|This is a screenshot I took from my latest video: You Don't Know Applejackx youtu.be/aDjyvT3DSzE|
I began to feel alive again. Heck I can even say it saved my life as I was going under severe depression and got some suicidal thoughts. The combination of the good show and the positive fandom gives me hope it would be part of more cultural changes, more positive outcomes. Maybe it was naive to think this now, but it was something I could hang on to brighten my dark days and give something to hope for. And all those friends I made along my brony days while I interacted on Twitter and the other social media is what breaks my solitude.
But the fandom today? So many fights, dramas, snober others within and out the fandom, too much of fascism and neo-Nazis even! I already got a foot out the fandom last year after Sibsy unleashed anger at me while my mother was between life and death in a hospital. Now I can’t watch an episode without remembering it. I can’t even watch the episodes with the twicane in it. “Slice of Life” is now painful to watch.
I tried to enjoy the movie last week. It got everything to be a success and a lot enjoyed it, but I didn’t. I smiled a few times at best. I no longer listen to brony music. I enjoyed them as part of the fandom and the show, with talented musicians. I don’t feel it anymore.
I no longer see myself in this fandom. This is not why I called myself a brony. So I no longer do. I no longer plan to create any panel at a convention as I don’t even consider going at any from now on. I will keep up all the videos I created in but I will make no more. I have no time for that anyway as I need to take cares of my family.
I will also keep this DeviantArt so I can post non-pony creations, interact with my friends and posts some of my thoughts and interests but no longer centered on ponies. The Bronies for Kindness accounts and web site will be either deleted or re-used for other personal projects. The StandingLeaf Tumblr and Twitter account will stay up, but they will be non-pony related from now on.
Older brony driven by fun, inspiration and hope, passionate about psychology, simple video editor, brony music and tree lover, standing to stay truth to himself against modern day's cynicism and bullying. It's great to be different.
Current Residence: Montreal, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Techno, trance, orchestral, movie soundtracks