    Mother: Roan | Morass | Alive
    Siblings: 
        Folkvar | Loner | Alive
        Oscuro | Unknown | Assumed dead (NPC)
        Zarenel | Loner | Assumed dead
    Other: --

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Timezone: CEST
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