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Hospital oddities

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Hospital oddities

i. ask your housekeeper if you require fresh fruit ii. give me the words but not the pain; give me the warmth of the fire without the flames the future might change but the past stays the same give me a life without any grief give me hope without the need for blind belief the past might change but the future stays the same? iii. i don’t believe in the scars that I’ve got or the spaces between. there was once a whole person there. i outgrew her aged four. iv. water is a vegetarian option (as is milk) v. i am on my own (i am always gonna be this way) vi. we’re all angels here (no love ,we’re all insane) vii. did

L(o)(i)v(e)

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L(o)(i)v(e)

I won’t be the sun at your side Though I’m all you’ve got Let’s escape ourselves (for a while) and watch the drama play out outside the doors.

Confessions of an (ex) smoker

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Confessions of an (ex) smoker

Stare into the wild blackness, Feelings the wind and rain hit my face and hair (Mohican, anybody?) through the upstairs toilet window (I shouldn’t be smoking here, but going downstairs is such a hassle at 3am) I bought an e-cig today. Used Paypal ‘cos it’s quick and easy and I think it’s safe (Panorama scares me sometimes but it’s a big site so security must be pretty tight, right?) Open the window to let some air in (read: it’s blowing a gale) The washing will dry, and as long as I remember to close the door tight the fastidious fire alarm won’t go off (I hope), so my mum will never know. She̵

Word Twister

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Word Twister

Right foot blue. An easy one, except there is strategy in the first move. Our knees clash, yours solid, mine bony. ‘I think we need a break’ Right hand green. Elbows collide as we jostle for position. Left hand yellow. A pause, but thoughts are mush and my brain is mush and my stomach is mush and you are going in for the kill. I resent you now, more than ever, for your ability to out-do me. To do this to me. Right hand red. My palm rushes to reach lust, blood and pain. Accusations stream and overflow: ‘I don’t like to say this but –‘ ‘You’ve changed’ ‘What do you mean?’ 

I walk the earth

highway to the danger zone

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highway to the danger zone

some days i feel so ever more broken that i care to admit even to my dog whose eyes search and he just wags as if to say it’s okay, honestly, and i know then that my dog, like me, can lie. some days i feel more capable of murder then the accepted norm and i cannot admit it to anyone whose eyes would search for some hidden meaning behind those words and i know then that no one quite gets it. some days i listen to kenny loggins more than i’d care to admit to anyone who’d analyse my taste in music and tell me i must be a middle-aged man in a young woman’s body and i know then that it’s just me.

Rawr

Who be the beggar?

Soon I will be old

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Soon I will be old

Soon I will be old. I will be easy pickings for pickpockets. No young man will smile at me in quite the same way again; if I’m offered a seat it’s out of pity, no longer to impress. Soon I will be old. A fall will fragment my pelvis and I’ll need someone else to wash my back and hoist me in and out the bath; but God help me, I will not wear that fall alarm. Soon I will be old. Confusion will creep until time is topsy-turvy and my children will need picking up from school again except now one is the teacher; the other died in a motorbike accident ten years ago. Soon I will be old. Arthritis, dementia, parkinson’s and

The square doesn't fit the circle

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The square doesn't fit the circle

Keep pounding it in That’s it, Chip away at the edges. Make it fit. Hold it tightly A firm grip Try twisting a bit, see? Like that. And push. Try harder. Good girl! You can do it You can work it out; The way some things fit (and some silly things just don’t but they aren’t important darling) And push. So we try our best anyway and We try and make the shapes that don’t fit fit and We try and try and And push.
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Hospital oddities

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Hospital oddities

i. ask your housekeeper if you require fresh fruit ii. give me the words but not the pain; give me the warmth of the fire without the flames the future might change but the past stays the same give me a life without any grief give me hope without the need for blind belief the past might change but the future stays the same? iii. i don’t believe in the scars that I’ve got or the spaces between. there was once a whole person there. i outgrew her aged four. iv. water is a vegetarian option (as is milk) v. i am on my own (i am always gonna be this way) vi. we’re all angels here (no love ,we’re all insane) vii. did

L(o)(i)v(e)

L

L(o)(i)v(e)

I won’t be the sun at your side Though I’m all you’ve got Let’s escape ourselves (for a while) and watch the drama play out outside the doors.

