I do not know if anyone even reads these. But I figure I'll try.
The current chapter is up on Patreon. It will be up on Sunday/Monday here. The story is REALLY long now. It's getting hard to keep track. My PC can't handle the original text file any more because it is so big, so I'm doing each chapter in its own little file now. That makes it harder sometimes, or slower when I have to look something up.
I never really had a grand idea on where to go with writing this story. I just sit down and the words come out, somehow. But recently real life has become so overbearing once again that it gets hard. Trouble is, where I am now I have too few other hobbies than writing. I work two jobs, both of which require me to stare at a computer screen all day long, reading and writing creatively. My vision is getting bad - and I feel like its affecting the story.
For instance, I'm really unhappy somehow about the new chapter (44) but I can't put my finger on why.
That's why I really would like some negative feedback. If you didn't like something, or if you have suggestions, questions, thoughts, wishes, then please tell me. This helps me become a better writer. Saturn Seven is only my second real story, and I've had great gaps while writing it which each time saw me unlearn things I previously could do. Thanks in advance.
Now, that being said, I don't even know if anyone is really still reading this story at all, other than perhaps a handful of hardcore people (you're the best btw). I don't really read stories any more myself, mostly because the vast majority of them is just abhorrently written, and secondly because I have so little time. I read the authors I used to read, still, sometimes: Kosmita, Emmagear, Hedin, TheGuy and little else. That get's slow, though, too. If anyone has any suggestions about authors worth to pick up I'd be extremely grateful. I feel like I need some input, some inspiration.
I've noticed I'm drifting, not feeling very good. That makes my characters do more or less the same. I guess that's what's happening, maybe.
Also, I've made two general observations that depress me: Writing, as I already said above, seems to be pretty much dead. There just isn't so much drive in it as there used to be, both on part of readers and writers. It's all about pictures, be they renders or drawings, and there are so many creators now that I feel like we don't even need writers any more. God bless those who make those pictures and animations, but nevertheless, this development is sad, isn't it? Secondly, Patreon is just acting dumb right now. I've got more than twenty bucks in pledges, of which I receive eight. I've hated that thing from the beginning, and it is getting just worse and worse. Also, I've never had any success with it. Maybe I should have written more short stories. I don't know. The way I write takes lots of time, I don't have lots of time, and I still care too much about Saturn Seven to devout much time on other stuff. Anyway, I don't grieve it very much any more, and I'm not as good at writing any more as I once was.
I'll still keep doing it though. Saturn Seven is so bloody long that it ought to be legendary on that count alone. I've seen some people mention the story around the web, which made me really warm inside. It is the second-longest story on Giantessworld now, too. If ever I'm finished, or discontinue it, I'll archive all the chapters and post it to a few more places. My dream is that it gets still passed around the community at some point in the future.
Anyway, this is what I wanted to get off my chest. What? Yes, I'm a whiny bitch.
Have a good day, and thank you.