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fragmentation of the mind
when born ones mind is fragmented
split if you will
traumatic event in childhood
prevent the mind from becoming whole
dissociation, to cope with abuse
a child may take on different alters
alter stands for altered state of mind
alters can be apparently normal or emotional
apparently normal alters can respond to any situation
emotional alters are there to respond to emotions
a child makes these alters to help them survive
there can be littles, animals, persecutors and protectors
littles are child alters
animals are as it suggests
persecutors harm the body
protector protect the littles and the body
in my system I have a little and a protector
not disclosing the name of my little for their protection
but my protector is void
void once was a persecutor
I am the host
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for all i have become
for all I have become
for all I have been through I have become
a sour expression to all those around
nobody wants me about
for all that has happened
I can see that I have become
a pain to those around me
for all my pain I have suffered
nobody tries to comfort the beast
the beast within the broken
snarling and snapping
clawing inside the mind
I have become an empty beast
void of all emotion
save the anger
frustration
and apathy
acting out of vengeance
for myself
for I know I'm hated
the voices agree
for their is no one
that cares for me
break the mind
break the heart
steal the secrets
steal the soul
nobody is safe from their wrath
the secrets are gone the world
will be saved providing that
no one spills the beans
keep your bones
I have your soul
you have no one
but yourself
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flowers blooming in the night
Flowers blooming in the night,
like tendrils in the day,
seeking for your soul.
Shining in the moonlight,
shrivelling up in the sun.
silvery hues show up strong,
against the canvas of the night.
plain, dull, lifeless,
when you see it in the day,
comes back alive at  night.
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having a bad episode of derealisation.... what is real? am I real? I don't know anymore
Void
this is what void looks like read the text on the image
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when born ones mind is fragmented
split if you will
traumatic event in childhood
prevent the mind from becoming whole

dissociation, to cope with abuse
a child may take on different alters
alter stands for altered state of mind
alters can be apparently normal or emotional

apparently normal alters can respond to any situation
emotional alters are there to respond to emotions
a child makes these alters to help them survive

there can be littles, animals, persecutors and protectors
littles are child alters
animals are as it suggests
persecutors harm the body
protector protect the littles and the body

in my system I have a little and a protector
not disclosing the name of my little for their protection
but my protector is void

void once was a persecutor

I am the host
fragmentation of the mind
poem to do with dissociative identity disorder (quite personal)
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for all I have become



for all I have been through I have become
a sour expression to all those around
nobody wants me about

for all that has happened
I can see that I have become
a pain to those around me

for all my pain I have suffered
nobody tries to comfort the beast
the beast within the broken
snarling and snapping
clawing inside the mind

I have become an empty beast
void of all emotion
save the anger
frustration
and apathy

acting out of vengeance
for myself
for I know I'm hated
the voices agree

for their is no one
that cares for me

break the mind
break the heart
steal the secrets
steal the soul

nobody is safe from their wrath
the secrets are gone the world
will be saved providing that
no one spills the beans

keep your bones
I have your soul
you have no one
but yourself
for all i have become
i just started writing not having a clue where i was going with it
life has been hard these past few weeks
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I wake up at night with a pounding headache,
I don't remember falling asleep or half of what happened,
cuts, cuts, saying the same damn thing,
"Void was here" who the hell is void?
well he is me
he is the voice that haunts my mind,
as well as skysky and danny...
void hurts me
he bullies skysky
skysky is three
danny wants to protect us from void
my head hurt life suck I just want to curl up
Flowers blooming in the night,
like tendrils in the day,
seeking for your soul.

Shining in the moonlight,
shrivelling up in the sun.

silvery hues show up strong,
against the canvas of the night.

plain, dull, lifeless,
when you see it in the day,
comes back alive at  night.
I'VE GIVEN UP IM SICK OF FEELING IS THEIR NOTHING YOU CAN SAY IM SUFFOCATING

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Focads Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the watch.. it means a lot <3
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spoopybvballtheway Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2018  Student Photographer
yw
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Focads Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
^-^
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spoopybvballtheway Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2018  Student Photographer
hm
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BatmanArkhamAwsom Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2018  Student Artist
YOU HAVE BEEN HUGGED
Spread the DA love around!
(You can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)
RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 10 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
Send this to all your friends, and me if I am one.
If you get 7 back you are loved!
1-3 you’re a bad friend
4-6 you’re an ok friend
7-9 you’re a good friend
10-& up you’re loved

Hug
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spoopybvballtheway Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2018  Student Photographer
thanks ive been feeling down recently....
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BatmanArkhamAwsom Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2018  Student Artist
Sorry to hear that, hope the hug helps
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spoopybvballtheway Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2018  Student Photographer
a little bit
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321Technonote123 Featured By Owner May 5, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch!~
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spoopybvballtheway Featured By Owner May 6, 2018  Student Photographer
your welcome
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