Confessions of an (ex) smoker

C

Confessions of an (ex) smoker

Stare into the wild blackness, Feelings the wind and rain hit my face and hair (Mohican, anybody?) through the upstairs toilet window (I shouldn’t be smoking here, but going downstairs is such a hassle at 3am) I bought an e-cig today. Used Paypal ‘cos it’s quick and easy and I think it’s safe (Panorama scares me sometimes but it’s a big site so security must be pretty tight, right?) Open the window to let some air in (read: it’s blowing a gale) The washing will dry, and as long as I remember to close the door tight the fastidious fire alarm won’t go off (I hope), so my mum will never know. She̵

Word Twister

W

Word Twister

Right foot blue. An easy one, except there is strategy in the first move. Our knees clash, yours solid, mine bony. ‘I think we need a break’ Right hand green. Elbows collide as we jostle for position. Left hand yellow. A pause, but thoughts are mush and my brain is mush and my stomach is mush and you are going in for the kill. I resent you now, more than ever, for your ability to out-do me. To do this to me. Right hand red. My palm rushes to reach lust, blood and pain. Accusations stream and overflow: ‘I don’t like to say this but –‘ ‘You’ve changed’ ‘What do you mean?’ 

I walk the earth

highway to the danger zone

h

highway to the danger zone

some days i feel so ever more broken that i care to admit even to my dog whose eyes search and he just wags as if to say it’s okay, honestly, and i know then that my dog, like me, can lie. some days i feel more capable of murder then the accepted norm and i cannot admit it to anyone whose eyes would search for some hidden meaning behind those words and i know then that no one quite gets it. some days i listen to kenny loggins more than i’d care to admit to anyone who’d analyse my taste in music and tell me i must be a middle-aged man in a young woman’s body and i know then that it’s just me.

Who be the beggar?

Soon I will be old

S

Soon I will be old

Soon I will be old. I will be easy pickings for pickpockets. No young man will smile at me in quite the same way again; if I’m offered a seat it’s out of pity, no longer to impress. Soon I will be old. A fall will fragment my pelvis and I’ll need someone else to wash my back and hoist me in and out the bath; but God help me, I will not wear that fall alarm. Soon I will be old. Confusion will creep until time is topsy-turvy and my children will need picking up from school again except now one is the teacher; the other died in a motorbike accident ten years ago. Soon I will be old. Arthritis, dementia, parkinson’s and

The square doesn't fit the circle

T

The square doesn't fit the circle

Keep pounding it in That’s it, Chip away at the edges. Make it fit. Hold it tightly A firm grip Try twisting a bit, see? Like that. And push. Try harder. Good girl! You can do it You can work it out; The way some things fit (and some silly things just don’t but they aren’t important darling) And push. So we try our best anyway and We try and make the shapes that don’t fit fit and We try and try and And push.

Lost at Sea

the adorable Hyena

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Curiosity

Apartment

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Apartment

Honey from the kitchen. Rain from the window. Having slept all day, I now move silent and smooth, as if not moving at all like a still cup of clear water I slip from room to room, this apartment in which I live alone watching the streets flood lightly watching the air eddy around a candleflame my hands like foreign territories Who knew, all I needed was a little more absence, more and more and more quiet a lessening sense of self as though I could slip out into the night and never be found.
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Veiled Chameleon

Things they don't tell you.

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Things they don't tell you.

Things they don’t tell you about losing your grandfather on a Tuesday night: When you wake the next morning, you still need to get out of bed in time for work, you still have to shower, dress yourself, eat breakfast, brush your teeth and hair;                              and when your mother calls to check in, you have to comfort her because she lost her dad last night;                            and when you call your grandmother your voice cannot waver lest you upset her, because she lost a man she's known for seventy years and even though she would never hold it against you, you still feel obligated not to cry;                  
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Spotlight

Old haunts

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Old haunts

Numb fingers fumble at coppers and a dodgy purple lighter which is unfit for purpose. Giant splodges of stars as if God - in a frolic of youthful exuberance – went wild with a paintbrush. Granite delicately held by shape and contour alone. Slotted together: a melee of ankles, hips, spontaneous larynx. Careless hopes, dreams wide, menthol cigarettes. Thoughts all quiet.
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