Chronic Nighttime Sickness by Spooky-Ooki, literature
Chronic Nighttime Sickness
To the world I love so much,
I'm not the best person in the world,
I'm not the most interesting.
I don't have a car, I can't yet go back to work,
My health is not very trustworthy.
But oh, world, I try so hard
I put so much trust in people, I put so much faith
I try to help others, I try to be there for everyone,
I changed myself, I crawled from my deepest pits.
I've always sacrificed so much of myself for the people I love.
So, tell me, world,
Why is it okay that in the end,
I'm the one everyone can leave behind,
Rob my trust, steal my heart, take my faith,
Take everything I ever gave them, and just walk away?
My dear, you have no idea how I feel
My heart tells me to never surrender,
Everything else tells me to turn on my heel
But my dear, my love, my light in the dark,
I gave you my love, you still have my heart,
Which, from your hands, I still don't know
When, or if, it will ever disembark
Alas, you are no longer mine
And you're in company much more favorable than I can provide
But I still don't know, I'm still not sure,
If I can ever say goodbye.
Tell me, what do you want?
Do you still have your old feelings,
Or have you left them for better thoughts?
Do you still think of me on lonely nights,
Or did you replace my obsolete parts?
So for now, I will stay here and wait,
Because while my gears may rust and my springs may loosen,
They will continue to move, as long as I have you.
Chronic Nighttime Sickness by Spooky-Ooki, literature
Chronic Nighttime Sickness
To the world I love so much,
I'm not the best person in the world,
I'm not the most interesting.
I don't have a car, I can't yet go back to work,
My health is not very trustworthy.
But oh, world, I try so hard
I put so much trust in people, I put so much faith
I try to help others, I try to be there for everyone,
I changed myself, I crawled from my deepest pits.
I've always sacrificed so much of myself for the people I love.
So, tell me, world,
Why is it okay that in the end,
I'm the one everyone can leave behind,
Rob my trust, steal my heart, take my faith,
Take everything I ever gave them, and just walk away?
My dear, you have no idea how I feel
My heart tells me to never surrender,
Everything else tells me to turn on my heel
But my dear, my love, my light in the dark,
I gave you my love, you still have my heart,
Which, from your hands, I still don't know
When, or if, it will ever disembark
Alas, you are no longer mine
And you're in company much more favorable than I can provide
But I still don't know, I'm still not sure,
If I can ever say goodbye.
Started taking pictures mostly to relieve stress. I don't really have any sort of guidelines for what I'll take a picture of, besides "Stuff that what looks neat to me at the time". So the themes will probably change a lot; try not to look too much into it.
Favourite Movies
Scot Pilgrim, The Thing
Favourite TV Shows
Supernatural, Ridiculousness, Adventure Time, Bones
I'm coming to the end of my rope.
Too much work, too much anxiety, too much stress. Little free-time, few people to spend time with. Can't eat, can't sleep, can't think.
I miss having the good friends I used to consider family. But I guess the way they treated me, maybe I was never family to them.
I don't have words for myself anymore. I'm tired of being the only one that tries.
Thanks for giving up on me. Coming from the two most important people in my life, it means a lot.
I hope you're happy, because I'm not. Thanks again for everything you've done. Talk to me if you want to, but I'm out. We'll see how things go.